I've never thought much about that my parents would die. But now it was there, it was extremely painfull. Of course, Edward told me once 'In a few decades, everyone you know, will be dead.' But i've never thought that it would be so soon. My loving father, the sweet man, was dead. I would miss his black hair – that started to turn grey--, i would miss his Brown eyes, that i was born with --but traded it for my now golden eyes 10 years ago.—I would miss his supervising and the love he gave to my little girl, my daughter had to grow up, without her grand father. Of course, this day would come eventually, but why had it be so soon?
'Bye, Bells, I need to go home. It's getting quite late, and my old eyes aren't getting better of traveling trough the dark.' Charlie hestitated, I knew he wanted to stay. But he couldn't, tomorrow was a school day and Renesme had to go to sleep. 'Ch-Dad, you're not old. You're just tired. You're only 49.' 'Hmmpf, yeah and I can't wait for my birthday. I'm going to be 50, Bella, 50!' I just laughed. At least he would get older, Carlisle never became older than 23, and Esme stopped aging at 26. They could never say that they were getting old, or complaining about they were getting grey-haired. I gave him a quick smile as he stalked to the door and opened it. 'Bella, I hope you'll consider it.'He said as he walked away and roughly closed the door. I didn't want to think about it. He seriously wanted my baby girl, my little angel who I gave birth to ten years ago to life with him. Of course I trusted Charlie with her. But I didn't quite trusted Jacob. My Little girl was getting older everyday and looked like she was 17. And mentally she felt 17. But I didn't wanted her to be alone with Jacob. I felt sick when I tought about what I did at the age of 17 with Edward, and I didn't wanted her to do that. She might look like 17, -- and act like 17 --, I just saw my 10 year old girl. And if she was really following my path, she would have an intimate relationship with Jacob in 2 years time. I wasn't going to support that. Not even when Charlie mentioned that he would never lose eyesight off her. Yeah, right. Just like with Edward and me.
I heard his footsteps in the grind as he opened the door of his car and started the engine.
No, I would never send her away to him, how could he even consider it. Of course he didn't know about Edward and me in the night that I was still human and only 17, and later 18. Then I just better run right away toward her and say 'Sweety, have sex with Jake, it's okay! Just do the same what mommy did, and I don't care that you actually only are 10 years old!' I shivered at the thought. Nope, No way I would send her away.
I stalked to the living room as Charlie's engine's sound faded and I could no longer see him trough the window.
'That was awkward.' I breathed.
'I could tell, he was very upset.' Esme answered as she opened her arms for a big hug.
'I know.' I just ignored her arms and went straight for the chair at the other side of the room. I looked at her face and saw no pain in it. But I knew I'd hurt her.
'Sorry, I'm not in the mood Esme.'
'I'ts okay honey. Sometimes you have days like that. I just thought you would want some comfort.'
'Not really, actually, I want to be alone.'
'Do you want me to leave?' She asked.
'No, I will I'm going to my room.' I said as I ran to my room in vampire speed.
As I thought back at the fight, I started to think that it was all for nothing. It was just a little option he suggested.
'You should be happy that you didn't agree with him.' My love said as he kissed my collarbone and hugged me thight.
'What do you mean?'
'If you agreed with him, you wouldn't only lost your father, but lost our daughter to.' He kissed my foreheard and stared me deeply in the eyes.
'I know for sure that you would never forgive that to yourself.'
'Neither would you' I answered.
He had no answer for it.
'See' I breathed.
'I think I could handle it' he murmered as his lips traced down my neck and he softly kissed the bitemark he left 10 years ago.
