A/N: this is my first Twilight fiction, so please be kind. It's about the time of New Moon, obviously it doesn't stick with the plot completely…The song is 'losing my mind' by Maroon 5. Enjoy.
Disclaimer: I, in no way, shape or form, own Stephanie Meyer's "Twilight" series…Don't sue!!
It's so hard to find
you
I'm standing right behind you
The streets are much
colder
This mean I'm getting older
I still had a hard time wrapping my mind around it. I left her. I left her alone. I broke my promise. Maybe that was why I kept an eye on her. Emmett told me it was stalking. Only Alice and Esme seemed to understand my reasons. I couldn't risk her life…She needed to be away from me…why couldn't I leave her then?
Why would you? How
could I?
These questions lead to goodbye
But now I got my
freedom
Don't I?
I saw her cling to her friends. I watch her retreat into her shell. Every time I saw her cry, my dead heart ached. How could I do this to her? Now, I could protect her though…couldn't I?
I parked my car
outside your house
Hope that someday you'll come home
Seems the
woman that I love
Is someone that I hardly know
And after all
this time
I finally found a way to be alone
I'm terrified to
think that I may be losing my mind
I sat in the tree outside by her house, watching her, listening to her. I heard her talk in her sleep. I heard cry my name, begging me not to leave. I thought I could handle being alone, in order to protect her. I think I'm losing my mind. My every thought is centered on her.
Shy girl, so
humble
With eyes that make me stumble
Somehow not speaking lets
me know everything
I go out, You eat in
Hot from the
situation
You're naked in daylight
Wrap yourself up and
goodnight
My mind brought me back to her gorgeous, warm brown eyes. I remember how they took my breath away. I never could read her mind, but her eyes told me everything. The glimpses that I caught now, showed her heartbreak and anguish.
I'm burning, I'm
hungry
Angry cuz she don't love me
You got me completely
In
my own game you beat me
I saw her laughing with the werewolf. I don't know why but I was furious with her. With the thought that she would do what I told her to…move on.
I parked my car
outside your house
Hope that someday you'll come home
Seems the
woman that I love
Is someone that I hardly know
And after all
this time
I finally found a way to be alone
I'm terrified I
think that I may be losing my mind
I was outside her house again. It was pouring. I could feel the rain gliding over me. I needed to find a way to be able to return to her…I needed to eliminate the threat… It was time for me to find Victoria, and end this…
I will be back
again
No this is not the end
I've fallen hard this time but I
not giving in
I want the world to know that I won't let you
forget
The tears that you shed
I'll make it impossible to let
go
If I were human, I would have had tears running down my face. She was crying again…I could barely restrain myself from going to her and holding her…I whispered her name on the wind, knowing that she would never hear it. I needed to return to her.
I parked my car
outside your house
Hope that someday you'll come home
Seems the
woman that I love
Is someone that I hardly know
And after all
this time
I finally found a way to be alone
I'm terrified to
think that I may be losing my mind
I did it. Victoria was dead. I was in the tree again. Bella was in her room. Yet I could not bring myself to enter her room. She still kept the window unlocked… And still I could not move.
I parked my car
outside your house
Hope that someday you'll come home
Seems the
woman that I love
Is someone that I hardly know
And after all
this time
I finally found a way to be alone
I'm terrified to
think that I may be losing my mind
Another night I was in the tree. Another night I could not go in. I had to have lost my mind…Then I heard my angel sigh my name and she began to sob again…I couldn't restrain myself this time.
I made the jump from the tree to her house easily and slipped in the window. She still didn't know that I was here. I walked to her with a quiet grace and wrapped my arms around her.
"…Bella…" I don't know how I continued to speak. Even disheveled and crying she was an angel, "…I love you…I'll never leave again…please forgive me for losing my mind…"
