So this is my take on a scene that could've happened in episode 27 a bit later during the same night when Baris and Rahmet came back together from Namuk's place after Baris got into a fight for Rahmet's sake to get the money needed for Hikmet's new school, and Baris's famous " I'm not jealous" when talking about Omer. Also remember that the devil Servet came to visit Baris/Savas leaving him heartbroken,in a very painful scene.I felt that this episode signaled the ice starting to melt between BarFi, and so I imagined this tiny scenario that could've the way, the story goes back and forth between Rahmet, Baris and Filiz remembering previous scenes ( for example BarFi's confrontation and their kiss from episode 26 ) and going back to the this is only for the first few pages, after that the story carries on in the present without interruptions. I hope it's not too confusing and you get to understand the way I tried to create a story while also remembering and commenting on previous scenes using the characters' thoughts .Please note that I'm not used to writing fanfictions, so I'm sure it sucks but I wanted to share it with the BarFi fandom regardless. Don't judge me haha I'm a crazy HazBur / BarFi shipper . Hope you enjoy my imagination . I'll be eagerly waiting for your comments as your criticism is much appreciated , my lovely BizimHikaye here we go !

" I Have Always Been Yours .. "

Baris had always been one of them .He had always been an Elibol . Whether he was Filiz's lover or not, he had always been there for the elibols, for each and everyone of them individually, in his own way . Rahmet knew it .Not only did he know it, but he also got the chance to see it ,more than saw it when Baris was so worried as he was holding Kiraz and looking for a taxi to take her to the hospital, he saw it in the way he sat with Fiko, telling him all about the rules or basketball and asking him to behave and be responsible to make Filiz happy. He saw it in his eyes as he was looking at Filiz ,trying to reassure her when Fikri was at the hospital despite the fact that they were separated .The list is long .. And tonight, Rahmet also saw the same look in Baris's eyes, that same protective look as he pushed him out of the way and volunteered to fight in his place in Namuk's clandestine club to gain the money needed for Hikmet's transfer to Ankara . He saw that Baris was still trying his best for saw the way he fell to the ground more than blows he took from his adversary would probably leave him in pain for another couple of days , but he didn't give up for Hikmet's sake and eventually won the fight .

Going back home , as Rahmet was carrying his bag and insisting on them going to the hospital, he couldn't help but notice that faint smile on Baris's lips , he'd recognize it anywhere . Baris was genuinely happy for having been able to provide help for his " brothers " as he said .

-" Wouldn't you have done the same for Hikmet ? "

-" I am doing it already "

-" Exactly! & I also consider myself as your big brother.."

These words kept resonating through Rahmet's mind . How could Baris be so close to them yet so far away at the same time ? He felt sorry for him because, despite Baris's denial , he knew he was just trying to be part of their life somehow, to be closer to Filiz even in such an indirect way .

" You know my sister would never lay eyes on anyone else but you, right ?"

Baris stops in his track and looks with surprise for a few seconds before going back to denial , as usual : " Are you saying I am jealous ? "

Rahmet giggles and nods in approval

" No I am not jealous ! Im just concerned about your wellbeing . I don't trust that Omer . He will be trouble and you'll see it …"

" Oh so you're not jealous over my sister then ? "

" Yes you ****** I am not jealous ! "

They both laugh at the way Baris fails miserably at hiding his blatant jealousy . Rahmet suggests to spend the night with Baris , fearing he might need someone to take care of his wounds but Baris insists that he goes home so as to not worry Filiz .

Rahmet thanks him one more time and goes home .

Baris unlocks the door with difficulty, practically throws his bag & coat on the floor , and collapses on the first couch he sees, cursing under his breath , squinting and groaning in pain . He closes his eyes for a few seconds . Silence . Silence everywhere . Silence and pain . As if he wasn't unhappy already, as if the pain he was feeling over losing Filiz wasn't enough already , now he had to deal with physical pain too. He cursed again then opened his eyes abruptly, fixating his gaze on the ceiling, feeling utterly and completely alone . So Alone .

At the Elibols' house,Rahmet carefully opens the door and struggles to take off his shoes and jacket without making any noise to avoid waking Filiz or any of his siblings .But who was he kidding ? Of course Filiz is not sleeping , how could she when her brother is not home yet ? That's exactly why he wasn't surprised when he saw her anxiously standing in the middle of the living room, relieved to see him but also observing him with worried eyes , indirectly asking for an explanation .

