Prologue
One deep breath, it hurts. Two deep breaths, I need more. My eyes are burning, my nose is on fire. One more, then I'm done. I cough as a tear escapes the corner of my eye. I wipe my nose until all the white is gone. A brief moment of looking into the mirror is enough to see the how dark my eyes are and how deep they lay in my pale face. A little bit of powder on my cheeks, darker than the powder from a minute ago. As I smile it feels like my skin is cracking. But I know that the only thing that is being ripped apart right now is my confidence. "Smile Char, just smile", I whisper to the image in the mirror. She looks back at me with empty eyes. "Fuck bitch, smile". My eyes light up. I found it again, the switch. As the white powder creeps through my brain, I open the door. No matter what happens in the next few minutes, I'm stronger than ever before.
