Too many things unsaid!
It was 2:30 am when Derek woke up sweating, crying and screaming again, the third time this week. 'This is getting worse; I can't keep going like this. He thought he sat up in his bed. He got up to get a glass of water. He knew he wouldn't be able to sleep again tonight. He got back in to bed after drinking his water.
The only thing he could think of to do was call his baby girl. He picked up his phone and dialed her number. She answered on the 5th ring. 'Hello?' she answered in a tired voice sounding very sleepy.
He felt bad for waking her up so decided to stay quiet. 'Hello?' she said again. This time he sighed. She immediately knew who it was 'Derek, baby are you ok?' she asked more awake and in a soft tone. He answered and said 'yea baby, I'm sorry for waking you up. Go back to sleep baby girl and I'll see you in the morning.' He rubbed his hands over his head and face when he heard her answer. 'Baby I am awake now and I don't want to wait to know why you called me till the morning please tell me and let me help you.' She said in a soft tone to try and calm him down. She got out of bed and put him on speakerphone whilst getting her keys for her car and Derek's apartment. He answered and said 'I promise I will tell you when I see you ok. I'm sorry for waking you up, try and go back to sleep pretty girl. Ill see you in the morning, love you goodnight baby girl.' He said quietly and softly. 'Ok I guess your right I am quiet tired actually. It's absolutely fine that you woke me up you know that if you have any problems you can call me. Ok handsome I'm going back to sleep love you. Bye' with that said she put the phone down and got in the car, on her way to Derek's apartment.
20 minutes later!
She got to Derek's door and went in her coat pocket to get her key. She opened the door and took of her shoes. She walked to the living room where Derek laid down on the sofa with a blanket wrapped around him. He looked like a little boy who was ill taking a day of school. He looked like a cute little boy but with a haunted look on his face and that made her feel more sorry for him.
She moved closer and leaned down to where Derek was facing and kissed his arm. He jumped slightly and she said 'sorry for scaring you baby I didn't mean to I just had to check on you.' He stared at her for a couple of seconds and sat up, he let her sit under the blanket with him.
She got under the blanket and he wrapped his arm round her. She leaned in and cuddled him and he kissed her temple. 'Thank you for coming over baby but you didn't have to' he said gently. 'I'm ok now' he added hesitantly. She chuckled just a little and said 'hot stuff you do realize that, that is probably the worst lie you have ever told me. 'Cause I know you're not ok. You just wont say it.' She said carefully and gently.
They sat there in silence for a few minutes before she got bored of it and curiosity took over her. 'Hot stuff what did you dream about?' she asked carefully. He sighed 'It's nothing much really. It's just about… us. But we are a lot younger… like teenagers… and I told you about Carl… and you said you would try… try to protect me however you could. Carl he… he forced me… and all I could think when he was doing it were your… your words… in my… my head telling me you were going to… to protect… me. But you never came… and it… it hurt me because I knew… I knew it wasn't your… fault because you didn't know. And then he takes us to the… the woods and he ties… ties your hands and feet to a chair… I try… I try to stop him… but he said if I tried to… to get you untied he would… would hurt you… and I… I didn't want you to get… even more hurt… and then he came over… over and he started hitting… hitting me… I tried to stop him but he was stronger than me… and he kept hitting me in the stomach… until… until I fell to the ground… I buried my… my head into my knees… and that was… that was possibly… the worst choice I could have made… because he started… he started kicking… kicking me in the head… I could hear your voice… telling him to stop hurting me… and that's when I wake up…' he said with a broken, haunted and sad voice. He had tears streaming down his face whilst telling Penelope what his nightmare was about. She wiped the tears of his face carefully whilst crying herself. She hugged him and buried her face in his chest whilst they cried on his leather couch.
After they had calmed down a bit she asked 'how long have you been having these nightmares for?' with a shaken voice. He answered with 'for at least 3 ½ months now. And at least 4 times a week.' She tried to sit up but fell down again when she felt a pair of arms drag her back down and hug her again. She looked at him in shock. He looked confused and said 'what?' '3 ½ months and 4 times a week? And you haven't said ANYTHING to me about this? I could help you. Why didn't you tell me sooner? I was thinking something was going on because you have been looking tired. More tired than the rest of the team and more haunted but have you told anyone else like Hotch he really needs to know.
He shook his head. He knew the team and Penelope especially would notice something but he didn't realize they noticed this much. He shouldn't be surprised really they were all profilers after all. 'No baby I haven't told anyone. And I didn't want to tell you because I thought I could deal with it myself. And I didn't want to trouble you with my own nightmares. I'm pretty sure you have enough going on I don't want to stress you out even more.' He said in a quiet tone. Her face showed understanding and she said softly 'baby I understand that I was going through something stressful but I would have dropped anything and everything if you told me. You wouldn't be troubling me with your nightmares. I love you and you are my best friend you should know that I don't mind if you call me every night and told me you had a nightmare.' He felt a little bad for not telling her because he knew she would do anything for him. He said with a soft tone 'I know baby and I promise I will tell you next time I have a nightmare. I love you too and you're my best friend baby girl. I could never thank you enough. Especially how you look out for me when I need help. How did I get so lucky? I am so lucky to have you in my life baby girl. I don't know what I would do without you.' He kissed her softly on the cheek.
'You were you baby. And I'm glad you will call me next time. I am so lucky to have you in my life too.' She smiled at him softly.
They carried on talking for about half an hour before they decided to go to bed because they had work in the morning and they were getting tired. Penelope slept with Derek in his bed because he didn't want to sleep alone that night.