"Where have you been ? I was so worried Rahmet ! "

" Abla ,there's no need to worry , I was giving extra-curricular lessons to a student , I told you that .. "

Filiz pinches him and says : " Do you take me for a child ? Who gives lessons at this time ? Where were you Rahmet ! "

Rahmet lies . He hates lying to his sister but he had to . What was he supposed to say ? I got involved in illegal clandestine fighting, putting my life and Baris's life on the line to procure the necessary money for Rahmet ? Filiz is the person who'd understand the most what it means to sacrifice oneself for one's siblings, she has done it all her life and she had to pay the price more than once , the latest being losing her happiness with Baris, but she would never expect any of her siblings to do the same . And so Rahmet hides the truth and tells her that he won a mathematics contest which explains the huge some of money he is handing her . To make things more believable, he told her that he met with Baris on the way and grabbed a cup of coffe with him , without realizing how time passed by .

Filiz is in tears . She was terrified of the idea of Asim hurting her little Hikmet She felt so helpless since she couldn't provide the necessary money needed for his seeing Rahmet handing her the money and smiling at her, she couldn't help but hug him tightly with tears streaming down her face . She never said it outloud, but she always knew that Rahmet was the male version of herself, she knew that if , God forbid, anything was to happen to her, she could count on Rahmet to fill her shoes and take on the responsibility after her . As his name suggested, "Rahmet" ( meaning mercy) was her guardian angel , he was her biggest supporter , her biggest hope . After an emotional dialogue shared between the two ( it happened in the episode) , she kisses him goodnight and sits on the couch , looking at the envelope containing the money and smiling, still with teary eyes .

Rahmet goes into his room . He looks at his brothers sleeping peacefully, feels relieved and lays on his bed . He closes his eyes and tries to rest for the remaining hours of the night at least ..But He can't ! He can't stop thinking about their current situation , about the problems that keep coming one after the other , about the way in which they would tell Hikmet they are sending him to Ankara for his own safety & whether he would accept it or not , but most importantly, he couldn't get rid of the feeling of guilt over leaving Baris alone tonight . Despite everything that happened between Baris and his sister , he knew that they still loved each other so much and it hurt him to see them like this . His thoughts also turned to his role model, his big sister Filiz, and he swallowed hard at the thought of the sacrifices she had to make , giving up her education (she was an excellent student and were she to finish her studies she could have been among the best!), her childhood, her youth, her LIFE , and now she married Cemil , sacrificing herself once again for their sake , hence giving up on the happiness she could've had with Baris . He could see the joy Baris brought into her life and he felt a small punch in the chest over the idea that they're both miserable apart .

Suddenly , he got up and slowly opened his chamber door to find that Filiz was still sitting in the living room , alone , looking at the envelope still. She seemed thoughtful .

" Baris is not okay Abla .."

Filiz immediately looks at him with shock and confusion .

" WHAT ?! Rahmet what are you saying!"

" I have told you that I was with him , right ? Well he doesn't look good at all . He seemed… sad and alone . I .. I just thought you should know .. "

Filiz remains silent , but she doesn't know if it's because she truly has nothing to say or if it's because she 's still trying to process the fact that Baris might be needing help . Rahmet doesn't say anything else, he just steps forward, kisses her forehead then goes back to his room and closes the door, leaving Filiz to her own demons .

" Baris is not okay Abla " . The sentence kept repeating itself over and over again in her head , but why ? WHY ? He had left her without even allowing her to explain what happened in the courthouse . He refused to talk to her , he completely shut her out and was nothing but cruel to her . He lied to her and slept with another woman ! Yes , she knows they were on a break , she knows he thought she was truly married to Cemil , she knows that but she always considered him as hers , she always believed he belonged to her, only to her, body and soul, and that someday,they'd find their way back to each other, but Baris ( or rather Savas Aktan) made this impossible by sleeping with another .

