Eclipse was an amazing book. I hope there will be another!!! SPOILERS for those who have not read or finished reading the book!!!!!!!
Disclaimer:Eclipse and all other related characters and major plot ideas belong to Stephenie Meyer.
Prologue- My Thoughts
It's amazing how the mind adapts, and somehow, the heart is able to follow. I wasn't saying the fact that leaving Jacob wasn't hard on me, because it still was, but the pain was dulling, to nothing more than a reminder of the painful choice I had to make.
Edward knew it, and I knew he was a little sad too. I knew that in the other world, where everyone is human and everything is normal, that I would be walking down the aisle to Jacob instead and Edward would be standing behind him, as the best man. But this world was reality, and my heart felt much stronger for Edward than Jacob. And I had slept on that thought.
Why, exactly? Why was Edward to important? And it was so simple. Because he had waited, and he had known. He could have had anyone he wanted; anyone in the world, but it was ME he had his eyes on. Not beautiful Rosalie, or strawberry-blonde Tanya, no; a simple, clumsy, semi-normal girl, who was nothing terrifically special. It was because from day one, Edward had tried to so much to protect me and love me at the same time. Jacob…Jacob was different. He was a hypocrite, but a smart one at that. It was true that I had settled for Edward, and not found anyone else and I was in love with Jacob, because at the time when I needed someone, he was like the only one who was there. But he had never looked into other girls either. Perhaps marveled from afar, but not enter a relationship. He settled; for me. And now it was August first. Twelve days until my wedding, and I was…almost excited.
I got the news from Billy that Jacob had gone missing. It stung, to know that he wouldn't be there, though I knew, that it was for the best that he went away. I knew she was out there, the perfect girl for him. I admit, I would be like Edward, jealous of her, for all of about two seconds, before I would realize that his happiness was more important. And it was a hard thing to think about. For the first week after I'd talked to Charlie about my engagement. Everything that happened, all the actions, were in slow motion. I felt like I was watching a movie. It was surreal. My dreams, were of me, in my wedding dress, walking down the aisle, alone, to find that no one was waiting for me.
Edward was worried, I could tell, the way he talked to me, and held me. So cautious that I would break. And I thought about a lot, about my decisions, and that I was going to get married. I'd had second thoughts. Maybe I'd been wrong. Maybe I wanted two black haired children, and a huge, strong, warm husband to come home to. But, I couldn't be wrong. And then it was so simple. How could I not love someone who had turned down two beautiful vampires to find love in a human? There was something there that I had with Edward that I didn't have with Jacob. With Edward, I had secrets. He didn't know me like Jacob did, which is what I wanted. I wanted to figure Edward out, and it would take YEARS maybe even CENTURIES to do that, and I would love him all the more for the quirky little things I knew he was hiding. And I wanted him to figure me out too. We both weren't placated yet, I knew that. But we were in love; I had no doubt in that.
