Hey guys,
a new story ... but surprise! This time it's not only my story, I wrote this together will my beloved friend BadassGenius ... we had really much fun writing it, so the first chapter become pretty long.
What the story is about ... we both don't really like Meredith (sorry to say it that directly, but it's the truth), so we were thinking about another season 3. So our story begins after season 2, everything that happened in season 2 has happened in our story too.
So, now I hope you enjoy our story and have as much reading it like we had writing it.
Love Mariella and BadassGenius
When you really love someone – Chapter 1
Addison had just entered the trailer. Alone. There had been an emergency case in the hospital, so she left alone without Derek. She came with a taxi because she and Derek went to SGH earlier together with his car. She sighed. Her husband had given her his jacket from his tuxedo because she had no jacket with her. She had just hung the jacket over a chair, when she noticed it. There was something in the left pocket. She sighed again. He always forgot his key somewhere. So she took it out but it wasn't his key. She was holding a black panty in her hand that was definitely not hers. She would never wear something like this. It was a cheap fabric panty. Hers were always matching her bra and from Dior, Passionata, Chanel or some other exclusive brand. Addison was like frozen on the spot. She couldn't believe this. He would never do this to her. He would never have sex with Meredith Grey when she was only few meters away but obviously he did. She felt like she couldn't breathe. She was trying to make their marriage work and he… he slept with his slutty intern again. She couldn't do this anymore. She felt the anger growing inside her. She wasn't absent, she tried to make him notice her, she tried to be a good wife and he… she didn't even manage to think this to the end.
She couldn't stay there anymore. She grabbed her suitcases and started to pack her things. Tears were streaming down her face. She was still wearing her dress but she didn't care. She had to go out of this trailer before he came back. She really didn't want to face him right now. She was half done packing when she heard his car. She closed her eyes, someone up there must really hate her. She sighed. She knew she would face him. There was nothing she could do to escape. So she simply went on packing her things. Maybe she had to face him but this didn't mean she had to talk to him. Addison cursed, she should have changed out of her dress and should have worn something more comfortable that would have allowed her to pack things faster. She heard that his car was turned out. She knew he would come in every second. She closed her eyes. He wasn't the Derek anymore she married 12 years ago. She had to be strong for herself and for her dignity. She knew he would come in every minute and she wasn't looking forward to it.
Derek arrived at the trailer, parked his car and opened the door. He saw something really unexpected, that was Addison packing.
"What are you doing?" he asked, surprised
"Packing", Addison only answered him. She really didn't feel like talking right now.
"Yeah... I can see that" Derek nodded and shrugged "May I ask you why?"
"Look in the left pocket of your tuxedo jacket than maybe you'll know", she said mad.
Derek didn't need to look in his tuxedo's pocket because he already knew what was in it. "Addison..." he started "Let me explain..."
Addison, who didn't look at Derek up to now, turned around. "No, you know what? I don't need your shit. You didn't let me explain in New York. Give me one reason why I should let you explain."
"If you put this that way, Addison" Derek said, angry "This makes us even."
"No Derek, it doesn't. You ... when I cheated you were absent. I never saw you. I tried ... I really tried to put our marriage back in the right position. I tried to be a good wife but you didn't care. I know this now. I'm sorry that I wasted your time because it seems like the only thing you want is to be with your intern."
"I need time, okay?" he shouted "We're not the same persons anymore! We've changed and if you really want to fix this, you need to give me some time!"
"I gave you so much time Derek. I don't want this anymore. You fucked your little intern when I was only few meters away", Addison now screamed mad and glared at him furious.
"Don't you dare to talk to me like that!" he shouted at her, pointing his finger to her chest "You're the one who cheated on me with my best friend in my own bed, for God's sake!"
Addison let out a scream of frustration, "Ok, I fucked Mark in our bed but did you never asked yourself why I did this? Mark was more a husband to me than you've ever been for years. On all the events I attended, they thought I was married to Mark, because you NEVER went there with me, but Mark did."
"Seriously?" he shouted "You never told me any of this when we were still husband and wife! You did what you can do best, you always avoid your problems!" Derek's voice was very angry and mad.
"I tried to talk to you so many times, but you didn't listen. You were too busy to become the best in your field that you forgot me. That you forgot that someone was waiting for you at home", Addison closed her suitcase. She wasn't really angry anymore, she was only sad and you could see the sadness in her eyes.
"Where do you think you're going, Addison?" he could see the sadness in her eyes but he didn't care. Derek was furious with his so called wife "We're not done yet!"
"We're done Derek. We're so done. The divorce papers are lying on the table. Don't worry, I don't want anything ... only the house in the Hamptons, because we were happy there the last time", she said the last sentence in a low voice and tried her best to hold back the tears. She didn't want to cry in front of her nearly ex-husband.
