This is a multi-chapter sequel to my story 'The Twelve Days of Christmas Miracle' you don't have to read that one to read this one but it might make more sense if you did. All disclaimers apply sadly I don't own Criminal minds. Reviews are welcomed!
"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies."
-Aristotle
Garcia sat on the edge of her bed staring into oblivion contemplating how she was going to get out of the mess she'd gotten herself into. She didn't know what possessed her to say yes she could probably blame it on the stress and lack of sleep. No one had slept well after Emily had gotten hurt, but then again she shouldn't be surprised. This unit seemed to have a knack for getting into trouble but no more than Derek Morgan.
Thinking of Derek brought her back to her present dilemma what had possessed her to say yes to him, what in the world convinced her that going to meet his family on New Years was a good idea. Sighing she looked at the phone for the tenth time she contemplated canceling on him say she was sick or Kevin wanted to get back together again.
She snorted, "Yeah as if he'd believe that. He'd probably kill Kevin oh well not as if anyone would really care if Kevin disappeared." It wasn't as if she wanted Kevin back in fact for the past month he'd been relentless in trying to win her over not that she'd tell Derek that. She'd never go back to him he'd burned to many bridges.
Garcia stood and started packing her bright pink duffel bad. She knew that her feelings for Derek weren't completely platonic. Ha who was she trying to kid she'd loved that man from the moment he called her Gomez. That was the problem she loved him so much that every relationship she'd been in had ultimately failed because they all gave the same ultimatum. Shaking her head, she remembered the final fight between her and Kevin.
"I can't do it any more Penny." Kevin said as he began to pack his belongings
"What do you mean? What are you talking about Kevin?" Pen was confused she had no idea what had brought on the abrupt change in attitude. She'd just gotten home from a rough case and had been talking to Morgan when he'd said he needed to talk. Pen sat down on the couch waiting for an answer.
"I'm tired of being second best to what do you call him again a 'chocolate Adonis'. Seriously Penny do you believe for a second you have chance with him?" Kevin knew that he'd always be second best to Derek I'm all that Morgan. Well enough was enough it was either him or Derek.
"What are you talking about I'm with you. Derek is my best friend." Pen knew what was coming next the ultimatum the same ultimatum she always got and each time it was becoming harder and harder to control the pain that ached at choosing her best friend and never being chosen back.
"Oh come on Pen a blind man can see you're in love with him. The only one who doesn't is the man himself." Garcia started tearing up. This was not happening not today of all days not after the case they'd jus had "I'm done its either him or me"
Pen sniffed trying to hold back her tears "You know my answer. He's my best friend I can't leave him." Wiping her eyes, she should have seen this coming she thought to herself. Kevin had always been jealous of him worried that she'd stray but never had she. "I guess you should leave."
Kevin huffed "I guess I should have seen this coming." A look of anger and betrayal crossed his face as he finished packing the last of his things.
"You're the one who made me chose Kevin, not him." Penelope felt her heart begin to break. She hadn't loved Kevin not in the soul binding way but she had cared deeply for him
Kevin walked to the door, turning to her he spit out "You're a fool. He's never going to want to be with you. Who'd truly want to be with a fat cow computer nerd you were lucky to be with me and you threw it away for someone who will never ever love you." With those hurtful words, Kevin slammed her door shut.
Penelope was in shock the pain of the case and break up taking full force on her emotions caused her to fall into the couch bawling. She wanted to call Morgan no she needed to call Morgan but then she'd have to explain and she wasn't ready for that at least not yet. Lying on the couch, she cried herself to sleep
Penelope shook her head pulling herself from the memory. That was why she was heading to Chicago with Morgan. When he'd heard she had broken up with Lynch he'd questioned her and when she refused to give more than a brief reason why he begged her to come with him to meet his family. He'd pulled out all of the stops going as far to promise a shopping spree for Lexi and baby Hotchner heaven knew that had done it for her. She'd meet his family, stay at a hotel and get her shopping done for the newest and soon to be newest members of the BAU family.
She had a plan if she stuck with that plan she'd be fine. She'd make it through this holiday without making a fool of herself she refused to have her heart broken again. She may not have loved Kevin but she'd trusted him and cared for him and he'd thrown it away as if it was a piece of trash. Not as if she'd tell the men on the BAU, she didn't want him dead just very wary of coming near her again.
Penelope was pulled out of her pep talk by the sound of knocking on her door. Looking at the clock, she grumbled "Fifteen minutes early. Someone's excited to leave." Throwing the last of her items into her duffel bag, she made her way to the door.
Pasting on a smile she threw it open "We'll someone's in an excited mood to leave aren't they handsome."
Derek Morgan threw on a thousand watt smile "Baby Girl you have no idea." Pulling her into a hug, he kissed her on the cheek "You ready to go Sweetness." She didn't know it yet but if it was the last thing he did this year He was going to claim Penelope Garcia as his own.
Pen shook her head and laughed "I'm ready hot stuff but the question is can you take what I can dish out." A saucy grin graced her face daring him to retort
Leaning close to her ear in a husky voice he whispered "Don't you know baby girl I can take anything you can give me." With those words he picked up her bright pink duffel bag, holding the door open he guided Penelope out the door "After you sweet cheeks"
Garcia blushed furiously as she made her way through the door. "Why thank you Hot stuff." Garcia gulped Heaven help her it seemed that getting through this week without declaring her love to Derek was going to take every ounce of will power she possessed and she prayed that it would be enough. She refused to lose her best friend even if it meant living with a broken heart.
"Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind;
and therefore is winged Cupid painted blind."
-William Shakespeare
I hope that you enjoyed this chapter and Reviews are welcomed. Let me know how I did and if you have predictions on how this is going to pan out its so much fun to see what people think anyways my fingers have ran away again I really must learn to control them they have a mind of there own. Have a great day
-Galadinzel
