H.A.T.E.U.

By: Nicole Lopez

Chapter One- Prologue: I Can't Wait to Hate You


Summary: Sam-Leah-Emily and the real story behind his betrayal...



Betrayal can make someone bitter, angry, violent. Those are all of the things that I have become in order to appear strong around him. I cannot let everyone know how much Sam has hurt me, but he has. He promised me the world, showed me nothing but love for three years and then tossed me aside when something better came along.

Emily. She was always everyone's favorite, but for once I had something that she could not because he loved me, because we were married because … he imprinted me. I thought that meant something, but I guess not.

But deep down I know better than that. People don't just love someone so passionately one day and then get over them the next and start loving someone else unless … it wasn't real. But of course it was. The blood in my veins flowed just so that I could wake up and be with him every day.

Sam genuinely treated him like I was the world, like I was the reason for his entire life. So, there's something going on. There's something that he's not telling me.

Everyone else would just say that I'm talking crazy and I need to get over it. But they don't know Sam and how we were together. And they don't know that I see how categorically different he is with Emily than me. They may care for each other, but he doesn't love her … at least not the way he loves me. Yes, I said loves.

I have to hold onto that thought and ignore the way he dismisses me in the pack, under minds my abilities, and insults me without a modicum of thought. If I really didn't matter, he wouldn't go out of his way to show that he hated me. And tonight … I was going to prove it. I was going to go with the pack to their house and show Sam that I could see through him.

"You ready for this?" Jacob wondered with a huge smile, wrapping his arm around my neck. I rested my head on … his right side. Jacob was much too big for my head to even be anywhere near his shoulder.

"You are going to enjoy this way too much." I added back, letting my hand rest around his waist. He was the only person in the pack that got this … what it felt like to be so heartbroken. I felt comfortable around him. The other guys always joked around that there was something going on between us, but I couldn't see anyone that way besides Sam. Consequence of the imprint.

"What are you planning this time?"

"I'm not planning anything. I'm a member of the pack, Emily is my cousin and I belong here." I answered innocently.

"Bull shit." Jacob whispered giving the side of my face a quick kiss and releasing me. I suddenly felt unprotected and vulnerable which was when I put on the bitch façade. I waited until all the other members went in before taking the plunge.

By the time I had gotten the courage to walk in, everyone was already eating and then I saw them… Emily and Sam. I narrowed my eyes trying to look as desirable as possible. There was no way I was going to let them see me cry.

"How's it going?" I asked the duo who seemed to be fervently discussing something important and private.

"You should go." Sam started immediately.

"No. That's not necessary. I have something to say to you Leah. I know this is difficult and I don't want to seem cruel but … please sign the papers Leah." Emily begged me with her sickeningly sweet voice as I nearly gagged. Instead a smirk crossed my face.

"Getting her to speak for you now?"

Sam lunged at me, backing me into the only empty wall in the kitchen. I met his eyes holding myself back from kissing him then and there. I could tell that something was restraining him too.

"I don't love you anymore Leah. I don't want to be with you. You mean nothing to me."

I rolled my eyes and yawned in response. Heard it all before.

"You can't lie to me. And I won't sign anything. You owe me and you know it … when the debt is settled, then we can talk." I pushed him away as the other pack members resumed movement. Everyone had observed the scene and it pleased me to know that I was the one person, besides Jacob, that Sam could not control.

"Are you okay?" Jacob asked me rapidly as I nodded but I was close to crying. He hugged me tightly and then took my hand, leading me out of the house where he would take me somewhere private so that I could cry. Again. I was being so weak.


So, my plan of action had failed. Same hadn't succumbed to me with everyone witnessing and he still wanted to be with Emily. And I was a wreck. I couldn't take up anymore of Jacob's time … he had this longing to be with Reneesme all the time, so I hid myself in this special hidden place in the woods where I went to gain peace.

With nothing to hide behind except my shoulder-length hair, I stretched my naked body onto the ground, closed my eyes and tried to think of what to do next. There had to be something.

"Ahem." A male voice interrupted me as I rushed to cover my feminine parts. But it was Sam, so I dropped my arms soon after.

"What are you doing here?" I asked with tears dripping down my face. Already? Damn.

"I want to give you what I owe you in exchange for you signing the papers." Sam admitted, looking down.

"Do you really think it will work this time? Do you think it's going to be any different--"

"No. But I have to move on. Emily's waiting for me." Sam added.

"Fine." I agreed. "But I want to add one clause … I will only sign those papers if you can prove to me that you don't love me."

"I don't."

"You liar." I walked over to him, hair tousled and body littered with debris. With two swift movements I'd removed Sam's shirt and his pants were halfway gone.

"I won't--"

"You will." I demanded. Sam may have cut me off emotionally, but his body called to mine. I could tell and … as long as we had some sort of connection the imprint would last and I knew that he was still loving me. "I love you Sam." I muttered vulnerably waiting patiently until he stopped fighting it and touched his lips to mine, fondling my bare back as his hands moved further and further down.

He lifted me effortlessly off the ground, my legs pressing into his back with such force that I heard him grunt. "Damn Leah." He joked as I giggled, shortly after brushing my lips against his, never wanting this to end.

Having Sam be this close to me, I didn't care about his motives. It made me feel complete. I happily moaned, signaling to him that he was doing everything right. My nails dug into his skin making little marks that would disappear by the next day.

I was convinced that he would never be able to let this go, but I didn't push it by telling him that I loved him again, even though I did. I knew he still cared about me the way he stroked my hair after it was over, the way he kissed my nose, the way he kissed my stomach as though it were precious.

And not once did Sam mention the divorce papers.

Jacob was saying that I was torturing myself by going back to him over and over, but Sam was just as guilty. He had sought me out. And I was left feeling so much ecstasy.

"So you and Jacob?" He wondered with me sitting on top of him comfortably.

"Why would you think…" My voice trailed off. I guess to the jealous eye, it could seem like there was more than understanding and friendship between us. "No one makes me feel the way you do."

"I'm sorry Leah … I just can't do this." Sam shifted suddenly and started getting dressed.

"What did I do this time?"

"You can't say shit like that to me. Emily--"

"If you're going to mention her then go." I answered coldly. "But I'll see you around." I added with a smirk to mask my hurt at him leaving so soon. Sam was in such a hurry to go that he not only left the papers, but a rustic-looking book with him. I opened it curiously and knew that I had struck gold.

Memoirs.

This was his. All about everything that he was thinking and feeling … things he'd never say, and I had gotten my hands on it.


(A/N: This story was sad ... so I had to fix it. Luv and review. --NL)