A/N: Helloooooooooooo. This is another MERDER story. The story doesn't really follow the original GA episodes but this is set when Derek breakup with Meredith.

Disclaimer: Obviously, I do not own Grey's Anatomy or any of it's Characters they solely belong to the genius Shonda Rhimes.

"I slept with her. I'm sorry. Meredith, I don't want to do this anymore."

"You can't trust anyone. You're not letting anyone in. You – you can't let me in. You will always find a reason to walk away. I can't keep watching you walk away, Meredith, I can't wait forever for you. I - I can't do this anymore." Derek admitted as he looks with sincerity in his eyes.

She just stared at him. The love of her life, disappearing again. When finally, she believes she have someone who will never leave her, but apparently that someone is currently cutting that belief. Maybe everyone was right. She was no good for anyone.

"Always be good to you Mom okay? Bye, Meredith." His last words before she saw him walking out of their door. Not knowing her own father left her.

"What the hell happened to you?! I raised you to be an extraordinary human being! So, imagine my disappointment when I wake up after 5 years and discover that you're no more than ordinary!"

*slap* from her own father. 'I shouldn't have trusted you! she shouldn't have trusted you! You killed her! You killed my wife and you take her away from me!

"Get out of here! You're not wanted here! I don't want you anywhere near me or my family!"

And now …

Meredith bitterly smiled with disbelief tears escaping from her eyes. 'I'm no good for anyone. Why did I ever think I can be anything but ordinary'

After everything, that happened between them. He is choosing to leave her again. Apparently, loving him isn't enough for him. He chooses to give up, but she can't really blame him. She has many issues that is not easy to overcome, but seemingly it's too much for him.

She let out a sigh, but still smiling at him as tears starts to escape from her eyes.

"I'm sorry … for everything" She smiled at him before walking out. He never saw that smile until now. The smile that indicates the world just swallowed her into a very dark and alone world. Her body is like covered of sadness and hurt, it's like happiness is no longer a word for her.

His heart pinched at her state.