She shakes her head in frustration and curses herself for still carring for him in such a way ! But he wasn't okay , and she couldn't handle that .Despite his cruelty, she wished she could just be with him and make his pain go away, cursing herself yet again for still wanting him after everything he's done. She also knew perfectly well he was really fragile and vulnerable , a child whose parents never really understood nor tried to . She knows his brother's death and his father's deeds left a huge hole in his chest and she wished she could just fill that hole with her love and affection, but the situation is much different now . Oh ! His father ! She just remembered the night before, where she saw Servet's car parked in front of the pink house , and Servet stepping out of it and knocking on Baris's door ! OH how she wanted to go there at that precise moment, to quick Servet out and never let him get close nor hurt Baris ever she didn't . She didn't think she had the right to. He told her himself " Who are you ? Who am I to you ? Am I your husband ? Your lover ? Are you my wife ? What is it to you ?! " Yes , who was she to still intervene in his life after those harsh words .It was no longer her business. So she didn't go .She had just kept looking anxiously, waiting to see if Baris was okay, before reluctantly closing the door and going back inside .

Filiz suddenly gets up from the sofa, grabs her coat and opens the door . She stops in her tracks . What was she doing ? What the hell was she thinking ? Was she really going to see .. him ? Was she really going to be there for him after he clearly stated that he no longer belonged to her ? She bitterly closes the door, takes off her coat and slowly goes into her room, forcefully closing her eyes and taking refuge in her little bed.

At the pink house, Baris hadn't moved . He was still lying there , on his small sofa,not caring about the pain that was radiating through his muscles due the blows he took in the fight . Staring at the ceiling in the dark with the same old empty feeling in his heart , he fought the urge to close his eyes , because whenever he closes them, he sees her, he sees Filiz . What was happening to him ? Why was he allowing tonight to be all about moments of weakness ? So far he has been so sure about the decisions he had made regarding thought that she didn't trust him and that she had given up on him to be with Cemil , so he left ,swearing to forget her .Nothing would break his resolve ,not even seeing her ,looking at him with those needy, affectionate, devastated green eyes of hers . But fate put her in his way again, and little by little, he discovered the truths that were unknown to him, truths that annihilate all his reasons for leaving .Filiz never loved Cemil, it was an unfair deal she was forced to make from the start to save her siblings . He still didn't understand why she refused to get a divorce , but he knew now that her marriage was nothing but fake and that her heart always belonged to him . She had told him that herself !

" I am in love with you, you idiot ! I can't lay eyes on anyone else but you! when you said that it was over in the courthouse, didn't you see that it wasn't over for me ?! And you dare talk to me about Cemil ! "

He remembers the way she had confessed her love to him in the most heartbreaking way ever while he was not expecting it at all ! He was so sure she didn't love him anymore and he was determined to keep his distance, but then she confronts him about sleeping with Hulya( the scene that happened in episode 26), utterly broken, shaking everywhere, shouting and screaming and hitting him and allowing herself to be so vulnerable,and then she tells him all those things, the things he always wanted to hear but was too stubborn to admit , and all his determination and resistance shatter . So , in that heated moment of pure honesty, his " Savas Aktan" mask drops,he pulls her gently but forcefully into his arms,takes her face in his hands and just kisses her, making her lips his once again . Heaven . His mind was still processing what he was doing, but he didn't allow himself a second of wanted this , he has been craving this, craving HER for so long,craving her touch and the way her sensual kisses never failed to bring him back to life .She had resisted him for what seemed like a nanosecond but she was equally swept away by desire and love that she gave in , allowing him to feel her once again, after so much time spent apart .

Saying that he didn't know why he had kissed her in that moment while he was still angry and shouting at her would be a total lie, because he knew exactly why he did it. Whenever she confessed her love to him, his immediate reaction had always been to kiss her ,as if his kiss would translate all the things he wanted to tell her too. He missed her so much . He was madly in love with her, maybe even more than before. The more he realized just how much he couldn't handle life without her, the more he became vicious towards her .Maybe it was his self-defense mechanism, as he was scared he'd just surrender to her at any moment, asking her to take him back under any condition she wanted .

Back to reality, ,Baris eventually allows himself to close his eyes and see her,it was obvious that her image would haunt him for the entire night anyways so he might as well let his fantasies take over. He unconsciously & very carefully touches his own lips with his fingers, still lying on the couch . It is as if he wanted to trace her lips on his mouth, purposefully trying to recall the excitement and the unmeasurable euphoria of having her, of breathing her …

He was so alone . He had no one, or to be precise, he had lost the only person that was ever able to fill the void in his heart and life .And so , eyes still closed , he surrenders himself to sleep , uttering her name one last time like a prayer , as if saying it would make her appear right in front of him , making his wish come true .

