12:51

I lie awake in my room, staring at the ceiling. The others are out and I have the tower to myself. I should be meditating shouldn't I? But I can't. Because every time I close my eyes, I see them.

Scrolling through my cellphone

For the twentieth time of day

Reading the text you sent me again

Though I memorize any way

I sat up from bed and reread the letters Robin used to give me. I sigh. We were almost perfect. We were sweet and inseparable. He made me laugh, cry, made me feel love, made me feel.

It was afternoon in December

When it reminded me of the day

When we bumped into each other

But you didn't say hi 'cause I looked away

I remembered that December night when we broke up. He and I were stargazing on the roof. I then feel a wave of guilt and sorrow from Robin. I was worried. Why was he feeling those emotions? Had he done something wrong? And when I asked him about it, he told me the painful truth, he doesn't love me anymore.

And I didn't do anything about it, but watch him walk away.

And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life

And baby I haven't moved on since that night

Tears started to flow down from my eyes. I love him, I still do. I don't think I will stop. My heart breaks every time I see him with Starfire. Especially when I see them kiss, hugs or just… talk.

'Cause it's 12:51

And I thought my feelings are gone

But I'm lying on my bed

Thinking of you again

I stared at the clock on my side table '12:51'. They're probably here by now from, wherever they've gone.

And the moon shines so bright

But I gotta dry these tears tonight

'Cause you're moving on

And I'm not that strong to hold on

Any longer… Oh oh oh.

I remembered when Robin announced that he and Starfire are together. I felt my heart crumble into pieces. If I didn't have control over myself that time, I would have killed her or him.

Then I saw you with her

Didn't think you'd find another

And my world seemed to crash

Shouldn't have thought that this would last

Clutching my bed sheet, I let few more tears escaped my eyes as I recalled that memory. At first I hated them both for being happy, I hated her for having what used to be mine, I hated him for not loving me and I hated myself for letting him go without a fight.

And maybe that was the biggest mistake of my life

And baby I haven't moved on since that night.

I furiously wiped the tears on my face. I shouldn't be crying. I'm a demon for Trigon's sake!

'Cause it's 12:51

And I thought my feelings are gone

But lying on my bed

Thinking of you again

I stand up and walk towards the window. I sigh as I saw the moon. He used to tell me that I was his moon. He didn't lie. He just find something better, a sun.(1)

And the moon shines so bright

But I gotta dry these tears tonight

'Cause you're moving on

And I'm not that strong to hold on

Any longer

Feeling a lot lonelier, I teleported out of the tower and landed on the hill Robin used to take me.

As the sky outside gets brighter

And my eyes begin to be tired

I'm slowly drowning in memories of him

I closed my eyes and gather all those memories with him. I vowed not to forget a single one. Because now, I'm ready to move on.

And I know it shouldn't matter

As my heart begin to shatter

I'm left to wonder

Just how it should have been yeah

Yes, you heard me. I'm ready to move on.

12:51 and I thought my feelings are gone

But I'm lying on my bed

I'm not thinking of you again

I took out my cellphone, which I secretly bought recently and dialled the number of the man that promised to help me move on.

And the moon shines so bright

But I gotta dry these tears tonight

'Cause you're moving on

And I'm not that strong to hold on

Any longer

"So you finally made up your mind?" he asked.

"Yes." I replied while smiling

"So pick you up at 10 tomorrow?" he suggested

'Cause I'll prove you wrong

That I can move on from this song

So much stronger

Oh oh oh..

My smile widens. "Yes, and thank you for waiting me… Speedy."

Inspired by "The Sun before the Moon."