What does dying feel like? Will I feel pain? Maybe I will feel even more sadness instead of pain.
"The only thing that burns in hell is the part of you that won't let go of your life: your memories, your attachments. They burn them all away, but they're not punishing you, they're freeing your soul. If you're frightened of dying and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. If you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels freeing you from the earth." - Meister Eckhart
Then I felt myself floating among the cold, misty and thin air. There, I saw how my life had been, beautiful but I did not cherish the people around me and I also did not live like it was the last day of my life. Looking back, I realised how I had been taking so many things for granted. But it was too late, far too late.
The memories were so depressing. I was forced to reflect and know what things I had done wrong. Did I have to go through all this sorrow just to get to heaven? But sooner or later, I would have to face up to my mistakes.
Then the memories of my good times flashed before me. But all these memories…good or bad were all going to be taken away. Why was heaven so cruel as to not even allow me to bring memories…on my journey to the final awakening? Why did God have to erase off my past?
I had no more chances to make amends.
All of a sudden, everything became still. Nothing stirred. Or was it me. Had I lost all my senses? Or was I already in heaven? I never thought that this day would come. I never planned for it to happen.
But it was predestined that I be brought here. It was time for me to rest in perpetual peace.
