Hi everyone! Okay this is my first fic so...I really want reviews! Even if they aren't positive can you please tell me what you think? Oh, and I don't own Cowboy Bebop *sigh* too bad for me! Anyway, I hope you like it!

Our Chance

The tears dwell within me. He's dead I say to myself. I question my life, my reason and purpose in this world. Constantly I tell myself that I'll move on and forget about him. As if. How could I? I loved him, no I love him. I still love him. There was no body to bury. Maybe there is still a chance? No body right? I look in the mirror and I see my reflection telling me to get real.
Its been like this for a while. I've been depressed and all mopey about it. You know, I wonder if he felt the same way about me? No, no he wouldn't he loved Julia. He couldn't love someone like me.
I'd never thought I'd say this, but I miss him, his messy green hair, his smile, I even miss his cocky attitude. I sigh out loud under my breath. Loud enough that Ed heard me. She is weird, but sometimes she makes you laugh. Aw Faye-Faye!she said bending backwards so her head was upside down. Then she placed both of her hands on my face and squished it together, just as a grandmother would to a grandchild.
Annoyed, I got up and went to my room, making sure to lock the door behind me. This is when I make my choice. I'll look for him. It doesn't matter if it takes forever. This way I'll know for sure if he is dead or alive.

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I left a note for the others on the Bebop. It told them that I was going to be gone for a while and that I was taking a little bit of food with me.
I'll go where ever my heart takes me. Im hoping I'll find him there, where I go. I have his picture with me. I look at it and chuckle to myself. He has that sly smile of his. A flashback comes to mind. Could I have stopped him from going? Maybe.
I realized that I had already arrived at my destination, but where the hell was I? It didn't matter, this was a city, nothing more. Beautiful sights surrounded me. It was truly awesome. The neon lights, everything.
As I walk along the streets I see a bar. Man, what I would do for a drink. I say to myself. When I sit down the bartender asks me what I'd like. Its been a while since I had alcohol, so I want something strong, yet not too strong. I go by my instincts, As he prepares my drink, I pull out a cigarette and look around the bar. A bunch of old men are drinking in a corner. They are laughing their asses off about something. Damn Spike. If it wasn't for him I'd be fine, but no Im here and Im happy at all. I think to myself.
I look to the other corner. There are some men. They aren't too old looking. One is really skinny, like a twig. He has a crooked smile. The man next to him has fairly long hair, he is blonde and looks quite strong. Seems like the kind of man I'd have fallen for had I seen him a couple years ago. I realize that they are looking at me so I turn around and decide to ignore them. Im not getting into any sort of trouble yet.
I order another drink and another. Practically drunk, I walk out of the bar. I didn't notice that I was being followed. It was that blonde guy with the long hair and his friend with that horrible smile. I walk faster, increasing my chances of falling, but hell, if you were in my shoes you'd run too. Who would want to be stalked by two creepy guys with a dirty look on their face. Hey doll! C'mere! We aint gonna hurt you! I hear one of them say. I only walk faster hoping to loose them. Of course with my luck they manage to get in font of me. What the hell do you want? I ask them harshly. Just wanted to have a little fun with ya! grinned the blonde as he tried to grab me. Get the fuck away from me. Im busy! I yell running in the opposite direction.
Before I knew it they were in front of me again. Damn persistent assholes. I say to both of them. The skinny one slaps me across the face. Don't you dare call us assholes slut! he said. I glared at them and pulled out my gun. Unfortunately for me, my reflexes were a little too slow thanks to the vodka. The hit me a couple of times and as I fell to the ground I found that they weren't attacking me anymore. They were preoccupied fighting someone else, but who? Who in the right mind would fight them for me?
It was so hard to see. I could identify that it was a male that was fighting the two men who assaulted me. I didn't get to see his face at the time. I soon fell unconscious. I smiled to myself, imagining that it was Spike who came to my rescue. I was like a damsel in distress and he was my savior.
When I awoke, I was in a room. The aroma of delicious food was in the air. Where am I? I ask myself out loud, not expecting an answer. You got K.O'd. I thought you'd appreciate it if you got to rest so I brought you here. said a familiar voice. I whispered and looked around frantically.
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okay so what do you think?? Is it worth continuing??? Reviews? Please?? I want to continue it but I wanna know what you think!