Derek didn't see this coming, he really didn't expect her to ask for the divorce. "I'm not gonna sign them" he simply said.
She looked at him first sad and then annoyance came back, "You'll sign them!"
Derek looked at her, she looked serious. Looking at her closely, he realized how broken she was. "Listen..." he whispered "We can still make things work"
"How? Derek we're so messed up ... I can't do this anymore", she had tears in her eyes, "I can't be the woman who took away Meredith Grey's McDreamy, anymore. I did this some time and it didn't really fit me."
"You can't ask me to not love her anymore, Addison. It will take me sometimes but we can make this. But if you go, if you go now... well, don't bother to come back. Ever."
Addison looked at him for a while, "Derek, if you really love her than go. I can't be Satan or whatever they call me anymore. I came to Seattle to make us work again. We were a great couple, we cared for each other. Have you ever known what you put me through the last months?", tears were now rolling down her face, but she didn't care.
Her tears felt like a punch in the face for Derek. She had always been so strong back in New York. "I..." Derek moved closer to Addison "I don't, okay? It's just... It's not easy looking at you, pretending that you never slept with my best friend!"
"He was there, Derek. I know I fucked up ... I was so furious that night. I prepared everything for dinner and ... you forgot our anniversary, Derek. Did you ever notice that? I called him, because I felt so alone and I needed someone to talk. It just happened. I'm sorry it happened, but I can't change it."
"And I can't change that I had sex with Meredith earlier tonight..." he took a deep breath "I forgot our anniversary, I'm really sorry for that..."
"It doesn't matter now", she said slowly. Derek could see she was heartbroken.
He moved closer and closer to Addison. They were so close now that Derek could touch her, he could see little shiny tears rolling down her cheeks. "Don't go, okay?"
"I don't know, Derek. I don't know if this is worth the fight because everything we do is hurting each other."
"We could try to change that... I mean, it won't be easy at first but if you let me, I'll try to be a better man."
Addison looked at him closely, "I ... I've stayed with Mark after you left. He got me pregnant and I aborted the baby... I didn't tell you because I was so afraid of your reaction." She closed her eyes, because she was still afraid of his reaction.
"What the hell, Addison?" Derek felt like the weight of the world suddenly fell on his shoulders. He walked away, rubbing his eyes "Get out!" he shouted.
"Derek, I'm sorry! I ...", Addison couldn't stop to sob, "I'm so sorry. I needed to tell you ... I ...", she couldn't look at him, "I couldn't stand that I should have thrown my marriage away for nothing, so I stayed with him."
"You should have never come here!" he shouted, unable to look at her "You..." he shook his head "I hate you, Addison! You're a mess, you suck at relationships!" he yelled.
Addison closed her eyes. There was nothing left to say. She grabbed a pen and signed the divorce papers. Then she grabbed her suitcase and left the trailer. Tears were streaming down her face.
"I'll send you the divorce papers! I don't want to see you ever again!" he yelled at Addison, who was walking away.
Addison didn't listen to his words, she couldn't handle this right now. She knew she would hyperventilate really soon, it didn't happen really often but only when she was really angry, sad or mad and she didn't want him to see it, because obviously he didn't care.
Derek slammed the trailer's door, poured himself a drink and collapsed on his bed. Now that Derek was alone, he started to cry. Tears of sadness, of anger, maybe even of relieve.
Addison got in her car and after having calmed down a bit, she left.
Derek drank all his bottle of scotch and fell asleep, still dressed, on his bed.
Half an hour later Addison was settled in the Archfield. She couldn't stop sobbing. She needed someone to talk so badly, but she didn't really have friends in Seattle; so she took her Blackberry out of her purse and dialed the first number that came into her mind.
He was sleeping when he heard his phone ringing. "Hello?" he said, tired.
"Hey", Addison only managed to say.
"Addison?" he asked, clearing his throat "Is it you?"
"Hey Mark", Addison said, sobbing.
He realized that something was wrong. "Hey, are you alright? What happened?"
"I don't know ... I ... I think Derek and I will get a divorce", Addison said sobbing. She hated that she sobbed, but she couldn't stop it.
"Tell me the whole story, Addison. Did he hurt you?" he asked, alarmed.
"We went together to the prom. Richard's niece organized this and he made everyone come and ... he slept with his intern and ...", Addison couldn't go on, it still hurt too much.
"I'm gonna kill him! That son of a bitch!"
"Mark, don't… I ... I told him about New York, because I don't know... I was so mad and he didn't want to sign the papers and it hurt so much and he asked me to make our marriage work again and I couldn't do that without telling him. He got mad and kind of kicked me out."
