Disclaimer: I don't own handsome Inu-kun... how tragic!
Summary: Why Inu Yasha is never alone...
Never really alone
Inu Yasha sat beneath the well, looking into it's depth. What have I ever done wrong? How do I deserve being parted from her so long?, he asked himself.
He sighed, for the umpteenth time today.
"Oh, you poor guy. What's wrong with you?" his demon self asked him sarcastically inside his mind.
"You are the last person which whom I want to talk now. Shut up.", he barked back.
"You feel lonely, don't you?", the demon asked. Inu Yasha just fehed. "I'm not feeling lonely. I got used to being lonely a long time ago. I'm by myself all the time. I don't feel it anymore. I'm not sad about it anymore. About nothing, for that matter.".
"That's not true, and you know it. You never got used to it. You are so very weird.", his other self smirked arrogantly. "I know you better than anyone else does. Why would you keep on talking to me, if you didn't need any companion at all. I've known you for so many years by now. I can tell if something's not right. I've always thought you're nuts, but-"
"Shut the fuck up! I'm not nuts! You don't know the tiniest bit about me! I'm not lonely. And the only thing that's weird about me is you!", Inu Yasha angrily shook his head forcefully.
"You can't shake me off, you tried for kami knows how long. And, if anyone sees you like this, he WILL think you are nuts. And you are lonely."
"I hate you."
"You don't. You are so stupid to feel lonely when Kagome is away. You have to go after her!", the youkai stated.
"I don't want to! You just don't seem to get it! I can't drag her off the whole time. "
"Oh, that one is new to me", demon Inu Yasha snickered.
"She'll be pissed off and never will come back again. You know that as well as me. And you're afraid of it.". the hanyou said.
"I'm afraid of nothing!"
"Yeah, sure you aren't. You love her, don't you?", Inu Yasha smirked.
"Just as much as you do.", the youkai whispered almost sadly.
Inu Yasha gulped. He did know that. Oh yes. How often had the youkai almost let him do something that he probably would have regretted forever?
The youkai didn't stop whispering. "This one thing we have to admit: It would tear us apart if we'd lose her.".
"You're damn right. We'd be lost.", he said, equally quiet.
There was silence between them, as Inu Yasha suddenly got up.
"She's coming, hm?", the youkai asked.
"Yes.", came the short reply.
"If you would just... one time let me touch her...", the youkai said.
"No fucking chance. You'll never touch her as long as I'm conscious.", Inu Yasha shot back.
"You were used to being lonely, but through her you learned how it is when you feel the opposite.", the demon changed the subject. He knew he really had no chance as long as the hanyou was awake.
"Feh. She just showed me how it feels to be lonely, again.", hanyou Inu Yasha shook his head. "You can go now...", he said.
"You don't have to thank me...", said the fading voice of his inner demon ironically and with that it was gone again.
Exactly at that point of time Kagome climbed out of the well.
"Hey, Inu Yasha!", she smiled. "Did you miss me? Feel lonely without me?", she asked playfully.
"No.", he answered shortly. "But it's good you're back again.", he said quickly.
She took his hand and smiled brightly at him. "I also think so.", Kagome said. "I'm glad you don't feel lonely when I'm away.", she added.
He squeezed her hand in a appreciating way. "I'm never really alone.", he looked into her eyes. "Never."
Someday I'll have to thank him for that...Inu Yasha thought.
"You're welcome...", the youkai Inu Yasha chuckled. "It's okay.".
I spent a long time thinking about Inu Yasha's youkai self, and if this other self is really another part of him or him...
What do you think about it?
