DJ took in the view of the bustling Japanese city from the rooftop. It was breathtaking and she was up here with a man who, while she wasn't sure he was her soul-mate, she did love him. It was a great scene and her heart felt full. She felt Matt's arm wrap around her to pull her close and she sighed as she leaned back into him.

She felt slight pressure at his hand on her hip and turned to face him. That was when she noticed that he was sweating. She tried to calm him, wait, is Matt afraid of heights? "it's so beautiful up here!"

Matt quipped out a compliment about her beauty only increasing the beauty of the scene and her heart-rate picked up. This man really knew how to make her blush. Suddenly, Matt was on one knee and reaching forward with a small box.

And a diamond.

A small box, which had an even smaller cushion, with a diamond resting in it.

Oh no. No. no. no. no. no. This can't be happening.

Matt seemed to be laying it on a little thick in the romance department as DJ internally freaked out. "Will you make me the happiest man in Japan and be my wife?" Matt looked so happy. DJ groped her mind for any possibility of what to say.

She had been having doubts about Matt since things got real with CJ and Steve. Really, since that day at the dress shop. Matt was an amazing guy, but he wasn't Steve. She had been about to pick Steve at the end of the summer when they both showed up with other girls. Now things had been so great with Matt, but her heart sank every time she had to help Steve with something for his upcoming wedding to someone else.

Still looking for how she could say anything close to her heart without ruining what she and Matt had, she choked out, "This is totally unexpected!"

This seemed to please Matt rather than to derail his thoughts. "that's what I was going for! I love you and you love me! Will you marry me?" He was so optimistic. Through all of this awkwardness of everything with the two of them, her history with Steve, and how often the four of them still saw each other, Matt had never questioned DJ's devotion to him. Here he knelt, waiting for her answer. DJ found that she didn't really want to say no, but she couldn't bring herself to say yes either.

Reaching down to gently place a hand on Matt's cheek, she saw the fear form in his eyes. "Oh, Matt." Tears began forming in her own as she felt that she could see his heart crash through his chest and land at her feet. She grasped his hand that held the ring box and pulled him up. "Matt, I'm not saying no. I'm not."

Her voice caught.

Matt stood and turned away from her. She could hear the emotion rising in his voice as he tried to compose himself. "but you're not saying yes, either."

"Matt." DJ was crying now and Matt turned to her, and with a sigh, opened his arms. DJ collapsed against him, sobbing. When she had calmed down and pulled back a little, she swiped at the tears and make up running down her face.

"Matt, I'm not saying yes, but you need to know why." She sniffled and squared her shoulders. So many thoughts hit her as to why she wasn't saying yes. Most of them had nothing to do with her feelings for Steve, although that was there.

"When we started dating, I had just decided that I was ready to open my heart again after losing my husband. It had only been a few weeks before that I had removed my wedding ring to put on a chain instead of on my finger. Then all of the stuff that happened, happened. When we finally just got together, the two of us without the drama, it had only been two and a half years without Tommy, and now, we just passed the anniversary of losing him. You helped me through that. You gave me space on that day." She placed a hand on his chest and smiled up at him. "I can't thank you enough for understanding that I needed that time alone that day. But I can't say yes to you yet."

She turned away from him and wiped her hands against her dress. She was nervous and she knew that he was. With a deep, steadying breath, she turned back around, "I love you, Matt, I do. You're right. And I love that you have so much confidence in us that you're willing to ask me this, but we haven't even been together for a year."

DJ was nervously gesturing as she tried to explain this, not sure if she was making any sense. Matt placed his hands on her shoulders. "Deej, we're here for a wedding of a couple who has only known each other for just over a year. Time doesn't matter, not when you feel like we do!"

She shifted from foot to foot, trying to keep herself under control. "Matt, my final answer, while we're here, is not right now. So much is going on. We're here celebrating a wedding of a guy I used to be in love with, to a woman who I'm not always sure is right for him, but who, really, I barely know. I have to be this woman's maid of honor because she has no one else to do so here, so I have all of that stress that just was put on me. You know me, I like to be in control. We're in a brand-new place, with a wedding to help put on, and we're jetlagged, and, and…" DJ trailed off. She had been about to say "I'm still in love with Steve." That wasn't a comment that would be helpful to this situation.

Matt, however, seemed to know where her train of thought was headed. "We're here for Steve's wedding. I get that this is tough for you. I wish it wasn't. I don't want to be, but in this case, I'm kind of selfish. I want you to only love me, but I know that you don't." He closed the space between them and laced their fingers together. "You're with me. You've committed to me, and that's good enough for now. I'm willing to grow with you for the rest of our lives. By this time tomorrow, Steve will be married and we can put all of that in the past."

DJ's eyes shone. She marveled at the man in front of her. "How is it possible that you're so understanding of everything? You say you're selfish, but, Matt, I have never met anyone less so than you." The two tilted their heads and met in a slow, soft kiss. DJ was the one to pull away first. She loved Matt. True, she also loved Steve, but he was getting married tomorrow. And, as Stephanie and Kimmy had told her, he heard her say that he might be her soulmate and he hadn't talked to her about it. It was high time that they both, finally, moved on. "I do love you. I do want you to ask me again, when we're home and settled."

Matt rubbed his thumb across the back of her left hand and then brought it up to his lips and lightly placed a kiss right where a ring would go. "I plan to hold you to that. Come on, let's get back down to the rehearsal dinner." His smile was infectious and DJ was soon matching his as he led her back down the stairs.

As they passed by a small patch of trees, DJ felt someone pull at her hand.