A/N : Hello beautiful people. I'm Ash and this is my first ever DRRR! fiction ever. So please bear with the silly mistakes ( as English is not my first language as well as I haven't proof-read yet) and the plot itself xD

Disclaimer : THIS IS AN MxM FICTION WITH A LITTLE BIT OF SMUT. IF YOU'RE NOT COMFORTABLE WITH SUCH SET-UP, KINDLY LEAVE! I DO NOT OWN DURARARA OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS ,ENTIONED HERE. ( Coz if I did, DRRR would be a proper YAOI ANIME xD) I do own the story though. :P

~LOVE HURTS, LOVE SOOTHES~

"Hello there Tom-san!" Shizuo gritted as he made his way towards his debt-collector boss. "hello to you too Shizuo" Tom nodded. "Sorry for being late Tom-san" The blonde said huffing. "Orihara-kun again?" Tom asked, a playful smirk playing across his face as he witnessed the blonde's face turning into a light shade of pink almost instantly. "Not that I mind, but don't ignore work totally, ne?" The boss added teasingly. Shizuo muttered a soft sorry looking anywhere but towards Tom, his ears reddened which didn't go unnoticed by Tom. "He's just too cute to be called a monster" Tom thought. This was becoming quite a normal thing. Shizuo being late for his job that is. And the only reason behind his irregular arriving was that damn flea Orihara Izaya, a.k.a. the blonde's beloved boyfriend. That sounds impossible right! But that was the fact. Things happened and now the sworn enemy duo was dating. Just thinking about it made Shizuo's cheeks feel hot. "Damn it! There's no time for thinking about flea. Gotta work." Shizuo thought himself and followed his boss.

Days passed by as they usually did. people lived their lives as they've always lived. And it was another good morning in Ikebukuro... well may be not for the monster of Ikebukuro. " Shit..shit..shit..shit..shit..." the blonde kept mumbling as he made his way out for work, meeting his boss who was already there waiting for him. Tom was taken aback little when he saw Shizuo that morning. He looked pissed.. super-pissed to be precise. "Yo! Tom-san." he grunted. Even his voice sounded pissed. Tom replied with a nod and wandered what on the earth happened to the blonde as he started walking again. ' well.. this is weird. Shizuo hasn't had that kind of expressions in a while. What could have happened to make him like this ?' Tom thought. He came back to reality when he heard the bodyguard calling him out. "Yeah, coming." Tom quickly made his way towards him. Knowing Shizo very well he decided not to ask anything for now.

They got to their usual job and not long after it was almost noon. Tom looked at the blonde sitting in front of him with pure concern. They were at the MacDonald's taking a short break from work which had been terrible today. Shizuo had been in a really bad mood and the clients who dined to payback their money made it worse. starting from the very morning.. shizuo's destroyed two shops, five vending machines and god knows how many sign-boards. The debt-collector let out a heavy sigh as he saw the blonde lit his third cigarette in a row. okay that's it. Tom thought. " What is it Shizuo?" He finally asked. The blonde looked confused at the question. "What do you mean Tom-san?" Tom shifted a little in his seat making a serious face now. "Don't pretend. I know something's wrong and you're really bothered about it." Shizuo stared at him for a bit before crushing his cigarette in ash-tray. The blonde took a long breath before facing the boss. " It's Iaya." He said. Tom titled his head a little having 'figured as much' look on his face. " Did you guys have a fight?" Tom asked out the first possibility that came into his mind. The blonde shook her head negatively much to the debt-collector's surprise. "We're not fighting." he said. "Okaaay.. then what is it?" Tom was confused now. "Well.. he's kinda ignoring me!" The blonde stated with a frown. Tom had to hold back his chuckle when he saw the monster of Ikebukuro frowning over such a trivial thing. ' cute.. definitely cute' Tom thought before clearing his throat.

"So that's it? Is that a reason behind such a bad mood of yours?" Tom asked keeping his tone as serious as he could. "What do you mean by that's it Tom-san? I'm really pissed off right now. How dare that damn flea ignore me? Ignoring the Heiwajima Shizuo?" the people at restaurant stared at him as his voice raised a little. Shizuo shifted uncomfortably in his seat noticing it. "Aarghh.. I know I'm behaving like a kid. But it's not something I can help!" The blonde let out a sad sigh. " He's always busy with his work which is nothing new, but even when he's not working he keeps on ignoring me. I'm starting to feel like Izaya doesn't love me anymore" Tears welled up in his eyes as the blonde continued. Seeing Shizuo almost at the verge of crying Tom felt the seriousness of the situation.

