To my dearest Ginny,

As you read this I expect grief is at its peak at the moment. I certainly had to go with a great dramatic end, didn't I? I wasn't satisfied with just saving the world a few times. Though it is possible I may survive, I doubt it. This is going to be powerful magic, its going to kill us all in the cave tonight.

I won't tell you not to grieve, I won't tell you not to be upset nor not to cry, for I know it isn't possible. If you were gone, I would be inconsolable. I truly believe I'd just end it to be with you again.

But you're stronger than that, Gin. You'll live on to see Lily give birth to our first grandchild. You'll live on to see many more. You'll live on in the life of love we created together. I know your family will look after you for me, and James, Albus and Lily will be there always as a reminder to who I was.

You used to tell me everyday different qualities you saw in them that was mine. James had my spirit, he had the hero complex. Albus inherited my quietness and broodiness and hatred of fame. And Lily, my angel, had my loyalty to people, the undying faith in her friends, family and those around her.

I thank you for the life you gave to me. For the love you gave to me. I know I can't have been the easiest of husbands. You told me often enough! I hope I made you smile. I always loved your smile. I always loved your laughs; they always varied depending on your mood and the reason for laughing. My favourite of your laughs is when you giggle of a night. It reminds me that this is real. That I'm not dreaming. That I'm not going to wake up and find myself in the tent with Ron and Hermione again still searching for Horcruxes

You have provided me with many happiest days of my life. And since you're not going anywhere I'll tell you them.

The first happiest day you truly gave me was when you said yes. I was unbelievably nervous doing it you know. But then you joined me on one knee and kissed me, pressed your forehead to mine and with that gorgeous smile you whispered yes.

The second happiest day you gave me was of course, our wedding day. Again, I was nervous. Of course Ron couldn't help but make me nervous with his taunts that you'd do a runner. He really is a prize git sometimes!

The third happiest day is the least expected I guess. We had been married two weeks and a day and we had come home from our glorious honeymoon. And as I sat down in our kitchen, you started bustling around. I looked up and saw you attempting to make breakfast. The key word – attempting. I remember teasing you and you telling me to come and help if I could do so much better. I did. The whole kitchen was a mess from our attempts at breakfast. We gave up and had a food fight with eggs, flour, tomatoes and goodness knows what else. And on the kitchen floor, amongst the mess and with flour all over our faces and egg in our hair, we made love.

I truly think that's when I started living again after the war. Just knowing we could do that anytime we wanted that we were free and we were happy. We were together and married. It's still the memory I use for my patronus.

I think you can guess the fourth, fifth and sixth happiest days? In case not, it's the births of our three beautiful children. You gave up your dream job to provide me with children. I will never be able to thank you enough for that.

Being a Father changed me in a way. Though I'd had practise with Teddy who looked up to me and doted on me every time he saw me, I always had the reassurance that Andy was bringing him up. That he'd always have her there when I screw up.

With James, it was different. He was mine. I was his father. I had helped bring him into this world. Between me and you we had to raise this life. And though, I knew what to do the basics thanks to Teddy. I had no basis on how to bring him up properly. The only up bringing I had was one of cruelty, and of abuse.

I actually cried when I left St Mungo's after James was born. And you had gone to sleep. I cried because I was scared that James would end up being like me. That I would raise him wrong, and he would resent me.

I was frightened that I would be too lenient with him, he would expect everything on a plate, and he would end up like my cousin. I was frightened that I would be too hard on him, and he would grow up flinching and being nervous and being a stranger to love like I was.

But I collected you and James from the hospital the following day and everything fitted into place. And then Albus came along, and shortly after Lily was born.

You are such a great Mom to them They love and adore you as they should, and are protective of you in such a fierce way that I know you will be safe.

It seemed to happen so sudden that I looked around at the Burrow and saw a family. I was part of it, Gin. It was such an amazing and overwhelming feeling; a wonderful feeling. One that I'm glad to say has never left me.

I love you Ginny. With everything I have. My heart, from that first day in the common room, has always been yours. Never forget that. I will never allow you to feel lonely. I'll always be there with you; I'll always be watching you.

And when you come to board the final train, I'll be waiting for you.

With all my love,

Harry.

Xxx

P.S I could fill another hundred pages of parchment with kisses and it wouldn't be enough.