True Pain
Chapter 1
Disclaimer: Don't own any character or any the Final Fantasy 7 Idea's. I own a copy of all the games and of Advent Children that it.
Yuffie watched as Chaos/Vincent finished off Omega. Wiess was defeated and Omega stopped the world was yet again safe. The Team of Avalanche victorious for the third time. But one problem remained Vincent was no where to be scene. He had vanished and all were concerned but none more so then Yuffie the ninja of the group.
Vincent had stolen her heart and she still had yet to tell him. Knowing he still loved Lucrecia and all she dared not to tell him. She was worried though fighting back the unwanted tears that threatened to spill. She walked to her home or at least the Shera. Thinking she may never get the chance to tell him of her feelings or anything else. Have the long talks again. Well she did most the talking and he just listened still he didn't push her away. Not like some of the team.
"Vincent…" she whispered to the dark air looking to the sky as she climbed aboard, and walked slowly to her room. She got to her and whispered it again and cried her self in to a restless sleep. She once had a crush on Cloud the leader of the group. Don't get her wrong the man was good looking and hot. The glow of those blue eyes and the muscle and build of him was to die for. But something about the mysterious gunman made her weak. She wanted him to hold her and kiss her. But that may never happen. That night she fell asleep crying and quietly sobbing so not to alert the others of the break in her cheerful demeanor.
Weeks would pass in the search for Vincent. She was getting to the point of giving up on the hope to see him again. She was losing hope in ever finding him again. She still loved him and wanted to hear his deep voice and smell that musky scent of his. She would dream him almost every night. One of her favorite ones was not even remotely erotic. He is holding her by the ocean and they watch the sun set. Feeling her heart begin to break with the idea of never seeing him again when the phone rang.
"Hey Yuffie speaking." She said and heard Tifa's voice on the other end of the line.
"Cloud found him girl." The excited martial artist said. Yuffie nearly collapsed. She was shocked to say the least and speechless. He was alive and okay. He probably wanted to think for a while. After a brief moment Yuffie spoke again.
"I am on my way." She said since it was all she could muster at the moment. Readying to leave Yuffie froze she was excited but then her thoughts went down a different track. [He still loves Lucrecia. You will….Never have him.] She told herself and then headed out and rode her gold Chocobo Blaze. She had named it Lightening but renamed it.
Hours would pass like seconds and she got to the group. Tifa was waiting for her as was the rest of the group including her secret love. Her only true desire stood before her. She hugged the crew up until Vincent. She wasn't sure he would allow her and she was afraid she would have the urge to kiss him. Plus she didn't know if he trusted her. Cid and Barret still made sure she never stole anything. The tears were coming back and she fought the urge to cry.
"You better now Vince? You had us all worried." She said and the man nodded. She looked away not to cry or looking in those crimson eyes that haunted her dreams. He noticed the pain and the lack of the rest of her questions. She had more to say but would not say it.
"Are you okay Yuffie? Is there something wrong?" asked the one she didn't want to ask. She would not have answered anyone but she wanted him to ignore her the most. He was after all most of her pain she would never be able to tell him that she loved him. She didn't want to hurt him and her nerves were getting worse. She shook her head no and ran. She couldn't say it to him. She was wanting to say that she loved him and that she wanted to be held by him. She ran to a clearing which was oddly enough was Lucrecia's cave. Where Cloud had found Vincent in the first place. She walked in and broke down. Not noticing the others had caught up.
"Lucrecia I shall never get what you have. The heart of the man we both loved. Vincent Valentine I love with everything I have and can never tell him because he loves you. I may…Why? Why can't I…" She let it all out. The tears she held back the wail of pain which Vincent fought to come and comfort her. She had just confessed her love for him. Though she was unaware they were there.
"I envy you Doctor Crescent. Only to a point though. People can trust you without a second thought. I don't get the luxury of that. Everyone I know doesn't trust me half the distance they can through me. People loved you and didn't even think about that either. I can't get that either. You hold the heart of Vincent Valentine and then betrayed him. I would ne…My friends would never have that from me but don't care. I would never hurt Vincent. But that doesn't matter. He loves you and can't move on." She said in tears her shoulders shaking and her body hurting. Her heart shattering because of the actions of others.
