What's somebody like you, doing in a place like this? Say did you come alone, or did you bring all your friends? , Say what's your name, what you drinkin, I think I know what you're thinking, Baby what's your sign? , Tell me yours, I'll tell you mine, Say what's somebody like you, doing in a place like this?
(1, 2, 3, come on!)
I'll never be the same (if we ever meet again), Won't let you get away (say if we ever meet again), This freefall (ahh), got me so (ohh), kiss me all night, Don't ever let me go, I'll never be the same (if we ever meet again)
~ Timbaland feat. Katy Perry, If We Ever Meet Again
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I stagger into my dressing room exhausted and sit down with my face in my hands. I take a swig of my water before I make my way on to the stage again. I may not be the star yet but it's coming. I know that for sure. Right now I'm sort of a co-star, not the star but as close to it as the others get, but this is still my first show, I've been learning some stuff in L.A, was the star for some smaller show, then went in to Broadway. I'm 21 now so it hasn't been that long. I got the role right away. People don't get parts because of they're nervousness, they said, but I was born with it. Of course I knew that, I knew I had talent right away ad I dwell on it. I'm not self-conscious, or nervous, I'm confident. I stand tall and don't let anybody take me down. Also I don't have any weakness, none that I can think of. My parents don't care anymore, they're always off somewhere. Neither one of them has come to see me since the divorce. They keep each other out of their lives, and me. I was never a part of they're lives but I've always been taking care of my self so it doesn't really matter. I sent them both a page long letter telling them how I go the part o Broadway and that I got them both tickets. Neither one of them came. They didn't even tell me why.
"Hey Jesse." I hear Mr. Moskowitz say from across the room.
"Hey," I say taking in a deep breath and making sure I don't look as tired as I am.
"So, you might've know that Dane and Maribeth are moving on now," I knew this was coming soon enough. "So we want to know if you want to take on the male lead?" He says with a bright mile on his face. Sure I'm not the original cast but I'm still the lead.
"Of course I would take it on. It'll be fun." I say as calmly as I can.
"Great." He says, "Oh, and there will be another girl coming to take on the female part. Pretty little thing, reminds me a lot of you." He says trotting out of the room.
Alot like me? Well I might as well meet her.
I stop in my tracks to the scent of strawberries that's all too familiar and a glimpse of silky brown hair streak past me. I stop but I don't turn around because I know for a fact that she doesn't live here and she's younger than me so she couldn't catch up to me that fast. Even though I'm telling myself to keep looking forward and not to turn back I completely fail, I whip around and there she is. Rachel Berry.
She hasn't noticed me yet so I'm about to turn away before she does, but she sees me. Her eyes go wide so I turn away. Hoping I don't look as nervous as I feel, hold on. I feel nervous. No no no. I haven't felt nervous in years. Why now! It's just Rachel Berry. She did hurt me but I got her back. Then it was over. I would never have to see her again. Please tell me she's not the female lead. I don't know if I could handle that.
"Have you met your new female lead yet Jesse?" I hear Mr. Moskowitz's voice call out. I slowly turn around keeping on my showface, not letting it slide off as he introduces my ex-girlfriend to me.
"Actually. We've met before." I say, trying not to sound vulnerable.
"Really? How do you know each other?" He says.
"Um," Rachel starts but since she's not going to finish I finish for her.
"She was my girlfriend in high school." I say bluntly.
"Oh! Then it'll be really nice for you two to catch up."
Yeah, really nice.
"So." I say, "How've you been." Casual Jesse, just be casual.
"Pretty good, just finished up with my first show now I'm moving on to my leading role." She says, sounding exactly like her.
"So, you start on one of you inevitability's yet." I ask without thinking, for a second I thought it was the good old days, when I was totally in love with her. Right now I'm trying to make the "was" stay a "was" She looks sort of shocked that I brought that up, and looks exactly the way she did when I came back from spring break.
"Not yet." She says looking up at me. A sad smile coming over her face.
"Someone's here for you Ms. Berry!" I hear someone shout.
I feel part of me collapse as I see Finn walk in the room. Finn Hudson. I guess he got the girl after I left. He stops for a second and gets that idiotic confused look he get and gives rachel a sharp glare, so I step in.
"We're the stars of the show Finn." I say, "I'll do my best to stay away from your girl" I say mockingly. I march out of the room not meeting anyone's eye, just looking ahead, like 've been doing all my life.
