Summary: Deidara has been abandoned since he was a child. And living mostly by his own, he has came to got used to the lonliness of his life. But when he turned 16 and went to his new school, his everything turned up side down. He felt in love, but not realy loved in return. So how will he manadge to survive, when his beloved is the one he claimes to hate the most?

No one is born alone and no one will die alone. You may be lonely now, but sooner or later you will find your true friends. Actually they might be right next to you...it's just that, you don't realise it yet...

Why me danna?

Ch 1: It all started from here…

A blond haired boy ran through the dark streets. It was getting late and it was quite far from his home. And at the same time his head was full of thoughts and he it made him feel so miserable.

'My five years of saving, un! All gone! Now I'm broke, un!" The boy thought and frowned angrily as he slowly fastered his speed. 'But at least my books are free, un.' but then sighed in relief .

And after some time, when he finally got in front of his old house, just before unloocking, the boy noticed two shadows in front of the big mansion next door.

Deidara had always wondered why there was a big mansion in such a poor neighborhood and the only logical answer he could gives himself was that maybe it was because of the beautiful view of the sea that only in this 'lowlife' place could be found.

Led by his curiosity, the blond stepped a little bit closer tho the two shadows and because the streetlights were pretty poor, the teen couldn't see anything at all, just the quite amusing conversation:

"Oh, come the fuck on ! Pretty fucking PLEASEEE!"

"Get lost, you freaking shit! I told you, I WON'T WEAR a DRESS EVEN If the world is gonna END!"

"NO! It's my fucking Birthday! You said you would do whatever I want! We are friends, aren't we? So why won't ya keep ya promise?"

"GET OFF OF ME, you freak OR I'll make you regret it!"

"NO! I mean yes! Hit me!"

"Oh, God !I give up…Why Are You always so stubborn? "

Deidara stared at the boys as their meanless converstion went on and on. 'Man, what wrong with them?' For the blond those boys seemed quite amusing and they actually made his mood. And even though he really wanted to watch this 'comedy-show' a little bit longer, the teen had to go to bed. After all it was almost midnight and tomorrow was his first day at school. 'Hope that my classmates won't be like those two, arguing for such nonsenses." The blond mumbled to himself and opened his doorway.

Stepping into his home he felt really lonely. The house was empty and cold. No one was waiting for him, just like normaly.

And even though the roof was leaking and the wall's paint was falling, the tiny house was really tidy and it smelled good. Deidara has allways been proud of himself for keeping this 'shack' nice and clean.

"Oh, I am so tired… Better go to sleep or tomorrow or I won't be able to go to school, un…" Deidara yawned and went to his old bed in the corner of the room, the only place where he could feel a little bit of warmness.

...- - - - - ...

It was a dark and cold night. The sky was crying, lightning and thunder along with it… While the sky was letting its pain go, between the old house of St.'Range street', a mother was screaming at her little child. She was blond and young, probably at her twenties. And she was just standing there, under her umbrella, while the kid, still so small, barely 6 years old, was covered in rain. The sight was pitifull. The woman screaming and the blond boy – crying.

"I don't wanna see you ever again, you miserable kid! It's all because of you that I can't sell myself anymore. Why was I so dense? To let you be born just for 10.000$! When I wasn't pregnant with you, everyone wanted to buy me… And now look! No one want me!" The lady snapped out and seeing the questioning look of her son she slapped him. The sound pierced through the silence and the little boy looked at his mother with so much pain.

"But…Mom ..I ..(hiccup) I…" The kid cried so hard that he barely talked.

"Shut it up! Do you know how much I hate you? No, how could you know… You are always so happy!" The woman said with a disgusted voice" Always so dense… That's why I am gonna tell you this! I hate everything that you are! Your face, your voice… Everything! You just remind me of that man, that son of a bitch! It was him that made me keep you!" The woman kept screaming while tears of hatred felt down her face.

"Mom... Please, what did I do...w-wrong?" the little boy asked.

"Stop it! Don't talk... Don't say anything… Just don't ever show your face in front of me! I really don't wanna see you ever again!" And after saying those cruel words the blonde one turned her back and left. She left her kid all alone, in the cold night, under the rain… And she never turned back…To look at him for the last time…Never...

"Mom! Please..Mom..! No! No-don't Gooooo! MOOOM!" Deidara screamed as he opened his sky blue eyes, which were now covered in tears. When he calmed down he lay back to his bed. "It was just a dream." He said quietly. "Why won't it go away? It has been 10 years alredy.. Why?" The blond sighed and rubbed his eyes. Then he glipsed at his alarm clock. It was 5 a.m.

