I don't own CSI Miami, Grey's Anatomy neither this song (Vitor e Leo – Meu eu em você)…
"Ok… I was watching this episode from Grey's Anatomy called "What difference a day make" and I had this wanting to make a wedding scene like that one but with Eric and Calleigh, so here it is…
Summaries: discovering who you really are for me… in me!!
You in Me
Hi, I'm Calleigh Duquesne, a ballistic expert and also a CSI… and this is my life….
When I was a kid, I always dream about those fairytales where a handsome knight was coming, and propose, and we get married and live happy forever, but I learn very early that fairytales don't become reality. In real life was different.
My first love, at least I thought it was, was in college. I was young, full of dreams, plans and Jake, at those moments' looks like he was one of my dreams coming truth. Until the day he chooses his career besides me. He had broken my heart, my first and big deception… but like my mom used to say "life keep going; it's time to move on"and so I moved, radically. Finishing my degree, I moved to Miami leaving behind all the bad memories or at least trying to.
New city, new air, new people, new life and so new experiences; those were my thoughts. I started working in MDPD on crime lab as a CSI, on LT. Horatio Caine team and in the beginning I was excited, happy. After a year I meet detective John Haigen and he brings me some memories from my past. At first I was reluctant but then I give a try and we start dating… in the beginning everything was new, good at some point but later our relationship was more like a friendship, the feeling just doesn't existed anymore. We decided to take a break and the tragedy came. John kills himself in front of me, on my lab; the only place I love it to be. That's cause me so much pain, it was like I was inside a nightmare that I couldn't get out but with the help of my friends and specially Eric, I survived and recovered.
You are the shine of my eyes when I look at you
You are my smile when I win a kiss from you
You are my whole body shuddering
When in your arms you shelter me
Two years later, in a sunny day in Miami, a hurricane comes to my life again. A hurricane named detective Jake Berkley and I hated him, I hated myself for letting him in again; I knew he was bad news but something in him connected with something in me, that was inevitable and with his promises that he had changed we started a new-old relationship. A wise person said: "Once bad always bad" and that quote fits perfectly on Jake. For almost two years our relationship or at least what I thought it was, was full of ups and downs, sometimes he lied to me, others he put the guilty in his undercover job or even in me; we break up and came back and that started to make me review what I really wanted in life. So I open my eyes for what was happen around me, observing some things that for some time was there but I didn't see it, Eric. I started thinking about our friendship, the way he always looked at me, talked to me always giving me more attention that I really deserved; we shared, we flirted and after his shot I became closer to him.
You are my most occult secret
My desire deeper, my will
My pleasure hunger without disguising
You are the source of happiness, you are my dream
Maybe the fear of loosing such a special person and friend make me realized how important Eric was for me but at the same time I was hurt from Jake so I deceive myself with the idea that Eric was important for me as a friend and only that. But time passed, new and olds deceptions come and in all these messy, one good thing remains, Eric. After almost seven years of friendship, partnership, he was the only one that never let me down. Always when I was misjudge, hurt, confused he was there for me and that's raise a different kind of feeling in my heart that I wasn't used to feel, actually a feeling never felt before. It wasn't friendship anymore but it wasn't love too, at least I thought, after all who am I to know what love is?
You are my shadow, you are my guide
You are my moonlight in the middle of the light of the day
You are my skin, protection, you are my heat
You are my smell to perfume our love
Those unknown feelings was growing up more stronger than never and the fear of screw such a great friendship and revived such a nightmare was biggest… until the day I was on the hospital room and heard him telling me, in the way that it looks like he reserved only to talk to me and no one else, that he couldn't live his life without me. My eyes was closed but my mind was full aware of him, of his sincerity and truth as he spoke and for a couple of minutes I remember all the good times we were together, all the bad events that happens to me like the Johns death, the ballistic lab on fire, the accident on my day off, the kidnap and now this… in all this he was the only one there for me, more than a friend a shelter, without doubts, without waiting something for a change but only my well.
You are my repressed longing
You are my bleeding when I see you departure
You are my chest to appeal, to scream of pain
When I see you more distant from my love
Hearing him, make me realized that all this time I look at the wrong places because all I wanted, all I needed was right in front of me, in Eric. Looking back the memories of my life I remember once my mom's telling me that one day I would find someone special, someone that I would know is the one. Someone that doesn't need to show or prove something but someone that is the right person for and it's exactly what I see in Eric, he is the kind of men with flaws, yes but who doesn't? I have! But an honorable men. He can read me so well that sometimes, with just a look in the eyes, he knows what to do to make me fell better and if what I feel for him is love… so I might be so damned in love with him because I can't live without him too. In him I found the sparkle that was missing in my life and only he could give me.
