Regret
It was Casey Cartwrights' senior year of college and while she was going off to Washington Law school she couldn't help but think back to where it all began and not just her career, but in love.
Her thoughts take her back to freshman year her first year of a long road ahead. It's where she started dating Cappie the slacker who loved her but cared to much for his faternity Kappa Tau to pay attention.
Evan Chambers the rich, handsome, powerful, knew what he wanted in life(until he gave up his trust fund and went against his parents)type of guy who she thought would spend the rest of her life with until that got shot through flames and he ended their relationship because of Caseys' old feelings for an ex-lover Cappie no other.
Then there was Max Tyler the geeky cute guy who loved Casey and moved their relationship to new levels after just a few months only for than to come to a halt after she realized she still loves Cappie.
Casey stopped daydreaming long enough to realize that Ashleigh her best friend and former room mate came running through the door in tears.
I HATE MY LIFE, I HATE MY LIFE she said over and over again.
My first instinct was to go and ask what's wrong but instead I just sat next to her and put my arm around her letting her sob until she was out of breath.
Casey, why can't I have your perfect life, Ashleigh said starting to cry hysterically.
Casey just smiled and said Ash my life is far from perfect. What makes you think it is?
Because you have it all the job, the look, the brains, and the talent! All I have is a pretty face and a various collection of shoes, clothes, and accessories, Ashleigh said in a depressed tone.
That's not all you have, you also have great taste in hairstyles and makeup.
Casey said smiling getting a little chuckle from Ashleigh as well.
Oh what's that, do I see a smile on your face Casey said playfully bumping her shoulder into hers.
Just because you got a little smile out of me doesn't mean I'm not right, Ashleigh said her facial expression turning back into a frown.
Ash you are my best friend and I don't even know why you are so upset about your life. We are graduating and I am going to Washington and you are going to have your new amazing career as a fashion designer in New York, right Casey asked noticing Ashlieghs' eyes looking at the other side of the room.
Ash what aren't you telling me? Casey asked in a demanding voice.
My career in fashion is a bust OK!, Ashleigh said sighing.
WOW, what happened I thought when we were on spring break you got that internship for that designer photographer person?
I did, but then she had to fire me before I even started working because she forgot another person applied for the job before me and she had to give her the job instead of me.
Ashleigh sighed
Oh Ash, Casey said as Ashleigh was leaning her head on Caseys' shoulder.
God, I am just so frustrated because I really wanted this job and now I'm jobless and don't even know what I am going to do after graduation.
Casey I'm going to have to sit on the side of the road on the bad side of town selling myself to strangers or let people pay me for and outfit makeover. Oh no what about my credit card I can't live without it Ashleigh sad starting to hyperventilate.
OK, Ash calm down I don't think it's come down to a prostitute but in the meant time I can tell you what your not going to do.
Your not going to sit around moping about what didn't happen. Your going to take a hot shower, get your cutest outfit on, and head down to Doblers with me to flirt with HOT guys, OK.
Thanks Casey, but I don't think a booty call is what I need. I think I am just going to take a walk around campus while I have the chance.
Well ok if your sure, but if you change your mind you know where to find me ok.
Yeah, oh and Case, you know I was right when I said you have the perfect life. I'm so happy karma is on your side, Ashleigh said smiling before leaving.
I do have the perfect life, I just don't have the love of my life to share it with, Casey said to herself letting a few tears escape her eyes before also leaving the room.
Cappie was sitting at a table with a couple of Kappa Tau's in Dobler's when Rusty showed up.
Hey Cap what's up, Rusty said in his usual perky voice.
Nothing much just sitting here with my brothers drinking beer, he said in a not so happy or enthusiastic tone.
Is everything ok? Heath asked
Everything's fine why do you ask, but before Heath can answer he could tell Cappie wasn't listening.
Cappie watched as Casey came through the bar with a few of her Zeta Beta sisters. The guys looked back to see what Cappie was looking at which was bad for him considering he hasn't told his own brothers the love of his life broke his heart AGAIN and he broke up with her.
Cappie felt like looking the other way and running out of there as fast as he could, but before he could even try Rusty called Casey name to come over here.
Casey was hesitant at first when she saw Cappie sitting with him realizing he hasn't told them about their breakup.
