A/n hope you like it :)

Chapter 1: All the small things

I am Bella swan I am 17 and to lots of people a messed up teenager. I mean just because all I ever wear is dark colors and listen to rock music that doesn't make me a messed up teenager. I have a really bad attitude and anyone who gets on the wrong side of me will feel my wrath.

I just pulled in to the school parking lot only to hear the most annoying kind of music blasting from Edward Cullen's car the guy I truly hated. The thing that bugs me about him is that he his the schools biggest player and has slept with every single one of the female population except me . Anyway he was playing beautiful by Akon really loud and I decided to get him back.

So I got my Ipod and plugged it into the stereo and then put a song on that should shut them all up.

So sick of the hobos always begging for change
I don't like how I gotta work and
And they just sit around and get paid
I hate all of the people who can't drive their cars.
Bitch you better get outta the way
Before I start falling apart

I hate how my wife is always up my ass
She always wants to buy brand new things
But I don't have the cash.

I hate my job, all of my rich friends
I hate everyone to the bitter end.
Nothing turns out right, there's no end in sight
I hate my life!

How come I never get laid, nice guys always lose.
How could she have another headache
There's always some kind of excuse
I still hate my job, my boss is a dick
"I don't get paid nearly enough
To put up with all of your shit"

I hate my job, all of my rich friends
I hate everyone to the bitter end.
Nothing turns out right, there's no end in sight
I hate my life!
Yeah!

I hate that I can't tell when a girl's underage,
You know, I tell her she's a nice piece of ass,
Then her daddy punches me in the face

So if you're pissed like me
Bitches, here's what you gotta do
Put your middle fingers up in the air
Go on and say "Fuck you!"

I hate my job, all of my rich friends
I hate everyone to the bitter end.
Nothing turns out right There's no end in sight
I hate my life!

So much at stake, can't catch a break
I hate my life
No, it's nothing new hear " it sucks to be you"
I firkin hate my life

The look on everyones faces was priceless. I got out of my truck and walked past him and not to my surprise at all he said something to me.

"Swan I think you need to be educated in music" he sneered at me I just walked past him and flipped him of.

I had English first I sat in the back like I always did and I could hear everybody talking about my out burst in music. Everybody at this school only likes hip-hop music and I personally think it sucks really bad. (A/n I do to :)

The day went pretty fast actually. I just walked in when my brother Emmett walked up to me and asked if I wanted to sit with his group but unfortunately that involved sitting with Edward. I didn't mind the rest just that idiot.

"No thanks Em talk to you at home" I said and turned away but Em grabbed my wrist and when I turned back to him he had worry in his eyes.

"Um listen Bella I type of invited Alice,Rose,Jasper and Edward round" he said and I was about to faint but luckily I stopped myself.

"Okay Em whatever see ya at home" I said and sat at the table that no-one sat at and listened to my Ipod and my playlist that I listened to when I was upset or mad which included.

Bullet for my valentine,Theory of a deadman and my chemical romance. (A/n All my favorite bands :)

I had biology next which involved me being partners With Edward I know right how lucky am I. Not. I just sat down in my sit and ignored him until blond Lauren came up to him and started sucking his face of.

"Oi dudes honestly get a frickin room" I shouted at them and Lauren turned round and glared at me and walked of me. I just went make to well nothing. I felt pressure on my right arm and there was a piece of paper. (A/n italic Bella bold is Edward)

Are you jealous.

I almost laughed out loud to that comment and just wrote down a quick reply to play with him a little.

Yeah I was.

It didn't take him long to reply and I laughed a t what he wrote.

I'll give you some after class ;)

EWWWWWW.

Thanks :)

He read that and smiled at me. The rest of class went by slowly and I was excited for what was about to happen. When we got outside the class room the halls were packed. Perfect.

He pushed up against the wall and leaned in and just about when are lips were about to touch. BANG. I slapped him across the face and walked of and there was a shout of "oohh" and lots of laughing.

"What the hell Swan" he shouted after me.

"Sorry Cullen didn't want to get a STD" I shouted back and that started a new round of laughter.

I got home and sat in the living room and plugged my Ipod in and started playing one of my favorite songs and sat and did my homework.

I woke up it was 7
I waited till 11
To figure out that no one would call
I think I've got a lot of friends
But I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone
When you're spending every day on your own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me tonight

And maybe when the night is dead
I'll crawl into my bed staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go & they're gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me

What the hell is wrong with me
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored & I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me tonight
I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I'm just a kid tonight

Then I heard the front door slam and I was met with 5 faces of people who I just didn't want to be around right now. I just picked up my Ipod and books and made my way out of the living room but a certain player was in my way so I shoved him hard and ran upstairs ignoring the calls Emmett was giving me and I fell asleep.

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