For this story i'm going to try and find a song to some what symbolize each chapter... For this one it's going to be Ingrid Michaelson "Are We There Yet?" hope you like it and the story.
My name is Adhara but most call me Addie. I'm about 5'6 and I'd say about 140 pounds allowing for my curvy figure. My lips are full, I have jet black chest length hair and my silvery grey eyes are a nice almond shape which happens to be a family trait. This year I'm entering into my 5th year at Hogwarts which makes me 15 years old, but I'll be 16 on the 16th of November along with my twin brother. As for my twin he's about 4 inches taller than me and 50 lbs. heavier but otherwise we look about the same except for his lips being a bit thinner. My brother has always been there for me since we were little, which is why I was ecstatic when we were sorted into the same house at Hogwarts. Though we never really seemed to fit in with our family, well our younger brother used to be close to us but as he grew older we grew apart. As for our personalities well, he is a little more outgoing and loud than I am but our friends say that it's a perfect balance
…I think that's all you need to know about me kind readers…oh wait maybe two more things. One, I have a serious crush on Remus Lupin, and two, Sirius Black is my twin which of course makes me a member of the "Noble and Ancient House of Black."
"Sirius please don't," I whispered as we stood in the entry way to the living room. He had snuck down here to spy on what our parents were talking about and I tried to pull him back.
Turning back to me he had a wide smirk on his face, "Addie you want to know just as much as I do."
"Yes I do but I don't want to be caught again," I bit my lip thinking about when Dad caught us eavesdropping and was so mad that I think he almost cast the cruciatus curse on us.
"Don't worry Add I won't let anything happen to you," he gave me a reassuring smile as we crept closer just so we could hear Dad talking.
"She's getting old enough now Walburga she should be…"
"What are you two doing?" Regulus came from the stairs a large cocky smile on his 14 year old face.
"Leave us alone," Sirius glared and pressed closer to the door.
"Add?" Regulus looked over at me knowing I would tell him.
"They're keeping something from me," I whispered just as footsteps started walking in the room and we all quickly scurried away and quickly up the stairs and separated Sirius and I going into my bedroom, and Regulus went up into his own shutting the door. After catching our breath I turned to Sirius, "did you hear anything else?"
"Just something about the ball at the Lestrange's before school starts," He gave a slightly worried look.
"Well we make it through every year this shouldn't be any different," I sat down on bed and he took the chair. "So have you heard from any of the others about their forms?" I looked over at him and he shook his head no.
What I was speaking about of course was our animagus forms to help Remus with his transformations. We had figured out in second year, well actually I had by the middle of first year but chose not to say anything. Since then we had been trying to get our forms, we mostly had them down but just needed to perfect them to change without wands. "Have you heard anything from Remus?" I asked and Sirius turned his famous crooked grin on me.
"No not since the last time, are you looking forward seeing dear old Remus?" He walked over and plopped on my bed and I felt a tiny blush go to my cheeks turning my pale skin red.
"It's not like he even notices I like him." I mumbled after a few minutes just as a knock sounded on my door.
"Mother isn't this a little revealing," I commented looking down at the dress I would be wearing tonight to the Lestrange Ball celebrating my cousin Bella's engagement to Rodolphus Lestrange.
"Adhara you need to look your best tonight and I will not accept any misbehaving," she stood off to the side in her evening wear. Looking into the mirrior I admit to liking my dark hair in loose curls cascading down my back and across my shoulders. Also the makeup was decent a little much for my liking but my full lips looked fantastic with the dark red lip stick, but the dress was a far too much for my taste. It was sleek very clingy to my body not leaving a curve unseen with a deep 'v' in the front held up with thin straps which then crossed over my bare back. Rinestone details ran down the middle of my chest to about my belly button, with the color being pure white contrasting the rest of my family drastically.
"Do not make that face you'll cause wrinkles," my mother reprimanded loudly and I dropped the cringe putting on a straight face. "We're going now," she left and I slipped on the high heeled shoes I had been given and followed her down the stairs carefully. When I appeared at the bottom my father didn't have the normal look that I had heard about from my friends, no he had a look of pride in his eyes. Now my brothers had the looks I wanted, Regulus' held surprise while Sirius' was anger.
"What is that?" His loud mouth shouted and I quickly shook my head as my parents gave him disapproving looks.
"Your cloak Miss. Addie," Kreacher handed it up and I took it nodding gratefully as I slipped it over my shoulders. Quickly we were all apparated away to the large mansion and I put on the slight fake smile, linking my arm with Sirius as we entered ready to with stand the pure blood ideals that will be thrown around especially with You-Know-Who getting even more powerful.
Sirius and I mostly stuck to ourselves as the rest of the family mingled with friends. That is until Mother walked over and said that I was needed.
"You're father wishes for me to escort you to the study." Taking my arm Sirius began to move with me too. "You stay Sirius," she commented and I gave him a scared look and he tried to hide his own but betrayed it in his eyes. Thinking over what could happen my mind immediately went to dark marks. Were they going to make me join? It would be highly hypocritical since they weren't but I wouldn't put it past them.
As we walked into the room I saw Father and also Mr. and Mrs. Lestrange along with Bella's fiance's brother Rabastan. Briefly looking over him I saw slicked back short brown hair, mostly considered attractive by those when he went to school at Hogwarts, but I personally found his dark eyes scary. He always held a straight face with something hidden behind it.