Hey Russ, how are you it feels like we haven't seen each other in years, Casey said trying to fight back tears when she spotted Cappie not even looking at her.
Yeah, the last time we saw each other was two weeks ago at spring break when you were having a crisis, remember.
Rusty said in a dumbfound duh like voice.
At that moment Casey turned her gaze at Cappie who was trying to avoid eye contact with her.
Casey's mind went back to that same night when he broke her heart on her birthday of all days.
She quickly snapped out of her trip down unholy line of heartbreak and finally said, yeah ,right in a sorrowful voice.
Rusty could tell something was going on with his big brother and big sister but he decided to ignore it and leave it alone, but something else caught his attention.
Cap, Rusty said noticing Cappie hasn't said anything since Casey came over here. Aren't you going to say hi to your girlfriend or at least give her a hug or kiss.
Casey looked at the ground upset Rusty brought her and Cappie up. Beaver, Heath, and Rusty all gave Cappie a confused look since he wouldn't take his eyes off of his half empty beer cup.
Cappie, Beaver said HUH, Cappie said before his eyes locked with Casey's. Your girlfriend aren't you going to say hi?
Um, Cappie said gulping not knowing what to say or do.
I'm not his girlfriend anymore, Casey said in a regretful tone.
Wait, WHAT! All three boys yelled.
Casey took a deep breath, her facing turning pale not wanting to relive her worst day and worst birthday.
The day of spring break on my birthday Cappie wanted to lavelier as my present, she started saying.
Looking back at Cappie she said, I didn't accept because I had to let him know that I was going to Washington because that's what's best for me and my future which I thought we would share together. Then we got into this huge argument about not growing up and staying here which led him to throw all of what we had and dump me.
Is that how you see it, Cappie said his voice stern and full of hurt and anger. Do you think I wanted us to break up, or do you thing I wanted you to leave?
Well you sure didn't want to stay with me, Casey said her voice raising loud enough so that the table next to them could hear their conversation, but neither Cappie or Casey cared.
Well what did you expect Cappie said, tell me, how long would we've stayed together? Huh, until graduation and you leave and I'm left here with another broken heart caused by you!
I'm not the only one to blame for all of this, Cappie said.
You are the one who didn't want to leave CRU and grow up, Casey said getting a little agitated.
But I was willing to try, shouldn't that count for something? Cappie said his voice returning to a lower volume.
Look Casey, I'm not a typical person I was born and raised in places you probably haven't even heard of. Kappa Tau is my home, my family, and my support.
Well if it means so much to you why were you willing to leave, Casey stated cutting Cappie off.
Because I LOVE YOU! I loved you so much I was willing to fight for you no matter how many times you turned me down or built me up just for me to come crashing down when you went running back into Evan or Max's arms. I loved you so much I was willing to do and try just about anything to be with you, no matter what the cost.
I loved you when we were together freshman year. I loved you when you were with Evan. Hell I even loved you when I was with Rebecca. I loved you when you were with max. I love you when we got back together and I still LOVE YOU.
You taught me how to be strong and how to let people inside, but no matter who that person was if it was either a girl or guy they would be you. That is something that will never change.
You are the one I see myself with in ten years and for the rest of my life. I just wished you had more faith in our relationship, in me, and most importantly in yourself .
You told me at spring break that you were scared to bungee jump because of what could happen, well now I think you are scared to take a risk with our relationship because your afraid of your heart being broken.
You will always be my one and only Casey Cartwright and I don't want to loose you, but if your ready to let go I am just going to find a way to be ok with that. Cappie said in a hopeful voice that she will come around.
The room was quit Casey was speechless, Cappie and Rusty was waiting for Casey's response, and Heath and Beaver were checking out the straight girls and gay guys passing by.
Well I guess I got my answer, Cappie said in a disappointing voice.
I will never forget you Casey, Cappie said taking the last sips of his beer and putting down the money on the table before storming out of the crowed bar.
Well what are you standing around here for, go after him!, Beaver said encouragingly
Hi guys thanks so much for reading hope you like the first chapter. The second one should be up later tonight or tomorrow. This is my first fan fiction so please don't criticize me to much. I do want your honest opinion though. I also want to thank Lilylulu for helping me get this chapter uploaded in steps I could understand. Lol J I really couldn't have uploaded this without you. SO THANK YOU!