Relying on someone means that eventually they are going to let you down, because people aren't perfect and that's just life. I don't rely on anyone, not anymore, it was just too painful when they left or decided they couldn't bothered with me anymore, so I kept to myself and didn't rely on anyone other than myself because I was the only person who didn't let me down.
I was perfectly happy with my own company, in fact I enjoyed it, but it also meant I didn't have any friends, I didn't get asked to the school dances and people avoided me like the plague, I suppose I didn't fit into the teenage stereotype where popularity was a live or die notion, prom queen and head cheerleader meant literally nothing to me. Not that I didn't appreciate why people did like it I mean, each to their own right? I just meant that I preferred doing what I like, wearing what I like and spending time with who I like without being judged or pressured to be different.
It would probably surprise most people to know that back in elementary school I was really close friends with Miss Head cheerleader herself! Occasionally she still calls me to ask how it's going, which is really sweet but totally unnecessary, like I said, I don't need friends, especially those who just feel sorry for me!
I don't hate the world or anything, I'm not a hateful or negative person, I see people for what they are and I just don't see why I should fit in, either way it doesn't benefit me, I don't like normal teenage things like partying and hanging out with loads of boys in short skirts, it just wasn't my thing, give me a book and hot chocolate any day. The good thing about all the high school stuff is that it doesn't last forever, in two short years I'll be free to be whoever I want and no one can judge me for it. And then I can be an adult and get what job I want and live where I want with who I want and no one will ever be allowed to tell me what to do. So I go to school without complaining and ignore people as best I can, I study hard so nothing can hold me back and I keep a smile on my face. Because despite the fact that people thought I was a miserable nobody without any friends, I was happy being just me and that is why I always have a smile on my face.
I had been living with my dad, Charlie since I was six when my mom decided to leave me. I'm not angry with her...anymore, she did what she had to do and that is that, I'm not bitter, how could I be? She just did what I wished everyone else would let me do, she's living her life the way she wants to live it! I don't know where she is and I don't want to, I don't need my mum, I'm perfectly capable of looking after myself, hell I even look after my dad, despite the fact that it's supposed to be the other way round.
Of course people always think they know what's best for them, usually right before something happens to make them think otherwise. It took a new family moving into town to make my world turn upside down, and this is what happens when two worlds collide.