" Filiz …." , he pronounces her name with a desperate trembling voice and sighs slowly at the sound of it echoing in his living room, reminding him again that she's not there , that he can't have her .

A knock on the door . It's almost 2am . He ignores it,thinking it's just his imagination playing tricks on him. Another knock on the opens his eyes abruptly .ANOTHER knock on the door . He moves his body slightly , just enough to reach his phone . Yes it IS 2 am! What the hell ! Who could it be this late at night ! He slowly gets up and proceeds to open the door, mentally preparing himself to kick out whoever was there .He thought it might be his mum, or Hulya since she had the annoying habit to come to his house uninvited !God that girl was really starting to annoy him, especially after he realized how much it hurts Filiz to see her next to him,& he didn't want to cause Filiz any more pain.

He opens the door .

He remains silent … or he thought so anyways ..

"Filiz … ?" He didn't even realize he had pronounced her name out loud until he heard it himself . She was there right in front of him. He could touch her if he extended his hand .Yes , it was 2 am and Filiz was standing there , right outside his door, looking at the doorstep, unable to meet his gaze yet .

His first instinct has always been to protect her. He didn't even consider the possibility that she was there for HIM; and so he immediately asks her : " What's going on ? ARE YOU OKAY ? Are you hurt ?Are your siblings okay ?!" The urgency in his voice is so endearing to Filiz that she immediately answers him to stop him from worrying any further : " No ,don't worry, we're fine …"

Baris lets out a sigh of relief he didn't know he was holding .

They remain silent for a few moments, Filiz still looking down while Baris was just observing her , taking mental notes of every part of her,her face, her gorgeous hair, her body, wanting to memorize her details for didn't know if another chance to be standing this close to her, alone, would ever be presented to him and so he didn't even blink .

Filiz , inhaling sharply, proceeds :

" I .. I don't know why I'm here … "

" I didn't ask .. "

" I just ..I should probably leave .."

Baris doesn't allow her to finish the sentence . He quickly but tenderly takes her by the arm and gently pulls her inside the pink house, the house that had witnessed their intimacy , their laughter, their moments of sadness and even their break-ups.

Filiz doesn't resist at all . She lets him pull her inside , still trying to gather the courage to look him in the eyes . Once inside , they remain silent for a couple of seconds , then Filiz finally speaks :

" I just .. well Rahmet said that you were not okay , and I wanted to check up on you and.."

She was saying these words as she was slowly lifting her head up to look him in the eyes . Baris was desperately waiting for her eyes to meet his, to drown in that gorgeous green ocean of hers .But her shocked, terrified facial expressions didn't allow him to get fully lost in her . His head was exploding with questions as she suddenly gasps and practically runs towards him, pressing both hands on his face . As much as he was relishing her healing touch, he couldn't enjoy it fully .What's going on ? Why is she so close to me ? Why is she touching me like this ? Why is she here ? Why is she so worried about me despite what I did with Hulya, despite my harsh words, despite her being married to another man ? Why is she being so tender with me ? Confusion was driving him insane and he couldn't stop himself from wondering what would happen if he tried to kiss her right there. Would she slap him again like she did just a couple of days ago? would she kiss him back ? Would she be his again ?

His thoughts were interrupted by her alarmed voice :

" Baris what happened to your face ? Who did this to you ? What happened ! "

His face ? .. Oh … Oh right ! He completely forgot the physical pain he was in upon seeing her .He finally remembers the bruises all over his face and body due to the fight he was involved in in Namuk's place . He smiles internally over the fact that this woman still had such a strong effect on him that he forgot everything the moment he saw her .

" Oh , it's nothing , no need to worry .. "

" How am I not supposed to worry ? Your face is all bashed in ! What happened !" , she insists as she was still caressing his face , trying to find out where it hurt the most .

" A couple of drunk jerks wanted to steal my phone when I was getting home and when I fought them back , I was left with these scars .. no big deal I just need rest .."

He could almost hear her swear under her breath and mumble something as if she was insulting those "imaginary" jerks who did that to him and he smiled slightly at the way she was being so protective of him . He loved protective Filiz, & always felt safe with her .

