All I Ever Wanted- A Hollywood Heights One-Shot
AN: So this one-shot was requested by a lovely anonymous person so anon hope you enjoy. Now this story pretty much makes it seem like life just couldn't get worse for a certain someone, but don't worry things start to turn up eventually there's always a bright side to everything. Well let's just see if this story does actually have a happy ending enjoy people's yeah I know people's isn't a word.
Eddie's P.O.V
Why did you do this to yourself do you really not know how beautiful you are. Why must you let the insecurities get the best of you? I told you every day I loved you, but now you just left me here sitting alone in the dark. It was a misunderstanding I would never do anything to hurt you, I loved you with all of my heart and I still do till this day. Now I heard you don't even talk to anyone anymore, and you're not who you used to be apparently you were stuck in a deep depression. It's been two months since we broke up and I don't recall anything major happening, what happened to the girl that always plastered a huge grin on her face. Loren and I weren't on speaking terms anymore, and she wanted nothing to do with me well at least that's what I thought. I still talk to Loren's best friend Mel and she has told me that Loren hasn't been doing too great. That's all she ever shared with me, and what did this mean? The only thing that I knew was that something had happened to Loren recently a couple weeks ago, and the only thing Mel would confide was that someone was making her life miserable and there was nothing she could do about it. Whoever was doing this to Loren needed to be stopped this instance I would kill anybody who hurt Loren. Wait no then I guess I would have to kill myself. In the recent days I have seen Loren at the café because I just stop by their "coincidentally" sometimes. Whenever I saw Loren her eyes were puffier than ever, and she looked like she was just completely lost and had no clue what to do next in her life. Sometimes I would listen into her conversations between her and her friend, but only for a short period of time because I was scared she was going to see me. I heard her say things like "It's been getting more unbearable, and I just feel worthless in this world now." Was she crazy she's anything but worthless; in fact a day with the infamous Loren Tate could just bring out the cheery side in anyone? What the hell was going on with Loren, now she's just too upset to even take a step out into public. These past two months have been some of the worst in my life, and I can't stand not having her beautiful brown eyes looking into my eyes.
The way they glistened whenever there was just a glimpse of light in the room drove me insane, not to mention her added smile made me love her even more. Loren was so kindhearted, down to earth, and had a great sense of humor. There would only be two times out of a week where I would see her frown and now it's seems like a regular daily thing. Also I haven't even written a note of music, because I no longer have her, my muse. Not even a picture or a cherish able item left behind she left me with nothing at all. So how could I possibly even play a key on the piano without having any inspiration whatsoever? Loren was my perfect ideal girl, and I would give anything to have her in my arms again. Just why though? She just had to be taken away from my reach. I loved every single thing about her especially her sparkling personality and her sharp wit. I remember the day we broke up she had the idea in mind that I didn't love her anymore, because she had seen me hanging around with other girls lately. And it was true for a few days I had been completely alienating her. I guess it wasn't as much of a misunderstanding as I thought. I was being a complete jerk to her most of the time, and I broke the promise that I would never leave her side, but I left her side one too many times before. So eventually she got fed up with it, and just left my penthouse taking all her things with her. We had been living together in previous times, but she didn't even leave me with one single momentum. I get it though if I was in her shoes I probably would have just walked out too. These past few grueling depressing weeks have made me start to come to terms that she may never forgive me. I couldn't blame her no one really could after all I broke her heart after I promised her I wouldn't. Loren was everything I could ask for she was perfect, everything she did left me breathless and I couldn't help but feel lucky to have her. I took her for granted though and let my stubbornness and insecurities get the best of me. I thought Loren was too good for me, so that's why I just became a complete jerk. How stupid can one man be? Loren was all I ever wanted, and nothing and no one would change that. Right now this second I was sitting on my piano bench, and I was thinking about the day Loren had left, by the way this was one of the worst days of my life. You know it's funny I thought our love would last a lifetime, but this thought was proven out to be incorrect. It hurts so much to know that you are the one who screwed the best thing you could have ever had. Heartbreak that's all I felt nowadays even if I just tried to put on a smile it wouldn't feel right. Why couldn't life be easier and less painful?
