DISCLAIMER: Inuyasha is not mine; I am only an avid shipper of the anime….
Lost Hope
Chapter 1 – Falling Out
By: Rose Mitzkah
She walks down the street, her head held high. But as she walks, the feeling doesn't ebb away. Try as she might, the pain stayed there. Try as she might, the tears that were stored away started flowing down her face.
It's time that she got over him. He had hurt her too much. She HAD given him too much. She had given him everything, her love and her life; more than that she had given him herself.
She has spent too much time crying over him. It's almost a month since he had broken up with her.
"To hell with him!" she exclaimed ferociously.
Heads swiveled to her direction but thankfully the tears have stopped flowing. She mumbled an apology and quickly hurried on her way.
She stopped at a restaurant and directly went to the comfort room. There she took a good look at herself. Her bluish black eyes look at her without emotion. Her usually full-of-life eyes look dead. It was obvious that she had just cried. Her long and silky black tresses hung loosely and limply. Her clothes hung carelessly and she realizes how much weight she had lost. Her bones were sticking out of her skin. Her skin. Oh her skin! It was pale, even paler than death.
Death, sadness, anguish and grief; her image shouted at her. She stared at herself. It's as if she was seeing herself for the first time. And, in fact, it is true. She is seeing herself for the very first time. She is not seeing him anymore. Not him who had broken her heart, he who had shattered into pieces, stomped and cracked it into dust.
But she was not seeing him anymore. As she continues to look at herself in the mirror, she laughs. Loud and gusty laughs that radiates from within. She walked out of the comfort room still laughing and not even caring if people were looking at her. She doesn't care. All she cares about is that she's over him. Finally, she's over him!!!
He may have broken her heart into pieces. 'But so what?' she asked herself. She doesn't care about him anyway. He's nothing, he's the past.
She walked on her heart beating faster than normal. It has nothing to do with him. Or probably, it has something to do with him. He had changed her.
She had changed surely. Her eyes now contain life. It contains emotion. She decided it was time, time to move on, time for her to change.
And with that resolve, she hurried to the mall. She's going to change her wardrobe; all of it! Time to splurge, after all she has the money. And she continued on her way.
He stomped on his foot. "It's fucking unfair!" he shouted furiously at his image. All he wanted was a normal life; a normal life that he could spend with her. But his damned parents won't let him. He wanted her so badly that he ached for her.
His parents won't let him spend time with her. 'She was not perfect for him', they said. And then they had to arrange a marriage for him! To that Kikyo! They said they're perfect for each other. She matched him perfectly in everyway so other people said. She is beautiful, rich and came from a very influential family.
'But so is she!' he had answered back. 'She is all that and more. They are richer than us too! What more could you ask?' He ranted after hearing his parents' words.
They won't change their mind. He must marry that Kikyo girl in 4 weeks. Or else all hell will break loose.
He tried speaking to his half brother. But Sesshoumarrou won't help him either. 'It's your problem so solve it yourself!' and so he tried to solve it himself. But no matter what he did, he can't solve it.
So he did what his parents want him to do. He broke up with the only girl that ever held his heart. The only girl he wanted to spend his life with and have kids with. And he is marrying Kikyo later this day.
All he did for his family! He sacrificed himself for them! She wouldn't go back to him no matter what he will do. He would have to spend time with Kikyo until they die.
Many people think that he has the perfect life. His name shouted money, fame and prestige. He is handsome and many women swooned just at the sight of him.
They thought that he is content with his life. After all, in a few more hours he is marrying one of the most beautiful and richest women in the world.
But why can't they understand that he had pledged his life to another? A woman more beautiful and more appealing than Kikyo. A woman that contains life in her. A woman that had made him laugh and cry at the same time. The only woman that he loves.
He looked at the mirror. He looked like he is going to his funeral not his wedding! But no matter what happen he will love her and nothing not even Kikyo will make him change his mind.
"Hey, your mother told me to tell you to start preparing for the wedding!" His friend, Miroku told him. And his life in hell will start in mere hours. He will surely love it. He will really and surely love it.
"Ms. Higurashi, here are your purchases. Do you need anything else?" the saleslady asked Kagome.
"Oh, no. that would be all. Thank you!" Kagome said to the saleslady as she picked up her purchases."
She then left the store, clutching the bags that contained her purchases. She carried lots of bags but it didn't really bother her. She bought a lot of things from different stores. She didn't bother about the extravagance; after all she can afford it. She looked at her wristwatch, gold and studded with pink and green diamonds, and to her amazement, found that it was almost 4. She began her shopping spree about 7 hours ago and hadn't eaten any lunch yet. Her stomach began rumbling. She was starving.
She went towards the food court and was overwhelmed at the number of people there. As she paid for her food, she asked the girl next to her what the fuss is all about.
"You seriously don't know?" the girl looked at her incredulously. It was as if she had sprouted 2 heads instead of one.
"That's why I'm asking." she said back sarcastically. Then she realized her mistake. "Oh, sorry, didn't mean that.. I'm feeling very down today, and this crowd has made me more irritable than usual."
"It's okay don't worry. I am feeling a bit irritated too. The number of people in here is suffocating. It would be good if they're doing something helpful but, oh contraire," she said dramatically, "they do not."
"I'm Kagome, Kagome Higurashi" Kagome said, offering her hand. The girl shook it.
"And you are?" she asked.
"Sango Lin is my name."
The girl finished up ordering and Kagome, wanting to have a companion, asked Sango to sit with her. Sango readily agreed being alone herself.
