All you wanted
Disclaimer: I do not own Gakuen Alice.
Summary: Christmas was coming and Mikan can't find Natsume anywhere. She sat down at the Sakura tree and began to sing. Little did she know that someone was listening to every word she says. All of them are 16, and Natsume still hasn't confessed.
It was a very cold morning. Christmas is coming and snow is falling on the ground. A certain brunette was still sleeping and dreaming about howalons, until her alarm clock woke her up. 'KRINGGGGGGGG!!!!!!'
"oh man! stupid alarm clock! its Saturday morning…sigh..oh well I guess I better go and change." she said particularly to herself. She did her morning routines, took a bath, dressed and ate breakfast. After eating her breakfast, she went to find her so-called bestfriend Hotaru but she couldn't find her anywhere.
"hmm..i wonder where Hotaru had gone..its really early, I bet she's still asleep.."she said, just then she was shocked when someone from behind her spoke. "Sakura-san, have you seen Hotaru-chan?" Mikan looked around and saw none other than Ruka Nogi, her bestfriend's boyfriend.
"oh..ohayou Ruka-pyon! I haven't seen her, I was just done looking for her but I gave up, I think she's still asleep." then she added in a low voice "or maybe hiding from me." Ruka heard this and just smiled. "Well, Ruka-pyon, good luck in finding her!" she said cheerfully as she walked on, finding something to do.
No one was out of their dorms because of the cold weather so she just played with the snow, looked for classmates around and found really few of them. She got really bored and decided to go to the Northern Forest but immediately went back because she was scared. Until something came in her mind. 'hmm..i haven't seen Natsume this day yet.'she thought. Mikan had admitted to herself that she loved the heartless boy and she's keeping it for 6 years, she's just waiting for a chance to say it. She looked around for him but to no success. She just decided to go on her favorite Sakura tree, or should I say, their favorite.
"I wonder where he is..hmm..what shall I do now?" she started talking to herself, thinking about things to do to pass time. She didn't notice that our certain fire-caster was sitting on top of one of the branches and hearing every word she is saying.
'has she gone nuts? she's talking to herself again, what an idiot.'he thought. He just decided to stay there and listen to the word she is saying. He admitted to himself, ONLY TO HIMSELF, that she liked, scratch that, I mean, loved the polka-dotted panty girl for 6 years and he is still not planning on telling her, well, at least not now. His thoughts were disturbed when he heard her scream, he looked down and saw nothing but Mikan jumping up and down and clapping her hands. 'idiot' he thought again.
"WOOOOOHOOOOO!!!! I know what I'll do to pass my time. I think I'll just sing! yeah that's right." she screamed, after a minute of screaming, she realized that people were looking at her and decided to settle down. Natsume, meanwhile, was still listening and thinking 'such an idiot, and did she say she'll sing, hmm..this is interesting..i think she'll have a cute voice….'
"Hmm, now what will I sing? oh I know! I'll sing something about me and—"she added in a low voice "Natsume. So, what will it be? oh! I'll sing All you wanted!" she closed her eyes and felt her surroundings and started humming first.
Natsume heard his name when Mikan said something about "Me and Natsume". He smirked when he heard that 'so Polka thinks about me more often now huh..I better listen to what she thinks about her and me" he thought. And so, he listened.
I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
so I tried to be like you
and I got swept away
"at first I really did try to be like him, not in being mean but being a genius.." she said to herself with still closed eyes.
Natsume heard it and he thought 'so she envied me and my genius mind. Wait, I know that song!'
I didn't know that it was so cold
and you needed someone
to show you the way
so I took your hand and we figured out that
when the tide comes I'll take you away
"I saw through him, I see him differently than his fan girls, but then I realized, when I saw the darkness in him, I became more and more worried about him. Like right now. Where is he?" she said again to herself, loneliness and worry engulfed her as she twitched her eyebrows. Little did she know that Natsume was listening to her words. 'what?! she's worried about me? oh man…' he thought.
