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I was holding on tight. So tight. Perfect things come in the blink of an eye and they disappear in even less time. I knew that, knew the hurt it caused, the years it could taint and yet I would still leave. Follow my dreams of sunsets, sands and careers worthy of recognition. Leaving a man worthy of so much more. More than me.

The bar we were in was crowded, bodies of lovers squashed together grasping each other and swaying. We didn't stick out, our love wasn't blinding and obvious floating above the other couples, but it felt like it should be. Everyone could feel the tension rolling off of our bodies knowing this was it. The end. In reality each person had their own story, one night stands, marriages of eternity, unrequited and plain lust.

I was leaving, he knew it. No person would stand in the way of my dreams or my goals and passion. We were friends, then friends who had benefits and eventually we became lovers but I'd still leave, Taking his heart and leaving mine in broken shards across the miles of space I would put between us.

He knew. Since I was a child I had told everyone eventually I would get out, have this huge career and never look back. At the past nor the people in it.

Nothing could stop me, not a thing, nor a person. Certainly not something as inconsequential as love. Anybody trying to stop me would be pushed away, tucked so far out of mind eventually they didn't exist anymore. Because nothing could stop me, I wasn't a foolish girl who let a man decide her future. I wasn't the girl to stay because of love.

And even though Edward knew this it didn't stop me wishing he would try to stop me from leaving.

An: so if anyone wants a mood setter I started off listening to Michael bublès live Madison square me and mrs jones and then listened to the whole album.

Thanks for everyone's kind words on my other story at the moment it's just thoughts going on paper nothing substantial so I'm sorry if I don't update anyone and just upload Drabble, but thank you so much everyone who even glanced at this let alone reading it!