"Shit... You shouldn't have told him about the abort, Addison... I'm gonna kill him, I'm serious."
"Mark ... please don't ... can't you be my friend Marky again for tonight? Please, I need someone to talk to. Everybody here hates me and thinks I'm Satan."
"It's not easy, okay? Nobody gets to treat you that way. I told you, I should have come with you"
"Mark, please don't start that again."
"It's just that I'm pissed, okay?" he rolled out of the bed and poured himself a drink "Where are you?"
"Archfield", Addison only answered him.
"Tell me what happened. The whole story."
"I found her panties in the pocket of his tuxedo jacket ... I started to pack my things and he came back. I was furious, he was furious and then I told him that the divorce papers were lying on the table and I don't know ... things changed, I think he didn't expect this. He said he wanted to try again and then I told him. I had to tell him, because we couldn't start over if I hide this thing. Right?"
"Shit! He had sex with that slutty intern while you were there?" he drank another sip of his drink "I'm gonna kick his ass! Addison... you could have waited, you know..."
"I know, but I couldn't ... I had to tell him. I've been asked myself for months how I should tell him and tonight we've been honest like for the first time since I'm in Seattle. So I told him. He told me he never wanted to see me again. I signed the papers and left. That's it. End of the story."
"I'm sorry, Addison... I really am. You don't deserve to suffer like this. Come back to NY, okay? There's nothing left for you in Seattle"
"I don't know ... there are too many memories in NY. Also I have a contract here. SGH is good, it's one of the best teaching hospitals. Richard extended a wing only for me ... I don't know, Mark."
"It's up to you but if you don't come back, I'll fly to Seattle"
"Mark! No, you don't fly here. Please!"
"You know what? You're right, it's better if I don't come to Seattle because if I do, I'll kill him with my hands!"
"This wouldn't be a good idea. But you know what? The room I have now is bigger than the whole tiny can I've lived in up to now. I have space for all my clothes and shoes", she tried to joke.
"I miss you already" he told her, sincerely "You need some time on your own. Take a break, leave Seattle..."
"Miss you too Marky, you know I don't have real friends here. We've always had so much fun when we went out", then she sighed, "And where do you think I should go? You know I hate to be alone."
"You can't keep on working at that damn hospital with Derek's and his girlfriend around. You're not strong enough to do that. Come back to NY, do it for me"
"Mark ... I don't know ... I just want to go somewhere far away where I can lie on the beach ... maybe L.A. or Hawaii. I don't really know."
"You know what, Addie? Take a shower, sleep in, relax. It will be helpful. Okay?"
"Yeah, maybe. Maybe I should go to Hawaii. What do you think?"
"It's too far! LA will be better"
"Oh yeah ... I love the beach and the ocean and maybe I would be tanned. I would love that ... it's really sad I can't do that."
"I wish I could hold you right now... Try to get some sleep"
"Wish you were here too, you always make me feel better. Thanks Mark. Sorry, I hope I didn't wake you up."
"Don't worry, you never bother me. Addie, I'm just sorry all of this shit happened... It's my fault too, we both know it"
"No ... Mark, you and I ... back in NY, you took Derek's place. I made you take his place. You're not the bad guy. You never were. Maybe for sleeping with this nurse, but this doesn't matter now."
"Yeah... When you left, I really hoped that things would work between you and Derek. He's an ass, that's the problem. Just promise me that you will never go back to that hospital"
"I have to talk to Richard in the morning. Maybe I will take a vacation, but there's a really important case right now. It's really difficult and only I can do this, so I think I will at least finish it."
"You shouldn't, Addie... It will hurt you more than it should. Leave him alone"
"I'll think about it, but I have to talk to Richard. It's not his fault. He deserves to know when I leave."
"You got a point here. Yes, talk to Richard and then call me back. I need to know that you're good"
"Ok. Thanks for listening Mark. I already feel a bit better and I'm not hyperventilating like every moment."
"You got it, redhead. I'll always be there for you, no matter what"
"Thanks. You're really my best friend. You know that, right?"
"I know. You're my best friend, too"
"Love you, Marky", she hoped he understood that she loved him as a friend and not as a lover, "I think I'll go to bed. Tomorrow only can be better."
"Time heals all wounds, you know that right? Love you too" he said and hung up the phone.
Addison sighed. She took off her dress and went to bed. Mark hated Derek for what he did to Addison, he could barely believe that Derek treated his wife so badly. Still shocked, he went to the bathroom to take a shower. Addison fell asleep very soon and hoped that when she had woken up things would have brightened up a bit for her.
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