-Cordy-
As I sit at this huge desk in my office at work I know that I need to bring our relationship to a close. In memory of you I've decided to type this rather than write it out the old fashioned way I am accustomed to. It just goes to show that you finally made part of technology rub off on me. For the first time I am thankful of that fact. You fought very bravely with me, for me, and against me over the past four or so years. I am thankful that you stayed with me in the beginning when I thought I was better off alone, but I am even more thankful that you allowed me back into your world after I so harshly and rudely threw you and others out of my life. You have been a best friend to me at many points over the past few years when others would have easily given up on me and walked away without looking back. You were there when I would give up on myself and that means more to me than I ever let you know. You are only the second person in all of my years to ever show me that kind of friendship and dependability. I fell in love with the other one and I thought at one point that I was falling in love with you. But I wasn't and I know that I could never love another like I still love my first and only true love. I know now though that the only reason my feelings toward you were changing at all is because of how you took such great care of my son after he was born and his mother was lost in the process of bringing him into this world. I regret that I never really let you know how important your support was to my son and me. It seems though that we ended on a wrong and ugly note as we fought against each other as that monster consumed your body and soul. I wish I could have had the chance to tell you all of this face to face, but now that you are dead and gone I guess that this will have to do as my final way of letting you know your significance in my life. I do love you, but not in that romantic way that I have only ever loved the other person I mentioned earlier. I feel the need to talk about that person, but now is not the time or place…perhaps one day I will be able to talk to that person face to face and really say everything that I have always meant to, but have always been unable to. I don't want to have to write another letter like this one. It saddens me to no end though that neither of you are in my life anymore. I hope that changes one day. I believe that the only way to end this is to say thank you once more and then to say goodbye for the last time. So…Thank You (even for the after effects of the one goodbye kiss) and Goodbye. I may be closing this chapter of my life but you will never be forgotten.
With love,
(signed with only a smear of blood)
Wow, Buffy thought, whoever wrote this must have really been close to this Cordy person. Sounds like they went through a lot together. It feels like a guy wrote it; I bet he's really down after losing her. Too bad he doesn't have that other person in his life anymore. I probably shouldn't have picked this up off Cordy's grave but since I did maybe I can help the guy who wrote it. I'll have to show this to Willow when she gets home.