"Thank you Walburga," Father commented and my mother left me standing in the middle of the room as she joined him. I felt a bit of betrayal that I should have gotten used to long ago from that tiny gesture. "Please sit Adhara," he motioned to the seat beside Rabastan and I sat as far on the other side of the couch possible. "We've come here to make an arrangement. Today the Lestrange's and Blacks will make our bond stronger…"
Walking out of the room I felt as though my heart was in my stomach. Walking as quickly as I possibly could without causing a scene I crashed into the cloak room. Leaning back into the door I closed my eyes, "this can't be happening."
"Addie?" Sirius said from the other side knocking slightly I moved back opening the door letting him in.
Right after closing the door he gripped onto my forearms and started examining them. "Oh thank Merlin," He whispered then looked up at me, "what happened?"
Unable to say anything else I whispered, "I'm engaged." His expression turned quickly from worry to anger then back to worry pulling me into a tight hug.
"Who?"
"Rabastan Lestrange," I buried my face into his chest.
"What!" he pulled away quickly, "He's 7 years older than you!"
"Sirius be quiet," I rushed forward slapping my hand over his mouth, "I've got to get back out there."
"Add…"He shook his head.
"We both know it can't be fixed now, we've just got to get to school and try to figure something out. You're the one that always told me to play the part."
"So you won't get into trouble," He muttered glaring.
"We'll here we go."
By the end of the night it had been announced that we were to be married and I felt a bit more than disgusted as he kept touching my bare back and sides. By the time we got home I was thankful to change into my nightgown and slip under my covers. Flipping onto my sides I closed my eyes and felt my heart slip lower.
"How am I going to get out of this?"
By the end of the week I had slipped into a larger depression as a ring with a large black gem was placed on my finger and details were discussed as he was escorting me to the train.
"We are to wait until after your graduation then be wed right afterwards." Slipping my eye line down to his forearm I saw the outline of the black mark trough his white shirt and just nodded. He must have noticed my look because he threw on his jacket. "You are to tell no one outside of the family," He glared and I just nodded again looking straight ahead.
Shortly after we entered the platform and I saw Sirius standing over to the side watching closely but not approaching, like I had asked him to.
"I have to go find a cabin," I whispered quietly and he nodded.
"See you Christmas break," He leaned down and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
"Bye," I whispered and then started walking towards the train, as I stepped into the crowd I looked back to see him already gone and Sirius quickly approaching with James and Remus behind. Looking over their faces I saw a little bit of anger on all three with a mixture of worry but looking closer to Remus I saw a bit of sadness.
As they stood in front of me I realized I had no clue what to say but "did you two have a good summer?"
"Addie," James started but then just pulled me into a hug.
"Thanks Jamesie," I said, "but what about you?"
"Oh same old same old," He smiled catching on that I wanted to avoid the subject.
"How about you Remus?" I smiled looking over at him.
"Same stuff too." He gave a little smile but I noticed a new tiny scare on his face. "We better find someplace to sit."
"Very true, and you two should go find Peter." I said, "Also James please lay off Lily until we get to Hogwarts at least," I poked his shoulder talking about my best girl friend.
"I can't promise anything," he smirked as Remus and I left them outside the train.
"You know he is probably going to try and find her before Peter right?" He joked.
"I can always say I try, to her at least," I bumped my shoulder with his. "How were you this summer?" I asked again.
"I told you." He gave a confused look.
"I want the real answer," I pointed to the new scar and he chewed on the inside of his lip.
"It was hard, painful."
"It will get better this year," I gave him a soft, comforting look as we got to the compartment.
"Thanks Addie," He looked in my eyes and I felt my heart skip a beat as I raised my hand to swipe a piece of hair behind my ear. His eyes flicked to the side and then turned to the door quickly walking through.
Confused I moved my hand down and caught a glimpse of the ring, "oh."
The rest of the ride to school I was pretty much silent, my previous attempt of forgetting my fiancé had failed. They all seemed to understand except for Peter who either didn't understand that I didn't want to talk or didn't care. By the time we got to school I was just ready to go to bed.
Laying in bed I was trying to will myself to go to sleep. Almost gone to the world the door burst open and a fiery red head stormed in followed closely by a sweet dark haired, round faced girl.
"They are such prats!" Lily yelled turning to me as I sat up and sighed.
"What have they done now?" I rubbed eyes not in the mood.
"Embarrassed Severus in front of the whole school," She glared at nothing in particular probably running the situation again in her head.
"Oh," I responded.
"Oh? Oh? Is all you have to say?" she came at me and I pulled back slightly.
"Yes 'oh' is all I have to say. It's what they always do I can't stop them, it never going to happen. Now I'm having a horrid…well….life so I'm going to bed." I glared at her and flicked my wand closing my curtains.
I heard her huff and march over to the bathroom then Alice's soft voice spoke up, "Addie what's wrong?"
"My life," I whispered and took a breath flicking open the curtains again and just raised my hand.
"Adhara what is that," she opened her eyes wide.
"My engagement ring," I frowned looking down at it.
"Your what!" Lily yelled and stormed in the room over to my side, "talk."
"My parents are forcing me to marry Rabastan Lestrange, blood purity and all."
"Oh my Merlin," she whispered and plopped down beside me our little tiff forgotten and Alice came to my other side. "Is there any way to get out of it?"
"Death?" I tried to joke and both their face told me it wasn't funny. "Leaving…" I whispered.
"…but you'll have to wait until you turn 17," Lily commented.
"Well it's always been that way now I just have an extra complication. Sirius and I will work it out," I gave a tiny half smile.
"It will be fine," Alice wrapped her arm around me and Lily nodded wrapping her own arm around my shoulders.
'I hope so,' I thought as I leaned my head on Lily's shoulder.
