Author's note: So I think I have a new idea for a multi-chap, but I'm not really sure exactly how it's going to turn out. Each chapter is going to be a diary entry or something from Ally's songbook. If you have ideas for what entries I could write about that would be cool:)
This chapter is a diary entry from Girlfriends & Girl Friends or sometime around then.
I don't own Austin and Ally, You Can Come to Me, I Think About You, or anything else in this story other than the plot.
Dear Diary,
It's really weird. I've always been just friends with Austin, and I never thought that might change. There was a time, near the beginning of our partnership, when I had a crush on Dallas, and Austin was being nosy and he read the diary entry on page 15 in this book, and he thought that I had a crush on him!
At the time, that seemed ridiculous! He was horrified, and when I found out, I was too! But it's been quite a while since then, and I guess my feelings have changed. I never expected them to, but I guess that's just how things work.
The problem is, Austin obviously still sees me as a friend, and there's no telling whether or not we'll ever be more than that. I mean, he likes Kira, and I think their relationship is unlike Austin's past crushes. I'm okay with that, but I'm just worried about how my feelings will affect our partnership. If Austin sees me as a friend, but I like him, will I make things too awkward?
I've started writing a new song, but it's not going well. Usually, Austin and I work together, but he's been with Kira for a while and I haven't seen him much for two days. It's okay with me, because I understand that he can be in a relationship and still care for his friends. He'll find time to hang out with us sometime. But our song is not doing so well. I started thinking about the chorus:
If you wanna climb I'll be your ladder
If you wanna run I'll be your road
If you wanna...
That's basically it. All that I've come up with in two days.
The problem is, this song reflects our friendship. And right now, I'm not sure what that is. I know I want to include a part about "if you want a friend", but how am I supposed to incorporate that into the song?
I'll figure this out later, when I can work with Austin. He'll figure something out, I'm sure. I just don't know when he'll be available for songwriting. I already miss having him by my side; everything's just so different now.
And I wonder if you miss me too
If you don't here's the one thing that I wish you knew
New song lyrics. What do I wish Austin knew?
I think about you every morning when I open my eyes
I think about you every evening when I turn out the lights
I think about you every moment, every day of my life
You're on my mind, all the time, it's true.
I don't know what I'm going to do with this song. I just know that I want to finish writing it, and Austin will never find out about it unless he really does share my feelings.
I remember when we met last summer, when we were just friends. I mean, at first I didn't like him because he stole my song and he was annoying, but eventually we became friends. We went through so much that summer, and I remember thinking that we would just be friends forever. But somehow, it's autumn and things have changed so much! I don't think Austin likes me as more than a friend, but being around him just gives me butterflies. I mean, when Austin and I stay late at night to write songs, everything just turns to magic!
Hey, that could be used for my song.
Last summer we met, we started as friends.
I can't tell you how it all happened.
And autumn it came, we were never the same;
Those nights, everything felt like magic
And I wonder if you miss me too
If you don't here's the one thing that I wish you knew:
I think about you every morning when I open my eyes
I think about you every evening when I turn out the lights
I think about you every moment, every day of my life
You're on my mind all the time, it's true.
It's perfect! Too bad no one will ever see it; it's the best song I've written in a while. I hope that one day, Austin will realize how much I like him and return the same feelings, but for now, this song will stay hidden.
I know that, no matter what happens, I'll always be Austin's friend. I hope he knows how much I care about him and if he needs a friend, I'll be there. It doesn't matter where or when, but I would do anything for him.
That's it!
If you wanna climb I'll be your ladder
If you wanna run I'll be your road
If you want a friend, doesn't matter when
Anything you need that's what I'll be
You can come to me
I think it sounds great! Austin will love it!
Author's note: So it's kind of short, and I think the next chapters will be, too. I hope you liked it, and if not, feedback is always appreciated! Also, suggestions for more diary entries would be great! :)