I feel my entire body tremble and quiver as I slide down the door of my bedroom. I take in what happened each new piece of information was like a slap in the face. The room was basked in golden light raining down on me. I sigh a heavy sigh. The palace was changing me. I knew it. I just don't know if it is good or bad. Like a magnet I felt myself drawn to the piano. My hands rested lightly on the ivory keys as my mind pondered what to do. But I didn't need to think anymore. They moved by themselves and I allowed myself to get lost. For once. I sighed contently. The familiar sense of warmth fluttered through as it was pumped through my veins. My heart beat in my chest like a drum steadily keeping the beat. A tear slowly spilled out of my eye as my thoughts of music reminded me of my family. I could vividly imagine them hear, sitting here and swaying to my music then cheering for me. May would love it here and Gerad would be thrilled to have people to play with. Kenna probably has had her baby by now. I'm missing my niece's birth. So much i am missing because of the selection. But i'm here for Maxon. Its all for Maxon.
" Maxon." I breathed his name, resting on the tip of my tongue. It felt so natural. Just like breathing. I love him. With a burning passion like a fire glowing brighter and brighter.
" And because you messed up, you almost extinguished it." A voice in my head chimes.
" Almost." A part of me whispered. " Almost." it got louder and louder becoming a chant. "Almost! Not now will I, not tomorrow will I, not ever will I!"
I take off sprinting running to the gardens. I felt glares drill through my head but I kept running. Its been so long since i've ran. I burst out into the sunlight with a laugh. Slipping out of my shoes i place them on the grass. I feel prickly grass and soft Earth beneath my feet. My eyes flick up to the Clear blue sky. Soft, lazy, clouds float through the sky and on the sky is a blue so pale and pure that I wonder if it was created by angels. There are no skyscrapers or blinding city lights to block out the sky and warmth of the Sun. A cool breeze whispers in my ear and brushes against my cheek so that I shiver yet the Sun beams rays down on me so my skin pricks. I feel like the sun is filling me with warmth and hope. Inhaling a gulp of fresh air, i'm hit with the startling smell of fresh, wet, dirt. I open my eyes that I didn't realize they were closed. Everything here is so pure. I open my eyes that I didn't even realize were closed and take off. I don't know where i'm going, I just know that i'm going somewhere. My feet ache, burn, and sting beneath me. My side burns and pricks with what feels like sparks of fire. My lungs work and force heavy gulps of air into my lungs. I sit down on the soft ground when I feel to tired. Standing up I begin to just wander trying to find my way back. I find the doors just as the sun begins to set. I glanced behind me taking in the array of colors. Goldens and oranges meshing with red creating a glow that looks similar to a fire. I turn my head and walk back inside. I pull leaves and twigs out of my hair as I climb the stairs to my room. I hear an odd noise come from my room and I furrow my eyebrows. I open my door to a sight I never thought I see.