WARNING: heavy eating disorder/self-hatred issues! Read at your own risk.

Sooo this idea kinda just came to me, and I started whipping out chapters like there is no tomorrow. I really like where this is going.

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Glee. If I did, Ryan Murphy would probably kill me in my sleep.


Quinn stared at her reflection in the mirror of her upstairs bathroom. Her face was wet from crying and her messy, short hair was tied back in a small ponytail. "You're disgusting." she spat, splashing water on the mirror, making the image looking back at her distorted and blurry. She rushed through getting ready. Plastered on make-up, made her hair perfect, dissected her outfit to make sure it was just right before she made her way to her car and started the drive to McKinley. She went through her day with an act. A mask. Quinn laughed with her friends, gave flirty smiles to the boys and glared at Rachel Berry and Finn. It was what she did. This was her new routine before she would undoubtably break down during either third or fourth period in the girls' bathroom. Sometimes she used the Glee room when no one was in there, because it just served as a security blanket.

Which is exactly what she did during third hour Geometry. She sat in a hard plastic chair and cried silently in the dark. She sat there while her shoulders shook with sobs until someone turned on the light while being in the middle of a catchy chorus.

"Oh, sorry. I'll be out of your—are you okay, Quinn?" it was Blaine, Kurt's boyfriend. The two had never spoken so much as two words to each other, but he was nice. Always pleasant. Blaine had transferred that fall for whatever reasons.

"Yeah, I'm fine." Quinn smiled, her face still wet and tears still streaming out of her eyes.

"I... are you sure? I mean, I know we're not super close or anything, but-"

"Blaine. Please. Leave me alone." her voice was quiet, her eyes pleading.

Blaine stood awkwardly in the doorway before making his way over to Quinn and sitting next to her, handing her a small slip of paper, his name and cell phone on it. "I know you want to be left alone, but this is for when you don't. I won't tell anyone anything, not even Kurt if you don't want me to. But whatever it is, you don't have to do it alone." Quinn grasped the slip in two fingers, not making eye contact with Blaine. She simply nodded. Blaine shot her a sad smile before retrieving the sheet music he came into get and left the choir room. Quinn sat silently for a few moments, Blaine's words resounding in her more than she thought they would. The bell rang and she finally took a deep breath and exited the classroom, walking off to her fourth hour class. She sat silently in British Literature. She hated this class, but it was a requirement if she wanted that damn honors diploma. After class, she darted out of the room and started making her way to the choir room, where she spent her lunch periods when everyone else thought she was studying. On her way, she literally ran into Blaine. He gripped her thin arms to keep her from falling.

"Woah, easy killer!" Blaine cracked a smile that Quinn tried to return. "Have a good day, okay Quinn?" Blaine smiled another smile. This one was more gently and less joking than the other.

"You too, Blaine." she said, smiling politely.

The two parted and she continued to walk to her destination, "Heya, hotstuff!" a tall, muscular boy smirked at her while his girlfriend, Lauren, smacked him on the arm.

"Shut it, Puckerman!" Quinn called over her shoulder, smiling playfully at the couple. She let her posture and her face fall as she walked back into the choir room.

"Hey Quinn!" Mr. Shue said happily. Oh my god can't you all leave me alone? She thought. Instead, she smiled at her teacher.

"Hey, Mr. Shue. Is it okay if I study in here? The cafeteria is too loud." she smiled innocently as her teacher granted her permission.

After a few long moments of silence and Quinn's fake studying, Mr. Shue spoke up again, "Can I ask you something, Quinn?" she nodded, a sweet smile spreading across her face. "Are you... are you okay? You've been losing weight and not really paying attention in Spanish."
Quinn was growing increasingly frustrated. What was with people today? First Blaine, now Shue, "I'm fine. Just stressed about college stuff, as every senior is." she smiled what she hoped was a genuine smile. Judging by Mr. Shue's returning smile, it was. Quinn had turned into a better actor than Kurt Hummel and Rachel Berry combined. If that was even possible.

The rest of the day was uneventful. She had one class with Blaine and Kurt when she noticed Kurt wasn't there, "Visiting his Grandma in Michigan for the week," Blaine had responded when Quinn asked about Kurt's absence. After Chemistry she and Blaine walked together to Glee, which gave people excuses to whisper and point. "It's kind of funny. At this school, even if people know you're gay, they're still gonna spread rumors about you and me." Quinn said to Blaine as they entered rehearsal. For the first time all day, Quinn didn't feel alone. She didn't feel worthless or upset. Because these people were her family. Screw her stupid mother. Quinn's smile faltered when she realized Glee's rehearsal was only an hour long, and that much sooner she'd be back at home, facing her demons.


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