Leaving You

As I sit on my bathroom floor, I wonder how to tell him. I wonder how to tell him

I'm dying. I can't take it. My legs move instantly toward my chest, I wrap my frail arms around them and bury my face into my arms. I sob quietly. I love him so much and now I won't be able to be with him.

There is a knock at the door, his knock. I make no desperate attempt to wipe the tears off my cheeks, I need to tell him. I need to tell him he is my everything, my touchstone. I open the door, his instincts tell him that something is wrong, he pulls me in his arms and stokes my hair. He speaks softly.

"What's wrong?"

I see tears in his eyes, he is so sensitive.

"I have cancer, I'm dying."

I begin to cry. So does he.

"Oh Dana"

Turn away
If you could get me a drink
Of water cause my lips are chapped and faded
He took me to the hospital last night. He's sat by my bed all this time and has not left me. What he must be going through. He's had no sleep. He has not left the chair. Not even for the bathroom. I talk.

"Mulder, go home get some rest."

"I can't leave you, I…uh…love you."

Tears well up in my eyes, I don't wipe them away. These are tears of happiness and sadness.

"I love you too"

He stands up and lies down next to me.

Call my Aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me
In all my favorite colors,
My sisters and my brothers, still,

I will not kiss you,
Cause the hardest part of this,
Is leaving you.
I can't die, not like this. I want to live forever and ever with Mulder. It's been three weeks in the hospital, we still have not shared a kiss. Because if I do, dying will just make it too hard. I can't bare to think how he will cope when I'm gone.
Now turn away,
Cause I'm awful just to see
Cause all my hair's abandoned all my body,
All my agony,
Know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo,
But counting down the days to go.
The doctor has just come by, the chemo is unsuccessful, I have two weeks left. Mulder was by my side when I was told the news, he went pale and his eyes went red, redder than they had been. He has been here every day, all day since I was admitted. Down deep inside, he knew it would not last.

It just ain't living
I have a week left. Mulder and I have spent every minute with each other, telling each other the way we feel.
And I just hope you know,
That if you say,
Good-bye today,
I'd ask you to be true,
I'm getting weaker. I know it's my time. I grab Mulder's hand he is crying, he can sense my death. My voice is harsh, Mulder leans closer to me.

"I have always loved you, I will wait for you in heaven."
"I love you, I won't love again"

I slowly fade away, Mulder's hand in mine. I am gone.
Cause the hardest part of this,
Is leaving you...
Scully is gone, dead… there is nothing left for me to do. Only one, and that's not leaving the one true love I have. I lay down next to her lifeless body, and I get a needle full of morfien and overdose.
Because the hardest part of this,
Is leaving you...

"I'm not leaving you, I'm here. We can be forever."

That smile comes to her face, we are in heaven.

End.

I hope you like it, I'm sorry its depressing, but I heard this songs and it was a perfect thing to write.