My Immortal Love

Disclaimer-Ugh! Fine! I'll say it! I do not own the Twilight series! Stephenie Meyer does! And all quotes belong to Stephenie Meyer! And I don't own "My Immortal" by Evanescence! Whatever! *stomps away screaming "WHY CAN'T I OWN THEM?! Wahhhhhhh!!!!"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

I'm tired of this. I want the pain to end. If he wanted to leave, if he didn't love me, he should've just left earlier, instead of having to do that little act for the past year. But, even after he's left, I still remember him. I still feel the pain, I can't even say his name without breaking down into tears. He said "It will be as if I'd never existed." That was a foolish thing to promise. Did he really think that I would forget him? That I would move on? Never.


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

Everything hurts. The hole in my chest, where my heart was, pulsates with pain, everytime I think about him. This pain is like no other, the worst pain imaginable. And I deal with it. Daily. He said when he left me "Don't worry. You're human – your memory is no more than a sieve. Time heals all wounds for your kind." I will never forget. Time cannot heal everything. Including this. I will never heal. This pain, this, this is for life. As long as I love him. And I will never stop loving him. Forever.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

I love him. Everytime he was sad. When his body was racked with sobs, I was there. I shall still be there, even if he doesn't want me to. When he'd scream, scared for me, that I was dead, or dying, like in the dance studio, I'd chase away his demons, the thing he was afraid of, and comfort him, no matter how much pain I was in. I was with him that one year, and I shall still be with him every year. When he left, he took something important with him, something he forgot to give back in the forest that day. My heart. He still has all of my heart. All of me. Forever.

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I remember the day in the meadow. He captured my attention, and my heart just by walking into the sun, and shattering the light, as if a million diamonds were embedded into his skin. The day I told him I love him. But now, I am trapped by the memories that I shall never forget. The memories that haunt me. Especially his face. In every dream I've had since that day, I see him. Every time I close my eyes, I see his face. His face haunts me. The dreams that were once pleasant, shall never again be. I remember the first time I heard his voice in my head. The bar. I thought I was insane. I shall never be the same. Not anymore. Never.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

I've tried to tell myself he's gone, but it seems impossible. It feels like everytime I walk into that cafeteria, I'll look in the corner, to see him and his family, the same as ever, tray of props in front of them. But even though I still remember him, I see his face at night, and I hear his voice in my head, I've been alone all along. And I'll never see him again. Just know, I love him. My immortal love. My Edward. For always, and eternity.