" They were a group, they must've hit you pretty hard ! Please let's go to the hospital Baris , they migh've injured your ribs or something ! "

She kept talking , still touching him trying to make sure nothing was " broken, and so Baris puts both of his hands on hers, while keeping them on his face, and says anxiously " calm down Filiz, I don't need a hospital, I'm a doctor . Believe me I'll be fine "

He remembers when he kidnapped her on her wedding night and pretended he was injured when she tried to escape . The words he had said to her then echoed in his mind : " I don't need a hospital , I have you and it's everything I need . " He wishs he could say the same now, because despite their tragic misunderstandings and mistakes, he still only needs her …

He doesn't realize how or when it happened, but he found himself being pushed behind by Filiz. She had already dropped her hands off of his face, and took him by the arm as she was slowly guiding him backwards towards the couch . He does not protest nor mind, but rather follows her every move and completely surrenders himself to her . She helps him sit down on the couch, and he unexpectedly lets a groan of pain escape from his mouth . At that moment , she curses the men who did that to him again and he laughs, truly laughs after what seemed like an eternity of misery.

She quickly gets up, takes her coat off and casually throws it on the chair next to the door, pulls her shirt's sleeves up ,and goes directly to the kitchen, looking for the first aids box . Of course she knew exactly where it was and Baris didn't hide the happiness he felt upon seeing her moving in the house and acting as if it belonged to her too, because it did, that house belongs to her no matter what . HE belongs to her no matter what . For a few seconds , it felt as if she was his wife, being with him at this time of the night and caring for his wounds .Oh how he wished that were true , but it's not , and after his treason with Hulya , he didn't see it happening, and this realization caused him more pain than his injuries.

A few minutes later , Filiz comes back with the box and everything she needed to clean his wounds .

She sits next to him in the most casual way, as if they had not been separated for months, very delicately touches his cheek to turn his head in her direction and begins healing his injuries one by one . She seemed very focused on his face, working meticulously .She was Filiz Elibol after all, a real perfectionist. He might be a doctor , but he could swear she was even better than him at cleaning wounds , better than any doctor or nurse he has ever known really , which makes sense : she did raise 5 children on her own .

She touches him so very delicately & he unknowingly let a sigh of relief escape from his she reaches the most painful cut above his left eye, the liquid medication stings him and he involuntarily winces because of the pain. He expected the wounds to sting and burn of course , what he didn't expect though was the way Filiz got even closer to him and started blowing on that wound, slowly & gently , " fffff … ffffff " trying to make it less painful. The whole thing was simply so endearing and just so overhelming for Baris to could she be so sweet , so affectionate ? How could she be so able to fill him with warmth , serenity , and DESIRE all at once with just the simplest detail, the simplest gesture on her part ?How could she still have this kind of effect on him? How could her mere presence make him the happiest person on earth despite everything? Her face was almost touching his now, her gorgeous lips only inches from his eyelashes , while she was still focused on healing him,. He held his breathing for a few seconds, only for it to become faster and more ragged .His eyes darted from her eyes to her nose to her lips and they remained there, refusing to look anywhere else. He doesn't recall ever wanting something in his entire life as much as he wanted to just capture her lips in his at this specific moment.

On the other hand, Filiz didn't even pay attention to the way Baris was looking at her and the way his heart was beating so fast in his chest since she was too engrossed in taking care of his injuries . She kept blowing gently on his face for a few seconds before kindly asking :" Does it still burn ?"

No reply from Baris .She looks at him to get an answer and that's when it hits was too busy with him that she didn't realize that she was practically sitting in his lap,her eyelashes almost touching could feel his breath on her face and she was taken by surprise by the love& desire with which he was looking at her eyes and lips.

She suddenly became very aware of the closeness between them and she wished she could stay there for a while ,but she's always been very reasonable& responsible and she knew this moment of intimacy that they're sharing should not happen,not after he cheated on her, not after his harsh words, not in their current situation. So she clears her throat and awkwardly moves away, breaking their eye contact, not noticing the quick look of disappointment on his face due to the sudden absence of her close body& warm hands on his face, though he doesn't take his eyes off of her for one second .

" Did they beat you anywhere else ?" Filiz asks this question , trying to sound as serious as possible.