They cast a look at the people around them. They were clustered near the stage where a giant TV is situated. Some girls were shrieking and the others were just loitering near the vicinity.
Kagome wondered why there were so many people in that area. Sango caught the look and said, "They're watching the wedding of the year, if you want to know."
"Wedding?" Kagome asked as she takes a sip of her drink.
"Yeah. Today Kikyo Mashida is getting married." Sango said.
"Kikyo Mashida?" The name sounded frighteningly familiar to Kagome. "To whom?"
"To Inuyasha Taisho." Kagome dropped the glass that she was holding. Her face drained it's color and her mouth dropped open. Then all of a sudden, she fainted.
"Help!!!" Sango shouted.
She got a hold of her and began shaking her. Her face lost all of its color. She looks for Kagome's pulse, realizing that her face was now becoming an unnatural tint of white and her lips are becoming a tinge of blue.
"Help!!!!" she shouted once more.
"There's a girl who fainted!" People began talking and crowding Sango, the wedding temporarily forgotten. "What happened?" "Is she breathing" The people began asking. Thankfully, a guard arrived accompanied by some medics and a stretcher with them.
"What happened here miss?" The guard asked Sango.
"Sir, I don't really know. I was talking to her and then she fainted." Sango said. She wondered what happened to her friend. She looked deathly pale. The medics takes a look at her and studying her.
"Well," one of the medics said after a brief study, "she's in shock. Whatever you said, miss, gave her a shock, causing her to faint. She stopped breathing for a while there." There were a couple of gasps heard. Sango looks like she's about to faint, too.
"Don't worry, miss. She's breathing now, but very shallow. She's really thin here and I think she needs to stay at the hospital for a couple of days. Do you know who to contact, miss?" another medic said.
"Oh, I'm sorry. I don't know I just met her today." Sango said with a shook of her head.
"That's okay. We better get going. She needs further medical assistance." Another of the medics said. They put Kagome into a stretcher and walked towards the exit. Sango silently followed, carrying hers and Kagome's purchases.
'I wondered what happened to her.' Sango asked herself. 'Why did the mention of Inuyasha's name made her faint? She must know him, probably on intimate terms to cause that shock. Maybe, it's more than that.' She added.
'I better ask Miroku later. Maybe he knows something about this.' And with that, she entered the ambulance waiting outside the mall, clutching their purchases and still thinking about Kagome and Inuyasha.
"Hello, who's this?" Miroku asked, after answering his phone. There's an unknown number that was showed.
"Hey, Miroku this is me, Sango." The person at the other end of the line said. It is feminine and surprisingly familiar. He then recognized the voice.
"Sango, why are you calling?" Miroku asked.
"Is Inuyasha there with you?"
"No, but I can call him if you want. Why?"
"It's nothing, just a trivial question. Could you call him for me?"
"Oh, okay." He put down the phone and went towards Inuyasha's room.
"Hey phone for you." Miroku said, tossing the phone at Inuyasha's bed.
Inuyasha looked at him questioningly and Miroku understanding the look said, "Sango." Inuyasha made an 'O' and then got the phone.
"Hey, Inuyasha, it's Sango" Sango said.
"Yeah, I know. Miroku told me. So what's up and where are you?" Inuyasha asked her.
"I'm at the hospital. I just…"
"Hospital? What the hell are you doing there?"
"I'm here with my friend. She's just been confined and I don't know if she's alright. She's still sleeping."
"Oh" Inuyasha said not in the least bothered.
"By the way, do you know anyone by the name of Kagome Higurashi?" at this Inuyasha suddenly stilled. Miroku, still in the room with him look bothered.
"Why?" Inuyasha asked with some difficulty. He's finding it hard to take in more oxygen to breathe.
"Just answer my question, Inuyasha. Do you know her?" Sango asked, becoming very irritated.
'Why does Inuyasha become this worried? Maybe he does know the girl but that doesn't explain why he is sure curious about her.'
"I do know her!" Inuyasha shouted ferociously, shocking Miroku and Sango. "Tell me, is she alright?"
"Yes, she's alright. No need to shout at me, okay? Why are you so worried about her?"
"Ah…" Inuyasha spluttered. "Eh… why do you care anyway?" Inuyasha asked again, deciding being defensive is the best way out.
"She's my friend! Do you know she had fainted and stopped breathing for almost a minute?"
"What?? Is she alright now? Where is she? Is she given the proper medical attention? Where are you Sango? I'm coming there! Tell me where you are!!" Inuyasha bellowed at her.
Miroku sensing Inuyasha's distress quickly pacified the young man. Inuyasha calm down. "You're getting married now. No need to worry yourself over a woman."
"Don't call her woman, Miroku! She's Kagome okay!" Inuyasha bellowed once more.
"Stop that Inuyasha. I don't think that you being here will make things good. You better prepare for your marriage to Kikyo." Sango said back, saying the name sarcastically.
"I don't care about that damned woman. Tell me is Kagome alright?"
"She's alright okay? I better get going, the doctor's calling me. Bye" and with that Sango quickly cut off the connection.
Inuyasha realizing that Sango just said goodbye, swore rapidly. Thousands of questions ran amok in his mind his entire thoughts ion a certain dark-haired woman. "Oh Kagome.." he moaned barely audible, "are you alright? God, I miss you!"
"Hey man," Miroku said, "come on. Your wedding's about to start in a five minutes. Come on." Miroku had to practically drag Inuyasha across the room, towards their garden where the wedding is about to start.
'My life in hell starts now.'
A/N: Hello! I'm back! After three years! Haha… This is the edited version of Lost Hope. Hope you'll like this! Read and review. :D