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I clutch my pillow tightly, sitting up in bed. I lean back against the wall deciding to calm myself by watching the shadows eerily dance across my room. I briefly wonder what's going on outside—The city of Domino never seems to sleep.
Sleep…
That's probably something I should be doing at this hour, isn't it? I sigh. Sleep and I…We haven't really gotten along very well lately. I almost laugh. Well, ever. But that's beside the point, and it doesn't help me now.
A fairly large shadow catches my attention as it drags across the wall. Probably just a passing car or something. I watch it for a moment more before closing my eyes and straining my ears to listen to the noises around me. I could hear Rishid's heavy breathing- probably because we're in the same room. Is it raining outside? I think it might be…
Ugh, what am I doing. I mean- I know what I'm doing and I've been doing it since I was ten. …Even though there's no honest reason to anymore.
I'm listening to the shadows.
Believe it or not, there was a point in my life where they would speak to me. They would whisper my name, tell me that things would get better. Of course at the age of ten, with nothing better to do but lay on my stomach, I believed them. Him. Whatever.
But he's gone. So why do I even bother? I have nothing to fear anymore. Nothing to be afraid of.
Nothing to keep me up at night.
…So why can't I sleep?
I sigh again, letting my head fall lightly against the wall.
Ra dammit.