Ache was grabbing my heart,
A thousand worries and more
Clouded the little peace I had.
The flowers seemed bloody,
The sky looked too blue,
The wind burned my eyes.
It all seems surreal
Except the clouds above
And they relieved me-
Three drops of rain.
It is a pain to see the world mourning
With you, by your side.
It is an even greater pain to see it laughing
Rejoicing when you cry.
I can't pretend like I'm happy,
Yet I can't say why I'm sad
Until they relieved me,
Three drops of rain.
They celebrate you as someone else's
I act as if I can't hear them.
I act as if I am as calm as I look.
It's too much to carry on like this
But look how far I have come!
Dragging myself through life,
Only because they relieved me
Three drops of rain.
I think of your every night
So that I can have a dream
But I guess you are long gone
So I thrash in dreamless sleep
Afraid of the nightmares
Lurking right behind that shallow darkness
When all seems gone
When I stand at the edge of the cliff
Somehow they relieve me
Three drops of rain.
I'm not frightened of this world believe me,
It's only myself I'm afraid of,
Of what I hide in my memories,
Of how I deceive myself in a holy cause.
But on some nights they all come back,
In unreal shades of black and white.
I scream to find my way back to the world
Until they find me-
Three drops of rain.
A/N: Written for Professor Flitwick's Prompt for Saturday 12th March:
"I'm not frightened of this world believe me"
P.S: I am no master of freeverse, but 'three drops of rain' came to me so suddenly that I promptly abandoned everything else and wrote this down. And who else to write a depressing poem of finding hope for, but Severus Almighty Snape? :P