A/N: This story is unbetad, so there might be some mistakes. I am from Sweden, so don't be surprised if there are any mistakes.
Disclaimer: I don't own these characters. They belong to JK Rowling!
"Are you leaving already??"
Lily grimaced, and shut her eyes, before letting out a long, deep sigh, hopefully unnoticed by James. She pulled her top quickly over her torso, before turning to James, who was now sitting up on his bed, reaching for his glasses. Lily had to concentrate hard not to join him there, kissing his naked chest, and…
Enough, Lily, she thought. James looked at her, expecting an answer from her.
"Yes, James, I'm leaving," she said tiredly. "I have things to do, essays to finish."
James frowned at her.
"Three in the morning?" He asked her.
"Er… yeah. "
James quirked an eyebrow skeptically, and then tugged on Lily's arm, so that she lay sprawled on top of him. He smirked, as he tucked some of her hair behind her ear, and pulled her into a kiss.
"You little tease," he murmured, before rolling, so that he was lying on top of her, kissing her again, letting his tongue explore her mouth. His hands wandered under her top, and Lily let out a moan of pleasure, before remembering that she was about to leave.
"James," she began, but quickly forgot about it, when his lips travelled down on her neck. She closed her eyes, and let out another moan. His lips, his touches and everything about him made her feel lost.
"Yes, love?" he muttered against the skin of her neck.
Lily let out a gasp of air when James pushed his hips against her.
"James, I really need to go," she breathed into his ear. She really didn't want to leave, but she knew that she had to.
He stopped abruptly, and hoisted himself on his arms above her.
"Why?"
Lily sat up unwillingly, so James could move away from her.
"I have to," she whispered.
James let out a deep, frustrated sigh, before speaking again.
"You regret it." It wasn't a question. It was a statement.
Lily swallowed, and refused to look at him.
"James, I'm—"
"Don't bother."
His voice was suddenly dark, and filled with anger. Lily had never seen or heard him be this angry before.
"Why?" he asked her with a shaky voice. "You were the one who initiated it. You were the one who dragged me in here last night, you were the one who desperately—"
"It's not like that, James," Lily tried, but James wouldn't have it.
"So, what was it then?" He growled angrily. "Was I just… convenient, or what the hell is this all about?"
Lily didn't look at him. She didn't know what to say to him, because she knew that whatever she was going to say, he'd get hurt by her words.
She wasn't exactly sure why things had gone as it had the night before; all she could remember was that they had had a huge fight in the Heads Common room about nothing in particular, and it all somehow ended with heated snogging, and then they had ended up in James's bed.
"It was just… a heat of the moment thing," Lily said quietly.
It wasn't really true. Lily was sure that she had strong feelings for James. The problem was that she had no idea if James's feelings for her were true or not. He kept telling her that he loved her, but what if it wasn't true? What if it was all just a game to him?
"So, that's it?" James blurted out, causing Lily to jump. "You just gave into the moment? Having a good snog, having good shag? And I just happened to be there?"
His voice sounded different somehow. It was shaking with anger, and his eyes… it was all new to Lily. This was the first time he had actually become angry at her. She never would've imagined that something like this was going to cause it.
"Don't be stupid, James, of course—"
A loud snort interrupted her.
"Save your breath, Evans," Said James coldly. He got up from the bed, and put on a pair of trousers. Then he bent down to the floor, and tossed her sweater to her. she caught it hastily, and stared at James.
"Do me a favor Evans," he said, walking over to the door, holding it up. "Don't come to me next time. I suppose Snivellus could need a shag as well."
Lily thought she was going to burst into tears right then and there. She held it in, but it wasn't easy.
"James, don't say that, I—"
"Thanks for your time. You may leave."
He opens the door wider. Lily hesitates, and then leaves the room, without glancing at him. The moment the door is shut, she kneels down, and starts to cry.
End of chapter one. I'll try to finish the second chapter as soon as I can. Meanwhile, why don't you review, and tell me what you think? //Sazzy