Cid and the group were shocked. That was even an understatement of there feelings. This was half because she loved the walking mystery known as Vincent. The other was their not trusting her. She after all was their friend but some of them had not treated her as such and knew it. She was now breaking due to it. Vincent had not done the mistrust thing but her love of him was breaking her just as much. He would admit to the love of Lucrecia still. However he was willing to move on though he was not aware of the ninja's feelings he was aware of his.
[You want her just as badly as she wants you don't lie. I know better and agree she is appealing and would make a good-] (Don't even finish that statement you vile creature. I don't even want to hear that. I agree she is good looking and very attractive. I wonder if it would be robbing the cradle as it were.) He spoke to Chaos the other reason he was gone Chaos had used a lot of energy. They were weakened and he needed the rest. He heard Yuffie speaking again.
"I can't and won't steal again. I won't take the throne of Wutai from my father. I…I…I am alone." Her last words and she lost consciousness. She fell into a dreamless sleep. Her face stained with tears and her body felt weakened. She was not going to be better by the time she woke. Vincent and Tifa were the only ones to realize this. Cloud knew what the girl was going through. He was with out those he loved as well. But his were all dead. The only solace was when he looked at the Buster Sword or the flowers in the old church. Yuffie was broken and only some seemed to grasp this. The knowledge that those she loved and called friends and Family didn't trust her anymore.
Vincent carried her back to Tifa's house and laid her on the bed that was given to her. Tifa crying herself because of what she had heard. That was too much to hear from the happy ninja. They had forgiven Reeve for spying on them and not Yuffie. That was not right. The ninja had every right to be mad. She had proven herself and they couldn't let it go.
"I am…" She couldn't say it. Tifa felt her heart breaking due to the pain of Yuffie's words. She not one of the one who did it but she knew some of her actions said otherwise. If only she could take back those painful actions. She felt guilty and sorry but the words would not come out. When she noticed the others she glared at them with a glare that said a thrashing was headed their way. More specifically to Barret and Cid for the careless and rude actions of checking their belonging every time Yuffie hugged them.
Vincent was thinking on something else. Yuffie the little ninja loved the beast he was. She deserved better then him. He was flattered though. He was certain that she was not lying about it though that emotional outburst was no deceit she was in love with Vincent and he knew it now. This was not what he had expected coming home from his rest. Maybe she would not be a bad choice though should she be fine when she woke. That was doubtful though she was hurt deeply and greatly. [Someone can cause pain and it is possible for someone else to fix that pain.] Said the evil creature. (Point taken but could I be that someone with so much bad surrounding me.) He was uncertain.
Cloud watched and knew the girl needed rest but also that someone would want to stay and be there should she wake. He tried to get Tifa out but she refused to leave. She wanted to be there for her friend. Cloud didn't even bother to ask Vincent he looked a little preoccupied. Though he didn't think it was with Chaos since he was to vanish with Omega. He walked the others down stairs and helped with the making of food.
The night went by and in the morning Yuffie woke to see two people there in her room. She resisted the urge to roll her stormy eyes when the one by the door clicked. It was Vincent the man she loved with her very soul. She was not expecting or wanting that right now.
[I disgust him probably.] She thought and fought the tears. Tifa was the second one laying her head on the bed beside her. Tifa had never really done anything wrong to her and was usually nice to her. She felt bad for what she was going to do. She had decided to leave and never come back. She was not going to look back either. Her next stop would be Godo to resign. She would not take the throne when the place had fallen so far. She had let on tear fall and that woke both. Tifa woke from the tear hitting her head. Vincent woke from the scent of the salt. She was not going to be able to sneak out
"Yuffie…" Was all Tifa could manage to say. She was shocked and happy to see her friend awake. She was crying again and smiling. She wanted so bad to talk to her friend. Tifa whispered after hugging her friend. "Vincent was in here all night too." She said and nudged the Ninja. Yuffie thinking of forcing a smiled but decided Tifa and Vincent would be able to see past it. The Façade would not help here. It was stopped more by her man of mystery.