" There's nothing to worry about Filiz, you've already done enough .. " says Baris weakly, miserably failing at hiding the pain he's feeling all over his body ,but Filiz knows him well enough to realize he's lying .So , without allowing him to utter any further lies , she approaches him again and asks him to take his shirt off . Baris blinks in shock. It's the first time he hears such a request from her. As he was staring at her with extreme confusion , his disbelief becomes all the more apparent when Filiz, desperately trying to avoid eye contact, puts her hands on the edges of his shirt and starts pulling it herself . She is taking his shirt off . " Filiz is taking my shirt off …" his mind kept repeating this thought like a broken the hell is going on ? What is she doing ? Her touch awakens his deepest cravings and he can't help but want her even more than before . How many times did he wish for this to happen ? wait …This ? what did he mean by "this" ? What was he expecting to happen now ? Why does he find himself unable to conceal the immense satisfaction he felt upon seeing her undressing him? Shock . Confusion . Weakness . Desire . A surge of emotions assaulted his being like a ferocious army. If this were a battlefield, then he had already surrendered himself completely to her .

Baris's stream of consciousness is caught off by Filiz's voice :

" I know you wouldn't tell me even if you feel pain so I am going to check for injuries myself, if you don't mind …. "

" No , of course not … "

Filiz carefully checks his exposed chest, his back and arms, & even his abdomen , finding some bruises and taking care of them in the process. Baris 's heart was pounding so hard Filiz herself could discern that sound. And to be honest, he wasn't the only one . Filiz herself was feeling so nervous , but she was taken aback by her own bravery. Where did she find the courage to undress Baris like that ? She could never provide an answer .All she knows is that she wouldn't be relieved until she made sure none of his injuries was too dangerous or too painful , until she made sure HE was no longer in any physical pain at least, until she made sure HE was .. okay .

Yes she was doing a great job, but it was certainly not easy. She was literally struggling to keep her breathing even, to hide how her red cheeks kept getting warmer, and how she'd secretly look at his naked chest , taking a long breath and letting his scent fill her senses whenever he wasn't looking.

Once she was done , she helped him put his shirt back on while trying to keep calm, and proceeds to clean the mess she made while giving him tips on what to do to help his injuries heal as soon as was attentively listening to her, like a child listening to stories told by a " fake" Santa Claus . He was a doctor , of course he knew exactly what to do, but he found her so very endearing in this state that he let her carry on, not to mention that he could truly listen to her for hours. She was and still is his lullaby .

Once this was over, silence came back to fill the space between them again .By this time, Filiz was standing away, directly facing him as he was still sitting on the couch .

" So … I … I guess I'm gonna leave now .." says Filiz .

She was leaving . Filiz was leaving him to his demons again and this night was going to be over . This awkward state of euphoria was going to disappear with her .All of these thoughts take over in the blink of an eye and he completely freaks out .He refuses to admit it to himself but he doesn't want her to leave, he doesn't even want her to step further towards that door. He wished he could just lock the both of them together in there and throw the keys , to talk about everything, to scream and shout and blame each other, but embrace each other at the end of it all. But sadly this shall remain a fantasy .

" Don't go .. "

Filiz freezes in her steps . Did he just ask her not to leave [him]?

Baris stands up and approaches her , making the distance between them almost non-existant and asks : " You took care of me so very well .Let me thank you by offering a hot cup of chamomile tea to relax you before getting into bed . I promise you I won't poison you "

He was joking to try to lighten the mood and Filiz appreciates this small gesture. Despite it all, Baris had always put her comfort first .

" No no there's no need .It's getting really late and I should go. Plus, you should be resting now .."

" Filiz please .."

She sensed so much seriousness and earnestness in his plea that she couldn't refuse . And truth be told, she didn't want to leave him either, despite everything that's happened.

" Okay. I guess some chamomile tea would make us both rest better .."

He smiles and his face lights up like that of a child who's just been told that they're going to DisneyLand .

" I'll be right back , please take a seat . " As he disappears into the kitchen she could hear his voice " you can turn on the tv if you like . Do you want to eat something too ?"

" No no I'm fine thanx"

Minutes later; Baris comes back into the room holding two cups of tea and hands her smiles and takes it, then reluctantly takes a seat on the chair next to the door. He asks her to make herself comfortable and sit on the couch with him but she politely declines so he sits in the same spot he was sitting in on the couch, truly missing the warmth of her body that he have had the chance to feel again moments ago .

Unfortunately, not even chamomile tea was able to calm their nerves. They were both drinking it, not a single word was exchanged between them, as they were reluctantly trying to avoid each other's gaze ,and casually smiling whenever their eyes met .

A few moments went by, where they both had so much things they needed to say but neither one of them had the courage to start first.

" Why are you here ? " Baris asks without warning . " Why did you come to me Filiz?"