I could always see it coming.

I couldn't help it.

But I didn't want it.

I'm not like them.

I'm not like my family.

Everyone thinks I am.

But I'm not!

Yes, I'm a Slytherin.

But I'm not a bad one.

They always label us as bad.

Never good!

Can't they see we're just trying to get by?

We don't want to be like our parents, our family.

We want to help, but they never let us.

They just can't see us as good.

Why?

We never hurt them.

Okay, so maybe once...or twice.

But they asked for it!

I'm not bad.

I promise.

But they just can't see that.

I'm not a death eater.

I may have the mark but I feel nothing for them.

I smile inside when news comes back of their death.

I have nightmares when I have to see someone crucio'd.

I can't crucio anyone or kill anyone.

It's just not the way I am.

And I'd never change it.

But I will do what I have to do to keep my friends and myself alive.

Yes, they are my friends.

Vincent Crabbe and Gregory Goyle they are my closest.

They have the same feelings as me.

Yes, they do have feelings.

They are not mindless henchmen as you imagine.

They're kind, caring people.

But you just can't see that.

I'd do anything to protect them.

Anything.

Even if it means hurting a few people.

I do know what else to do!

Dumbledore's dead.

And no!

I did not kill him.

They always assume so.

I just couldn't do it.

My attempts were stupid and I know that.

I just couldn't look him if I did it.

I just couldn't look into his eyes.

I never saw those dead eyes.

But yet they haunt my dreams.

I no longer have dreams.

I have nightmares.

Horrid, gruesome, haunting nightmares.

I sometimes wonder how I haven't gone mad.

I think it is because there is hope.

The golden trio will be victorious.

I had to pretend not to like them.

But I did.

Granger was smart, if sometimes bossy.

Potter was brave, if sometimes vain.

Weasley was rather funny, if sometimes a fool.

But they stuck together, no matter what.

That's like us.

But you just can't see it

I am not a Dark Prince.

I am not a Death Eater.

I am a Little Lost Boy.

Just trying to find my way home.