I am James Potter

I am Lily Evans

I wonder why Lily won't date me

I wonder where Potter learned to be so irritating

I hear Lily yell at me every day

I hear Potter constantly badgering me

I see Lily's gorgeous red hair and beautiful green eyes

I see everyone else staring at him begging and laughing at me

I want Lily to love me

I want Potter to stop humiliating me

I am hopelessly in love

I am so tired of him

I pretend that the rejections don't bother me

I pretend that I can't hear him when he calls to me in the halls

I feel so hopelessly devoted to her

I feel like screaming every time he embarrasses me by asking me out again and again

I touch her long red locks when she falls asleep on the common room couch

I touch Potter's face when I slap it away from mine

I worry she won't ever love me

I worry he won't ever stop

I cry when she yells that I'm a pathetic little weasel

I cry when I hear people whispering about 'Potter's girl.' I'm not his girl and never will be

I am so stupid to think she'll ever like me back

I am someone who wants to be known as more than just his

I understand that she hates me

I understand that he has too small a brain to let the fact that I don't like him sink in

I say 'Evans, will you go out with me?'

I say 'Not in a million years'

I dream about her being with me

I dream about being known as LILY EVANS, not Potter's girl

I try to get her to date me

I try to make him leave me alone

I hope she says yes

I hope he stops soon

I am James Potter

I am Lily Evans