Author's Notes: Set during 'On the Head of a Pin' in Season 4, and begins with a direct quote from that episode. Credit where it's due.
"I'm considering disobedience."
"Good."
Castiel tells both Anna and himself that it isn't, and truly the doubt carving its way deep into his chest is almost unbearable.
Yet in a way he still secretly wants it to make itself a permanent home inside him. For the first time, he actually feels. It's terrible, and it's magnificent. Temptation, he finds, tastes unaccountably sweet.
He's Adam standing with the apple in hand, and finally understands why humans were so easily led into sin. He knows why Anna fell.
Balancing on that ledge himself, he's less than certain that he shouldn't just leap.