If you want to I can save you
I can take you away from here
so lonely inside
so busy out there
and all you wanted was somebody who cares
"Why can't you be more open, Natsume? Im always here for you and ready to make you smile. But I think you don't care about me, im doing my best just to pull you out of that darkness.sigh" She said, tears slowly threatening to fall down. She didn't expect that she'll cry and be emotional because of the song.
Natsume heard her words and decided to come down, and sat beside her. Mikan, being her, didn't recognize him. She was about to continue the song when she heard Natsume cough. She looked at him and was about to say something when Natsume continued the song. (A/N: imagine how Natsume sings! aww…drools..uhh..okay back to the story!)
N:
Im sinking slowly
so hurry hold me
your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Natsume held her hand and looked deep into her hazel eyes. He saw them with tears, Natsume held her cheek with his other hand and wiped them away, Mikan caught his hands and still continued the song while looking into his eyes.
M:
Please can you tell me
so I can finally see
where you go when you're gone?
If you want to I can save you
I can take you away from here
so lonely inside
so busy out there
and all you wanted was somebody who cares
All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Mikan was now crying silently and Natsume didn't know what to do. Mikan tried to walk away but Natsume held her hand tighter. Mikan looked at Natsume seriously and he looked back at her "No, wait, don't go yet. I want to………uhm….say sorry…Im so sorry Polk— I mean Mikan, for making you feel so worried about me." he said.
"but why? why wont you even let me come close to you, am I that idiotic for you? Im here for you! as always!" she said, more like, shouted at him. She just ignored the fact the Natsume called her by her name. "I just…..dont want you to get hurt."he said, looking down at his feet.
"im ready to get hurt Natsume! why can't you see that! Can't you see that you're driving me crazy when you go out in this missions! Can't you see Im worried! Isn't that enough?! Can't you see that I really love you!!" she shouted at him before she realized what she said.
'wait..oh god! did I just tell him that I love him?! no way!' she thought.
Natsume stared at her in shock. She did tell him she loved him right? it took him 20 seconds or so to register it in his mind and then he asked her.
"What did you just say?" he smirked.
"uhh..nothing..i gotta go now..bye.."she said in a hurry but as she was going to run, she felt Natsume hugged her from behind.
"Natsume.."she managed to say.
"don't go, you haven't heard my answer yet." he said. "I love you too." he whispered to her as she cried and hugged him. "Mikan, will you be my girlfriend?" he asked as he looked intensely at her. She nodded and cried all over his chest and said "do you want me to finish my song?" she asked.
"sure..let's just sit down over our tree." he said. Mikan just nodded.
They felt secured in each other's arms. Natsume felt relieved by letting all his feelings free and same with Mikan. Mikan laid her head on Natsume's shoulder and Natsume's head on top of hers and she continued singing.
If you want to I can save you
I can take you away from here
so lonely inside
so busy out there
and all you wanted was somebody who cares
She stopped and looked in those crimson eyes and the crimson eyes looked down in those hazel ones as she told him the lyrics from the song.
"please can you tell me, so I can finally see…where you go when you're gone?" she said to him.
"okay, I promise, I wont make you worry about me anymore. I love you idiot.."he smirked.
"same here…wait…WHAT?!" she shouted as the word 'idiot' registered into her mind.
"hahaha…you look cute.."he laughed. Mikan realized that Natsume was laughing. "Natsume! your laughing! you should do that more often." she said.
Natsume smiled at her "I'll only do it for you." he said. And slowly leaned forward and kissed her lips. Mikan gently put her hands on his neck as Natsume put his on her waist. They deepened the kiss and broke for air after 3 minutes.
"no seriously..i love you as MY idiot..okay?"he said.
"I promise..that I will be your idiot forever..i love you too.."she said and again leaned on him for another kiss.
'Love cures people – both the one who gives it and the one who receives it.'
- Dr. Menninnger
A/N: so how was it? this is my first fic, im so sorry if its not that great! please read and review! i need advices for my next fics! thanks a lot!