"Shizuo.. I think you're thinking too much into this. There's no way it's possible that Izaya has stopped loving you considering the fact that he was the one who confessed his feelings first. May be he really is busy with his work and tired, so he's not giving you the attention you deserve. Just give him some time. It's not like he's having an affair or something right? "

Tom felt a chill running down his spine when he saw the blonde's face drained on his last statement. He cursed himself for even saying something like that. but it couldn't be helped as he'd already blurted out some unnecessary things. He was about to say something to change the topic but was cut short by the blonde.

"What if it's the truth?" asked the blonde, much to himself than the person sitting in front of him. "huh..?" that was all Tom could speak. " I'm saying, what if Izaya really is having an affair and that's why is ignoring me?" The blonde held his head in his hand looking at down at the table. The thought only was enough to make the blonde's heart stop beating. "I don't want that to happen" he said in a cracking voice. No, he definitely didn't want that. After waiting for years, he'd finally found his special someone, someone who accepted him for who he was. Someone who wasn't afraid of that monstrous strength of his. He didn't want to be all alone again. The thought only made the blonde shiver. He looked at Tom who was looking back at him with a concerned look. "aha.. hahaha... I can't believe how weak I've become! Getting worked up over that flea." He laughed more at himself than the statement.

Seeing Shizuo like this was painful for Tom. He's always treated the blonde as his younger brother. Ever since their high-school days he's always admired Shizuo's Un-macthable and incredible strength and now seeing him all weak like this made Tom feel really bad. He wanted to do something for him. Something that could make the blonde feel better. He knew for sure that Izaya Orihara was not one of those to cheat on their partners. He was even sure about how affectionate he felt towards Shizuo. But how to make Shizuo understand that was a tough question. He was about to say something when someone caught his eyes. "Verona..!" he mumbled. Hearing Tom, Shizuo lifted his head and followed Tom's gaze only to see Verona coming towards them. She was as expressionless as ever. Verona was Shizuo's so called "Kouhai" who'd just started working with him and Tom. Shizuo couldn't understand this woman. Not that he was eager to, it's just that she was kinda odd. His thought process was interrupted as Verona took a sit beside him, nodding a little as a greeting.

"Ah, hello there Verona." Tom chirped to ease the atmosphere. Before Verona could reply, Shizuo stood up pushing back his chair a little. Tom gave him a confused look. " Tom-san, do you mind if I take a half-day off? I don't feel that good anyway." The blonde asked. "ermm, yeah sure. That'd be good. Go and take some rest. You really need it." Tom replied. Shizuo nodded as he started to leave only to be stopped by Tom again. " Call me if anything happens. and please don't overthink yourself." Shizuo gave him a small smile before leaving. Verona gave Tom a questioning look as she saw the bodyguard leaving. "It's nothing important" Tom assured.

Shizuo was walking towards his well their apartment quickly. He really had a bad day at work today and he didn't want to irritate himself more by thinking some stupid shit. He just wanted to go home, take a bath and sleep before Izaya came home or so he thought. He stopped midway when he saw Izaya coming out of 'Russia sushi' with a woman. His heart sank when his boyfriend wrapped his hand around the lady as they walked out of the restaurant giggling about god knows what. Shizuo couldn't see the face of that woman, not that it mattered. The blonde clenched his fist while his anger boiling.. he took some big steps and almost approached the informant only to stop midway again. He observed the expressions on his boyfriend's face. The informant was making a face, shizuo had never seen in his entire life. The brunette looked happy. He was laughing freely, something he'd never done in front of Shizuo. The sight itself made Shizuo sick. He felt a sharp pain in his chest. His heart felt like it was ready to burst out of his chest as the world around him began spinning. He tried to called out to the informant but his voice stuck in his throat refusing to come out. It was the first time in his life that the blonde had felt so helpless as he watched his boyfriend disappearing from his sight.

To be continued~

Okay so yeah.. that's the end of the first part. I don't know what I've written and how is it! So your reviews would be more than appreciated. Do let me know if I should continue or not.

Until next time 3