"Yuffie we need to talk." He said and looked her square in the eyes. She was locked in to the crimson orbs she loved and wanted to stay there but he spoke more. "We all heard the speech you made in the cave of Lucrecia." She closed her eyes and waited for the pain of the disgust.
"So, that makes this easier. No need to lie to you all then. I will be leaving you all. That way you don't need to check on your things, or watch my every move, and make sure I don't steal from you all." She said in such a way as to seem unphased. She wanted to cry because Vincent and Tifa never did any of that but she was not going to lie to herself. She would be better off according to her. The truth being this was tearing her apart and she was dieing.
Tifa felt hurt by this. She had a feeling this would happen. Yuffie would leave do to the stupid actions of others due to mistrust. Also the Dark Gunman holds her heart and her feeling that she could never hold his affection so she never told him. She knew Yuffie would leave and they may never see her again and that hurt more the Aeris' death. That was something else someone who was not mentally right did that. They just didn't get there in time. This was harder to fix and partially Yuffie's own doing.
"Yuffie please don't." Tifa begged though it would be in vain. The pain was too much and too deep. There was no changing her mind unless something dramatic happened. Like Vincent confessing his undying love for the girl. It was just as likely as Cid quitting smoking and cursing at the same time.
Vincent saw the deep seeded turmoil in the girl's stormy grey eyes. Her aura and everything screamed of a soul drowning in pain. He knew this feeling well. He himself had this problem and knew if nothing else they could pull each other out of the abyss. The others outside the door were feeling guilty and that would not help this poor girl at all. That would only further her suffering. He gave the Ninja a hug and she froze.
"Yuffie I know that you are hurting because of something dealing with me. I want you to tell me when you are ready. You may not want me to know it but I want what ever it is to stop eating away at you." He said and to her while she was in his arms. She loved it. His scent was heaven to her. It was overriding all her senses. "Please rethink this." He said and then let go and Yuffie nodded.
The others came into the room and spoke to her. She talked with them and laughed. But noticed they were guarding themselves. Actions spoke volumes and not on realized they were doing it. That said even more to her then the thought out ones. She made the best of what she could since not one of the ones that just entered knew what she was going to do. At least not all of them did. She sighed and looked to them all.
"I guess my choice is made. You guard yourselves from me unknowingly and that is the worst of all. That means this has been going on long enough for it to be second nature. I am not welcome I will be leaving when I am healed. You all won't have to fake liking me anymore." She said and rolled over and fell asleep. She whispered the word Alone to herself once again. In the morning Tifa came up to check on the girl and she was gone. She came down stairs and cried. She was like that for the next few days.
Three days had gone by and Tifa had yet to stop crying. Her guilt for not noticing it sooner was overwhelming. Godo had said that Yuffie had stopped by and resigned her right to the Throne. She then grabbed what she wanted and left. He had not heard from her since. They all were looking for the girl.
Vincent went back to Shinra Mansion and headed to the Basement. Just as he hit the last steps he noticed he was not alone. He was cautious and had his hand on Death Penalty. Walking slowly he saw a figure in the corner. When the figure approached he realized who it was.
"Yuffie?" He asked and she walked even closer. She was not the same girl he knew from before. This saddened him even more.
"Don't worry I will be gone tomorrow I just needed a place to rest." She said emotionlessly. Her longing was still there though not as apparent. He was confused. He knew her reasons but something bothered him and was wrong.
"Yuffie why?" she snorted and looked at him with dead grey eyes.
"I thought that would be obvious. I disgust you all because of my past offenses. I won…" He slapped her.
"Why would you think that? You have never and will never disgust me. You annoyed at times yes but never disgust. I forgave those offenses long ago." He said in an angered voice but not harsh. He was frustrated that she would not come to her senses.
"I just know I… I…I am…I am alone. I am alone in this world. I annoy you and disgust the rest. I can't even tell you something that has been tearing me apart. But as I said I will be gone by tomorrow. Good night Vincent." She walked by him and up the stairs. He knew the once cheerful girl was gone. They had pretty much killed the Yuffie they all loved.
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