For Paula
He keeps you sane.
They all do. Every single one of your four wonderful friends keep you in your right mind, whether you're on your 'time of the month' or not. They do everything for you, they broke the law for you, they risk being expelled every month because of you and you feel terrible. You don't want them to be in trouble, but they never get caught, they're always careful and as soon as you know that they're all back in their beds sound asleep, you relax, and you let how grateful you are to have them sink in.
Sirius helps you more than most. He cheers you up when you're down, he cracks jokes when he knows you're upset and he is the only one that you feel you can count on fully. James and Peter are great, but James is more interested in Quidditch and Lily Evans to be bothered with your petty problems and Peter; well, he just doesn't seem as friendly or trustworthy as Sirius.
It is Sirius who helps you when your mother dies (she commits suicide because she cannot stand to be ridiculed over what you are) Sirius who convinces you that you are not worthless and that you deserve a life and to live your life well, it is Sirius who pulls you back when you try to jump from the astronomy tower, Sirius who pulls the knife out of your hand when he finds you, hunched over in the bathroom at three o'clock in the morning, Sirius who pulls you out of your depression when you think you're on the brink of no return.
You know you're a monster
But Sirius tells you otherwise.
And slowly, ever so slowly, you begin to believe him.
You stop thinking about your mother's death, you stop thinking about your Aunt, the only member of your family that you have left, disowning you, you stop thinking about what will happen once every month. You push it all to the corners of your mind and hold it there. At first it is hard, but as each day passes, you find the walls getting stronger and stronger, helping you keep the terrible memories at bay. It is mostly because of Sirius, he tells you constantly how beautiful you are, how you shouldn't keep putting yourself down because of something that you can't control.
You love him for it. You love him so much that you think that your heart will burst open and consume him.
One day it does.
It's not one of your best days, you're tired from a bad night's sleep (the walls are not as strong when Sirius isn't with you) and you are thinking bad thoughts, you think about your mother again and immediately become surly.
Sirius notices almost immediately and you know what is coming. Your heart starts to beat faster as he places his hand on yours.
He tells you not to give up. He tells you that you are always worth it, no matter what anybody says.
You can't help it, you lean over and you kiss him full on the lips. To your surprise, Sirius responds immediately and you can tell straight away that he has wanted this for a long time as well. His lips are urgent on yours. It's like the two of you never want to part again, and you know that you won't, because Sirius loves you, and you love him, and you know that he will never, ever leave.
AN: Hi Everyone,
So this is going to be a drabble collection, which is based off of the song "Same Love" By Macklemore and Ryan Lewis, it won't actually have anything to do with the song, but it will only feature slash and femmeslash.
I hope you liked the first chapter! I'd love it if you could leave a review :)
DFTBA,
Best Wishes
~The Original Horcrux~
