CinderXFire
A/N: Tell me what you think! I love writing romances! Also, you can give suggestions for couples in the reviews.
Disclaimer: I don't own warrior or the awesome couples I write about.
I watched in pain as you padded away.
"Don't worry, I'll still be the same old Cinderpaw."
But I knew I wouldn't be. Because I wouldn't be able to tell you I love you. I was becoming a medicine cat.
I loved you ever since you became my mentor. You were so kind, sweet, smart, and brave. I was so proud you were my mentor. But when I got hit on the thunderpath, I knew everything was going to change. The pain I felt on that day, not only from my leg, but from my heart, was unbearable. Sometimes I felt that pain when I watched you with Sandstorm. I was unable to do anything, I was condemned to watch her love for you grow from the distance. Nevertheless, I still loved you. Even though I knew I'd never have a chance with you. Sandstorm was the barrier between me and you. She destroyed everything. But, I don't blame her. I blame myself. If I would have listened to you, and not gone to the thunderpath, I would have became a warrior. Firestar, my heart has been broken many times, and it will never completely mend. My heart is scarred, and herbs can't fix an everlasting broken heart.
Sometimes I felt so immature, whining to myself, wishing you were mine. But I was a wise, strong cat. I could deal with the pain that came with heartbreak. I never expected I would feel so hopeless, and angry. Living in Yellowfang's shadow, sometimes I wondered what things would have been like if I would have became a warrior. I wondered if StarClan set me down this road of being a medicine cat. But Yellowfang pushed me, wanting me to learn. Little did I know that she, too, had loved, and it had ruined her life.
I grew up, though. I learned to respect what had happened to me. But a voice deep inside kept reminding me about what could have been. I could have been your mate. I could have had your kits. Sandstorm loves you, I know that for sure. But I always will, too. Even though you will never know. My heart will always belong to you, Firestar, and it always has. But no matter how hard you try, you'll never realize what I've been fighting so hard to hide.
Love can hurt someone more than you could imagine. You heart aches and your fur trembles at the thought of the cat you love. But, knowing the cat you love will never love you back is hurts more than any battle scar. If there's one thing I've learned, it's that herbs can't cure all wounds. You'll never know the feeling, though. The feeling of pain, the feeling of regret, the feeling of being desperate. Desperate for you to love me. The past haunts me like whispers in the dark. The past always reminds me of heartbreak, loneliness and sorrow. I dread the past. I wish everything could change, but I know it never will. Watching you with Sandstorm, reminds me that you will age with her. She'll always be beside you, helping you along the road to StarClan. I'll grow old, too. But I'll always be alone.
Being a medicine cat is great, but not as great as being by your side. Emotional pain stalks my dreams at night. When Sandstorm had your kits, I knew I would never have a chance. The tiny bit of hope I had was gone. I didn't hate your kits, though. It wasn't their fault that I was scarred for life. Even though you never realized, you hurt me more than words could ever say. Even though you've never said a mean word to me, being away from you almost makes my heart stop beating. Having your scent around me and knowing you can never be mine makes me want to die. But I have to be strong, because your Clan relies on me. I had to let go of my feelings, but I knew I never could. My love for you lives in me, like a fire burning in my chest. And I'll never let it die.