Disclaimer: Much to my dismay, I don't own Immortal Rain.
Author's Note: MY FIRST IR! YAAAAAAY! hehe, this is Machika POV, btw. Kinda angsty, about her first kill. Short, but that's okay. I've only read one book. Waiting for the next store to get the next two.
Dead Inside
It only took a moment, a mere second. Not even a breath to move my arm and bring my sickle down, sealing the fate of this man. I realize now what it truly means to be an assassin. It means that you will kill, and you must do it without remorse. And the moment you fall in love, you must put your weapon down, because you've only two choices. You can be an assassin and emotionless, or you can have a family and love.
Most would say the answer was obvious, that you should go for love. But this is my life, what I was raised to do. My life has always revolved around training. My goal has always been this occupation. It's everything I've ever dreamed of. And now, I can't help but wonder, why did I choose this course? Because it was Grandpa's, it was the life he led. Did that mean I had to lead it to? No, but I would.
But, there's Rain to. I've never admitted it before, but I do love him. And I worry about him. But…Can I be an assassin and still love him? The one with a bounty on his head larger than any other? The man I'd sworn to kill? I can't be sure, but I'll try.
I won't be like those other assassin's, cold and heartless. I'll make sure that I'm still a good person, never looking for personal gain. I'll never take the life of someone that doesn't have a bounty, unless they threaten me or my family and friends. I refuse to be like those others, I refuse to be dead inside.