Why did we have to live in such a cruel unusual world? I feel worthless and without Loren I just feel that I will never be able to know the feeling of love again. I tried millions of times but I just couldn't let the feeling of love enter my heart again. I tried to see other girls, but none of them made me believe that we had a special connection. It's time to face the facts I'll never love any other women again unless it's the one and only Loren Tate. She brought out the brighter side to every day. Even if it was cloudy and all you could hear was the trickle of raindrops Loren somehow made the day more enlightened. I can't do this anymore I just can't take being without her, the pain is just eating me alive. I've felt heartbreak before but never have I felt this much pain ever, well except when my Mom died that would be the only time. When my Mom died I felt like I had lost a part of me, and when Loren left me the other part of me had already gone. So I just didn't know what to with my life anymore I was stuck. Two months of ongoing agonizing pain and I still haven't found the strength to smile. It was unusual actually, because even if I tried to put on a happy mood it hurt tremendously. That's when you know you reached the ultimate level of depression, when it hurts to smile you know you've completely given up all hope on happiness. I needed and wanted desperately to make things right again, but Loren just wanted nothing to do with me, and I didn't want to disrespect her wishes. Then again though it doesn't hurt to try, after all the worst she could say is no. While before I put that plain into action I figured I would write out some lyrics that had been stuck in my head. Even when Loren's presence isn't actually here somehow she still finds a way to inspire me.
Why can't you believe, and why can't just give it another go
I'm here begging on my knees hoping you won't say no
See girl this is the effect you have on me, I'm over her pleading
For you to just say a word to me, don't you know how much I
Love you I said it every day and still think it every night
Even if I say I'm moving on, you know that thought is completely
Wrong because you're one of a kind, and my heart will always belong
To you, Even if it's raining the storms clouds are rolling you still find
A way to brighten up the day, And girl I know you're thinking that it's
Just too good to be true, but you know that's my heart will always
Belong with you because this love we share is one of a kind and so are you
Everything about you takes my breath away and I hope you know
You're all I ever wanted
{Lyrics to a song I wrote called All I Ever Wanted}
After I was done writing the lyrics down I quickly got my keys, and headed out the door putting my plan into action. I needed to at least make an attempt after all the worst she could say is no. Little did I know her saying no is not the worst part, because when I got there I would come upon a horrifying image? The worst has yet to come, but then again there is always a bright side to everything right?
Loren's P.O.V.
Hell that's where I feel like I'm at right now. Nothing is the same anymore, and nothing will ever be again. How did everything go from fantastic too horrible in a matter of seconds? Well I know what would answer that question; my life has been a complete disaster ever since Eddie left my life. I knew deep down that there would never be a guy like him, because after all he was one of a kind. Eddie was the only thing that let me find the strength to go on another day. He was slowly changing me as a person, but all that was lost when I ended the best thing that could have ever happened to me. I loved him and I still do, but I just couldn't bring myself to tell him face to face. I mean looking in the mirror in lately I looked just plain horrible, there were cuts on my arms, bags under my eyes, and my mascara was constantly running down my cheeks from the constant tears. And it's all because of two horrible people and that is Chloe Carter and Adriana Master. These two are the main cause of my depression, and the main reason why I couldn't' bring myself to talk to Eddie again. See I thought that he had moved on, and gotten got back together with Chloe, because lately Chloe has been putting forth that idea. I at first didn't want to believe, but her being the conniving person she is made me believe that it was true. Chloe had told me that Eddie no longer wanted anything to do with me, and that he said that I was just a mistake put in the past. Chloe and Adriana had made my life a living hell at school, because they've just been tormenting and teasing me. And there was nothing I could do about it because Chloe had told me that she will do a certain something, and I didn't want to put forth that risk. So I instead just kept my mouth shut, and remained silent for the time being. Melissa tried to help me but I wouldn't let her get in harm's way. I can't believe how cruel and manipulative one person could be until I met the fellow duo Chloe and Adriana.
