A/N : I feel like ripping people's heart's out. Why? Because I can. Here's a really angsty AmeCan that is modified version of the Drabble I wrote on my main account

Summary: Matthew and Alfred are lovers. Alfred is blind but loves all things beautiful. Matthew has cancer and doesn't believe in Alfred's love. When Alfred finally sees, the only thing that is beautiful to him is Matthew.


Alfred is a blind man who cannot see but feel all things beautiful. Although he can not see, he knows they are there and knows they are beautiful.

Matthew was diagnosed with cancer not to long ago, but the cancer has already spread therefore it can not be helped. He thinks he is ugly and can not stand the look ok Alfred's face when he showers him with kisses and caresses. He loves Alfred but he truly believes he is ugly

"Matthew, why are you so beautiful?" Alfred whispers as he held his lover's waist. "Tell me Matthew why am I in love?"

Matthew only stares at the mirror with his ugly self as showers of tears ran down his face. He is glad Alfred can not see. "Alfred you do not love me. I am not beautiful"

Alfred ignores but mentally disagrees. Matthew is beautiful and he is sure he loves him

The doctors told Matthew he is to die soon. Matthew then looks said. With one request he told the doctors to give Alfred his eyes so he can see what is truly beautiful

The doctor agrees

Alfred is unaware of Matthew dying so soon, he didn't know that the eyes he is wearing now, once belonged to the man he loves

Alfred stares at the mirror and sees for the first time, and overjoys! He must see Matthew!

By the time Alfred gets to i Matthew, all he sees is a casket in the middle of the room, with faceless people mourning for his death. Alfred is sad. Upset. Wounded. Utterly heartbroken.

Alfred goes up to the casket and finds Matthew's eyes were missing. For a man who finds all things beautiful finally sees everything ugly except Matthew

"Why oh why? Matthew why do you say you are ugly? Nothing is far more fairer than you….." Alfred whispered. "You are indeed the most beautiful thing in this cruel world" Alfred cried using Matthew's eyes. He felt the sadness Matthew felt and felt complete sorrow knowing that his lover did not love himself

For the first time…Alfred saw the world in black and white. The only colourful thing he sees is Matthew. His darling Matthew