HEY GOD,

ITS ME AGAIN. MOMMY SAYS ITS TIME TO TALK TO YOU AGAIN.

MOMMY SAYS I NEED TO TALK TO YOU SO YOU CAN KNOW WHAT I NEED HELP WITH.

TODAY MOMMY STARTED TO CRY. SHE SAID IT WAS BECAUSE YOU WERE GOING TO TAKE GRANDPA SOON BECAUSE HE HAS SOMETIHNG CALLED CANCER. IT MAKES IT HARD FOR HIM TO BREATH BECAUSE ITS IN HIS CHEST.SHE SAYS THAT THE STUFF HE'S TAKING ISN'T WORKING ANTMORE. YOU KNOW THE STUFF THAT MADE ALL HIS HAIR FALL OUT.SHE SAYS I NEED TO PRAY THAT YOU WILL TAKE HIM AWAY SO HE WON'T BE HURTING ANYMORE. BUT I DON'T WANT YOU TO TAKE GRANDPA FROM ME. YOU SEE I WANT HIM TO BE HERE WHEN I LEARN HOW TO RIDE A TWO WHEELER, OR WHEN I BECOME A MOMMY.WHY CAN YOU JUST MAKE CANCER GO AWAY? MOMMY SAYS YOU CAN DO ANYTHING. CAN YOU PLEASE JUST MAKE GRANDPA BE ABLE TO STAY HERE? PLEASE I WILL GIVE YOU MY TOOTHFAIRY MONEY. BUT MOMMY ALSO SAYS THAT GRANDPA IS HURTING ALOT AND ALWAYS FEELS BAD. THIS REALLY HARD BECAUSE I WANT GRANDPA BUT I DON'T WANT GRANDPA TO HURT. MOMMY SAYS THAT WHEN YOU TAKE GRANDPA TO HEAVEN HE WILL STILL BE ABLE TO SEE ME GROW. IS THAT TRUE? IF IT IS THEN GRANDPA CAN GO TO HEAVEN A STILL SEE ME LEARN TO RIDE A TWO WHEELER AND BECOME A MOMMY! THAT WOULD MEAN GRANDPA WOULDN'T HURT TOO! THAT WOULD BE GREAT.BUT I COULD SEE HIM COULD I? BECAUSE MOMMY SAYS THAT ONCE YOU GO TO HEAVEN YOU BECOME AN ANGEL AND WE CAN'T ALWAYS SEE ANGELS. THIS IS SO HARD. I THINK I WILL LET YOU CHOOSE GOD. YOU PICK THE WAY THAT IS RIGHT BECAUSE MOMMY SAYS THAT YOU KNOW EVERYTHING THAT I DON'T. TAKE CARE OF EVERYONE GOD BECAUSE MOMMY SAYS THAT EVERYONE EVEN THE BAD PEOPLE NEED YOU TOO.

LOVE,

ELIZABETH BISHOP