The two together in the same room just made me overwhelmed with fear. Why did I let them get to me so much though after all I know who I am. I guess at the end of the day my opinion of myself hadn't really sunken into mind, and I just listened to what everybody else though of me. After school every day I would come home acting like I had the best day every so my Mom wouldn't be suspicious. The only person I have told about the matter in hand was Mel, and that was it. When I got home I would just run to my bathroom and cry while sitting in a corner. And yes I did cut, but only a few times because it helped relieve the pain. It's not my fault the pain just hurt too much that cutting myself would just release some of that added on stress. I would cover them up with my sweater when I went anywhere so nobody would know. I was the only person who knew I did this, and I planned to keep it that way. The world that surrounded me was cold and dark, and I just felt that life couldn't get any worse. I was stuck in a deep depression never willing to come out if it, after all I no longer had anybody to help me through it well except for Mel. Eddie is what I needed though because he always made me smile, and I could just let out all my emotions when I was around him. I miss him dearly and I will forever miss his warm embrace, I still hold onto the feeling seeing that I will never feel his arms around me again. Right now it was about 5:00 on a Saturday, and I didn't have really anything to do. My Mom was work oddly enough, and Mel was busy doing family activities. So I was just stuck here all alone at home with no one around. I just lay down on my soft plush bed, and kept on tossing and turning wishing that I could just wake up from my nightmare of a life. Finally I had decided on a position, and just stayed there looking up at my pink celling while my elbow was resting on top of my head. Suddenly my phone beeped which meant I had received a text message, this startled me a little but soon enough I turned over to my nightstand to grab my phone. As soon as I looked at my phone screen I had seen that I got a message from Adriana, great how did she get my number. I opened the text hesitantly not really wanting to see the content within it, but sooner or later I gave in. It was a recorded message so I played it, and I was left saddened and dumbfounded by what I heard. No Mel would never say that she would never; Adriana must have used some voice modifier or something like that. Tears started to roll down my face, as I started to come to terms with the message. Mel said she would be my best friend for life and she would never hurt me. How could she say something so cruel, and she had no clue what pain it was bringing me. Great just when I thought someone cared, this though ended up being completely wrong. I jumped to conclusion to soon, and automatically fell back into my deep depression, but this time the feeling were getting stronger. I now feel that there was really no one who cared about me, and I just wanted to end all this pain. I ran to my bathroom with sadness taking over the rest of my body, and automatically opened the medicine cabinet to take out some sleeping pills. I took about 5 or 6 from the container, and placed the pills in my hand. Before I did this though I went to my room and grabbed a tiny pieced of scratch paper and wrote a note for anyone who is too see it. After that I went back to the bathroom and took one last good look at myself in the mirror, and figured this was the only way out of this nightmare. This was the only way, and with that I placed the pills into my mouth therefore swallowing them, and they took effect quickly. I now slumped onto the bathroom floor, and my eyes were shut tight, and I was thinking that my nightmare would end soon. Yes my nightmare would end soon, but It was no meant to end it like this. I will see eventually what faith has in store for me, and I will be seeing it very soon.
Eddie's P.O.V.
It seems that when adrenaline took over my body I tended to drive faster. That's why I had arrived at Loren's house after about a 10 or 15 minute drive. I quickly rushed out the driver side door, because I felt in a very impatient mood right now and I had no clue why. Even after all these months that had past I still remember where she lives. I saw the only one car was parked in her driveway, and it was Loren's car. So I thought it would make things ten times easier now because it's just me and her talking. I was now at her front door step, and I was about to knock but I saw the door was opened slightly. So I figured it would be alright If I could come in, because I'm not a robber or burglar. I quickly shut the door behind me as I made entry into the house. My eyes automatically scanned the living room to see if Loren was anywhere, but she was not in this vicinity. So I figured she would probably be in her room, and I went towards her bedroom door, and when I took a peek inside all I could hear was silence. Assuming that this was weird I made way into the room, and saw that everything was still the same in her room, and her Eddie Duran poster was still there. This made a warm smile form on my face, because it's nice to know she still has the momentum. Looking around the room I only saw one thing missing and that was Loren where was she? I started to shout her name all around the room while wandering in a circular motion, but I couldn't even hear so much as a whisper. I figured she probably went somewhere with her Mom so I was about to head out the door, but I heard the ring of a phone and turned into the direction of the sound. I saw Loren's phone was on her bed, but when I was walking over there I saw something out of the corner of my eyes. It looked like a human lying on the bathroom floor. So I took a long pause and started at it, and I knew who it was in that instance. My body sprinted towards her side and I flipped her over to see her face. She was covered in tears, and to my dismay I saw cut on her arms. I touched her neck with my fingertips and couldn't feel even a slight pulse. So I took out my phone and dialed 911 in a haste manner. After telling them the address and everything I quickly grabbed Loren and placed her in my arms. I was crying wonder why she would do this to herself, doesn't she know she's beautiful. I brushed her hair back behind her ears, and her eyes were shut tight. I was completely wrong when I said the worst thing she could say is no, because right now she couldn't even speak. How more horrible can this day get? Hopefully things will get better. Hopefully.
You hate me right, well don't worry every story always needs to have a happy ending, then again though it might make it more interesting if I didn't have a happy ending. While this is the first part of the one-shot so hope somehow you enjoyed. Sorry for mistakes they will be fixed later, and to the anon who requested this you're welcome. Have a nice day you'll:):)