"School's gonna start in 3 hours, un. I'd better get up." Deidara sighed again and rose up. He knew that he won't be able to sleep anymore, so why waste time on laing lazily on bed, while he could do something more usefull.

For some minutes Deidara sat on his bed, with a half naked body, staring blankly into the air. Then he looked around the small room. There was no one in the house. Just the blond, by himself, like always and it felt so sad, so lonely. Looking one more time at the clook the teen realised that he had wasted 30 minuted in staring and sighed heavily as he stood up, took off his pants and headed to the near bathroom.

As the shower went on Deidara moaned and shivered when the cold water touched his pale skin. He then remembered about those 10 years of his, the people that had always been mean to him and the new school he was going to attempt.

When Deidara got out of his bathroom, with a towel on his waist, he stoped in front of the mirror. His golden blond hair was long and soft. It covered his back and part of it, his left eye. He touched the part where eye was, gulped bitterly and sqeeze his hand in a fist. But soon he let go of his memories, sighed and started to brush his hair.

-A little while after -

Deidara sat on his couch, deep in his thought. He hated school. He always has. He hated the bullies, the whispering about him, the hateful looks he get every time he was near someone, in one word, no one wanted to be near the blond. However, those things didn't hurt that much. The teen had always managed to ignore the stupid idiots, because they were as poor as him. But this time it was rather hard. The idiots were rich snobs.

-Flash back-

"It's huge…" Deidara stared at the building with his eyes wide open.

He was standing in front of his new school, 'Fujimori Rinta' Academy. The school was known for its eliteness, which only rich people could achive. But unless those idlers, who have mounds of money to use as toilet paper, Deidara was accepted, due to his own abilities. He got the top score in the "National High School Exam".

And no matter how long the blond stared at the building, it remained big and pretty. However, from the moment the teen walked through the gate, there were whispering non-stop.

"What is that poor kid doing here? And why does he look like a girl?" One of the girl asked.

"Maybe he's one of those nasty cross-dresser..." Another ine replied. Hearing those comments Deidara was quite annoyed, but he chosed to say nothing. He didn't want to get into trouble, well at least not the day before the first day.

"Hey, kid! What are you doing here? This isn't a place for you!" A security guard shouted at the blond as he steped closer to the building.

"Am… Sorry I am here to…" the boy tried to explain but was interupted.

"Don't you sorry me and just get out!" The security shouted at the boy and grabbed his tiny arm, dragging with all his power. Seeing the way the old man reacted Deidara instantly took out a plastic card from his pocket and handed it to the guy.

"Ok, sir. This is my ID. I'm the new student here, so can I come in, un?" The blond asked and waited patiently.

"Iwa Deidara… Hum… Sex:Male… Male? Wait, aren't you a girl?" asked the old man in surprise. But the blond didn't say anything just frowned and shook his head as a no.

And after some ridiculous questioning about his identity, Deidara finally managed to get though the guard and now the only thing left was to go to the school designer. As the teen found himself infront of the office he knocked gently on the door and came inside. There was a woman measuring a dark black haired boy. The boy looked at Dei and chuckled. " Oh come in my sweetly. I'll be done right now." She said with a friendly tone and after that smiled at the other boy and whispered something to him. "Now it your turn"

Deidara nodded and steped closer to the woman. And after waiting for the other boy to step down from the platform, the blond let the woman do her job.

"Hm…I am a little surprised, you know?" She said "…You have the perfect height and weight but your breast are a little bit too small. If i haven't seen you in live i would have said that you are a boy!" The woman laughed, wrote down on her notebook and went to one of the wardrobe .

"But I…" Deidara tried to explain to her, but suddenly the door knocked.

"Come in…A-okay, dear, this is your uniform. Thanks you for coming and don't forget to bring 3,500$ tomorrow, okay? Now bye-bye." And like that she pushed the blond out of the room.

-End flash back-

The blond sighed and went to his closet. He looked at his new outfit and all his desire to go to school went away. "Here goes my 5 years savings, un!" Deidara thought and grabbed the skirt with white and red lines, the white shirt and the ribbon that come along with the outfit. He hated this uniform so much, but what could he do? They wont let him in if he's not with an uniform. And beside he will exchange it for a male one right away... So he hoped that there won't be any problems...

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