Hey fans! So happy for those of you that follow me. This one is all Emmett/Rosalie and moves much faster than PTA. Leave me some comments please.
Sitting in my car, outside my therapist's office, I did my breathing exercises that Dr. Cullen had suggested last week. I hated this office. I never had panic attacks anymore, but I was always nervous before coming here. Everytime I came, I would sit out in my car having panic attacks. Dr. Cullen brought up memories that I hated remembering. However, going through four therapists in the last four years, Dr. Cullen was the only one to stick. He had married the girl that found me that night. I was bruised and broken and I just wanted to lay there and die. Bella quickly became my best friend and she had met both Dr. Cullen's that night.
When my dad, The Colonel, brought Royce King home to meet me, Royce had charmed everyone. I was nieve back then. Now, I knew the type of person someone was just by talking to them for a couple minutes. I guess that's what happens when someone takes advantage of you. You learn to never let it happen again, and that is the road I am staying on.
Walking into Dr Cullen's office, I take a deep breath and let Angela, his secretary, know I have arrived. She smiled sweetly and told me to go on back.
"Dr. Cullen" I knocked on the door.
"Come on in, Rosalie." I heard, and let myself in.
"How are the panic attacks coming along?"
"I only had to sit in my car thirty-six minutes today." I said smiling. His crooked smile showed brighter that I have ever seen it.
"I am so proud of you Rosalie. You are doing great. Did the panic attack happen, or did the breathing exercises work?" I grinned back and looked down at my hands.
"It started but then I did the breathing like you taught me and it calmed me down." When I looked back up, he was scribbling away on his note pad.
"I am happy it is working. We finally found something that works for you." I smile softly and nod my head in agreement.
"So what would you like to talk about today? How was your trip to see The Colonel?" My smile faltered. This was the part of the visit I hated most. I loved my dad growing up, but that soon turned to hate after Royce. This was my first trip to see him in two years and my mother had to beg me.
"He STILL wants me to appologize to Royce for 'putting him through everything'. After four years he still hasn't given up. You would think he would have figured out I am telling the truth... He goes golfing with him and his dad. Does he really think I would lie about it?" At that Dr. Cullen inhaled sharply and looked up. I knew this was the part of my friend showing through. He takes a deep breath and his eyes close and then open again. When his eyes open, the eyes of my doctor are back.
"I am sorry, Rosalie. I wish I could knock some sense into that man for you. How did you respond?"
"I responded by jumping up and getting in his face. But then, I remembered what you said about 'not to engage' him. So I said goodbye to my mother, and walked out. I can't have that in my life. I want to get better." Dr. Cullen was smiling again.
"Great job, Rose. Sorry, Rosalie." He still slips up sometimes. When I first started seeing Edward as a therapist, I had to have something to tell the difference between my friend, and my doctor. So we decided to go with proper names. In his office, he is Dr. Cullen and I am Rosalie. Away from his office, I am Rose, and he is Edward.
"Thanks, Edward... I mean Dr. Cullen."
"So I have an idea. Feel free to say no and I won't pressure you at all." I nod encouraging him to continue.
"I know you are still nervous about meeting new people, and that's fine. I completely understand. But, my brother, Emmett, is in Afghanistan right now. He is suppose to ship back in eleven months. I want to prepare you for meeting him. He is really a great guy, and I wouldn't do this to you if it were a complete stranger. But, I would like you to start writing him. Get to know him. He really is a good guy and nothing gets him down. Plus, I trust him." I just sat there staring, letting what he said sink in. I could feel my breathing starting to pick up. Starting my breathing exercises, I counted.
Breathe in -1 -2 -3 -4.
Breathe out -1 -2 -3 -4.
Breathe in -1 -2 -3 -4.
Breathe out -1 -2 -3 -4.
Breathe in -1 -2 -3 -4.
Breathe out -1 -2 -3 -4.
As I opened my eyes, I saw Dr. Cullen grinning at me. I knew he was happy I didn't completely lose it in his office. I wouldn't consider his offer, would I? He trusted him. One letter wouldn't hurt. Right? I had to meet him sooner or later, and if I got to know him now, then it wouldn't be too bad when he started coming around.
I couldn't believe I was really considering Dr. Cullen's offer. I know I had questions for him about this but, I did want to meet someone new. Someone who didn't know me or consider me the broken mess that I was four years ago. Wait, he has a brother?
"I didn't know you had a brother..."
What do I tell him, about what happened..."
"I don't know his deal with Mom and Dad, but he never comes around. He is one of my best friends, though. Right before he was sent out to Afghanistan he was transferred about two hours from here. Just get to know him. If you end up becoming friends, I would suggest you tell him about your past. Don't try to hide it. You know how my family is about secrets. This doesn't have to be one though. You can tell him when you are ready, and on your own time." Dr. Cullen finished and handed me a picture. He didn't look like Edward or Alice at all. He was a good half foot taller than Edward. He was attractive too. I quickly pushed that feeling aside and smiled up at Dr. Cullen. I didn't want him to know anything about my past at all, but Dr Cullen was right. The Cullen's had no secrets, but Emmett could get to know me before having to like me because he felt sorry for me.
I cannot believe I am really considering this... It is a chance though, for me to be able to trust someone else, outside of Bella, Edward, Esme, and Big C (Carlisle).
"What if he doesn't like me?" I knew I sounded pathetic, but after the past four years, I didn't want to become friends with someone that I knew wouldn't last.
"Rosalie, if I didn't think you guys would end up the best of friends, I wouldn't encourage this." Before thinking about this any longer, I shook my head yes. Dr. Cullen, quickly wrote down Emmett's email on the back of his business card, smiling the entire time.
Laying down on my bed, I spun the email adress in my fingers. I should have thought this through better. He was going to hate me. He was going to think I am crazy... Who emails someone they don't even know... Looking down at the keys, I thought about my commitment to Dr. Cullen.
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Emmett,
Hi, I'm Rosalie, but friends call me Rose. I know you don't know me and I promise I'm not a stalker or a crazy fucking phsyco. Edward Cullen is married to my best friend, Bella. He encouraged me to email you and get to know you before you got home.
So a little about me... I am twenty-four, soon to be twenty-five years old. I am a RN and taking classes for my Nurse Practitioner Degree. My real love is fixing up old cars. I use to help my grandfather when I was a kid, and it kind of stuck. However, I love being inside and cooking too.
I am originally from Gatlinburg, Tn. My family and I really don't get along too well, so your family has been great. My dad, The Colonel, just retired from the Army after 40 years. My mom is the normal Colonel's wife I guess. Her world revolves around The Colonel, even when I was a kid.
Enough about that. Tell me about you, please. I know your name is Emmett. I have seen a photo of you from the younger days, of all of you in High School. Plus, I believe your brother told me you were quite the cheerful person. He really seems to think we would end up great friends.
I would love to send something over there of anything you might want/need, or to just remind you of home. I am going to do it no matter if you reply or not, so if you don't want cans of spinach then you better tell me what your favorites are. If you want anything please let me know. I'd hate to accidentally add in a PlayGirl because I picked my favorites instead of yours... ;)
Thank you for your service.
-Rosalie
First Chapter Over... What do you think?
- Courtney
