Someday, I'll Remember
by: ShinJinIchi23

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Disclaimer: I don't own it. Gosho Aoyama-sensei does. :D
Note: Conan's POV.


The Old Verse
"You don't know what you have until you lose it."

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"Hakase, who is he?"

Three simple words. Just three simple words caused too much heartache. She stared at me from across the distance, just a couple of feet away. I never felt so distant to her in my life. Her stare was blank and empty, no emotion at all, unlike the last time she gazed at me with those deep blue eyes. Full of warmth and love. Haibara, why?

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Flashback…

She called me. She said it was important. I knew this day will come. I stared at her bored face. She was sitting comfortably in a chair, staring back at me. Those eyes, it was full of sorrow.

"You can return to your body now, Kudo-kun." She started. I felt numb, no I was numb ever since I entered this room, her laboratory. I should be jumping in joy now, but I couldn't. It was not fair.

I sighed in disappointment. "Haibara, don't fool me." I replied seriously.

"What now? Isn't this what you always wish for?" She growled with her trademark glare.

"I know that if I take that capsule, I'll forget about you."

I knew it, it was her plan, to make me forget her and start a new life. But, I didn't want to forget her, no. Definitely not. She was important to me.

"Keen as always Kudo-kun. But you have no choice."

"I always have a choice. I will not take that antidote."

"I know that." She replied with a sad smile. "I know you a lot Kudo-kun."

"Haibara…"

She stood up and walked near me. She stared at me. Those orbs, so sad yet, so warm and loving.

"I love you, Kudo-kun."

My eyes widen, mouth hanging. I was shocked. I was frozen at my spot. It took a minute before I could manage to utter my reply.

"Haibara…you – "

"Don't reply to it." She held my hands and handed me a handkerchief. Then she stepped back, away from me.

"Go back and take care of her. Don't mind me..." She paused and smiled sadly at me. "Goodbye, Kudo-kun." Then, to my surprise, she ate the pill.

"HAIBARA! STOP!" I was late. I ran where she was and hugged her. I could feel her tears falling on my shoulder.

"Please, don't forget about me." It was like I was begging her to not take away my life. It was too painful to think that she'd forget me soon.

"Even if I lost this feeling for you, I'm sure, if it's even possible, I will fall in love with you over and over again."

"Haibara… I – "

Before I could finish my sentence, she fainted. I knew after this, everything wouldn't be the same anymore.

Not anymore.

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An hour passed since that happened, and I already missed Haibara so much. This girl – no lady looking at me, she was not Haibara Ai anymore, she was totally a different person.

"Ai-kun, he's Shinichi, don't you remember?" The professor asked. He still didn't know what happened because I refused to talk. We were currently at her bedroom, she was sitting on the bed, me and the professor sitting on a couch beside her.

"Hakase, can't you see that I'm back to my body? Don't call me Ai-kun anymore. And this Shinichi, I don't know him." She replied as cold as she could. The way she looked at me, it felt so different, so cold, so far, this was not the way I wanted this to be. I lowered my head in frustration. Seriously, this hurts.

The professor looked at me, I smiled sadly and remained quiet. What should I say to this lady that only saw me as a stranger? I clenched my fist, controlling myself not to cry or yell in front of her.

"Ah, gomen, gomen, ano…uhm… Shiho-kun?"

She returned back to her body and I was stuck as Conan. Why did she need to do this? Couldn't we transform back together without forgetting each other?

"But he looks familiar…" My face lightened up a bit when I heard her said that, I raised my head and looked at her; she was examining me with her blue eyes lazily.

"…but I can't remember… He's still a kid, maybe I just saw him somewhere."

I took all my confidence to speak. I gulped and fake one of my childish smiles.

"Haiba – no… Shiho…" I paused, this is too much. "…-nee-chan… I'm Edogawa Conan." I introduced. The professor patted my shoulder and smiled before leaving us.

She narrowed her eyes on me. "I thought your name was Shinichi. How come you became Conan?"

"I'm one of the victims of APTX 4869. The medicine that you created and shrunk us." I replied honestly. I would never lie. I'd make sure she'll remember me.

"Oh, so that's why you're familiar. Did we meet when I was still Ai? Cause, I don't…really remember you."

Those words, it pierced my heart. "It's fine, will you let me at least, help you to remember?"

I saw her quivered an eyebrow. I smiled, though I couldn't flash my greatest smile to her, at least I've tried. She was still here, there was still hope. It was not wrong to be hopeful, right? After all, she's one of my precious best friend.

"Fine. I guess I need to go back in the lab and work for your antidote. I can't take to see a shrunken victim of my medicine in front of me."

"You don't need to, you already created one for me."

"I did?"

"Yeah." I replied, clutching the handkerchief in my pocket that she gave a while ago. It was there. At the end, she was still thinking about me. Caring about me. I was so foolish for not seeing and feeling it earlier.

"So we really meet each other. Good, I can rest. You can leave me now." She said then lied on the bed and covered her body with the white sheet. I watched her for the moment. Her reddish-brown hair, her face which always wore that cold mask. She was still Haibara, though not the Haibara I've known before.

'You don't know what you have until you lose it.' That old verse suddenly ran in my mind.

And now I lost her. Regret was drowning me. She was not just a precious friend to me. She was more than that. After all those hardships and trials we went together, why did I only realize this now?

This was ridiculous, I know, but there was nothing I could do.

She forgot about me…and I just let her.

I hope someday, maybe someday, you'll remember me again.

And I will not give up, until there's hope residing in my heart.

This heart, that you've own lately, without me… knowing it…


A/N: Uh oh! Finally, I've created another one fic for Conan/Ai & Shin/Shi! It might not be that good fic like the others, but I really love them!

Please Review. :D

And to all the Conan X Ai / Shinichi X Shiho supporters, lets continue our support to them. Let's create more fics about them. :D

~Lhai-Chii ^^