A/N: SO SO SO! Finally I get to update the promised story! 3:) I am so freaking out at the moment of posting it because the flashbacks are based on the real events that happened to no-one other than me so, yeah, it is hard to publish that.

Also, some introduction: I will be writing the old team: Derek, Hotch, Spencer, Rossi, Prentiss, JJ, Garcia, because that's where I stopped watching CM, sorry if that offends anyone ;)

Warning: cheating, rape, suicide attempt

Some introduction at first: it will be mostly flashbacks at first but then I will proceed with an actual plot so you just wait and enjoy the true events that will happen in the flashbacks!

"So, I've heard you and Cassie broke down?" a positive hum. "Must be pretty hard on you. I mean, I know you loved her. Like, really bad. You didn't even see the signs of-"

"SHUT UP!" Spencer yelled over the phone.

"Whoa, dude, chill, I won't say anything anymore if you don't want me to." the voice over the phone quickly said.

"I'm sorry Micheal, it's not really... I don't really want to... You know... I'm still at school and if I start thinking about... I'll just... break down" Spencer laughed nervously, trying to stop the teary feeling.

"I get it, bro. Why don't you come over? You know, I'll make you some tea or coffee maybe, we'll watch some films with nice booties and boobies and you'll forget?" Micheal asked friendly and that earned him a smile from his friend.

"Yeah, sure. I'll be in a minute." Spencer answered and hung up the phone. He took a deep breath and walked out of the school. So far so good. But then-

"Spencer, wait!" he heard a voice he was dreading to hear again.

"What do you want Cassie?" he asked with venom spilling out of his mouth.

"I just want to talk... Look, I really am sorry for what happened." she said slowly.

"Oh, stop it. You don't really think your sorry will heal the fact that you cheated on me? Apparently, have been for all those years we've been together?" Spencer laughed humorlessly at his ex.

"What, you saw me doing it once and you think that I do it every day?" she yelled angry.

"I'm a fucking genius, Cassie. I kind of can say when you're lying and when you do something so long that it has become a habit to you. The thing you did? It looked quiet like a habit to me!" Spencer answered with a loud shout as well.

"Fine. But from now on? Your life is going to be one hell of a hell!" she screeched angrily and walked off.

"Oh great, nice to know your intelligence is as high as your vocabulary knowledge!" he hissed after her and walked towards his best friend's house. They were friends for almost 12 years and both really helped each other when the second one needed it. It was mostly Micheal helping Spencer, however, but that was not important for him.

Spencer opened the door to his friend's house and yelled a loud "Micheal?" in order to let Micheal acknowledge him.

"In the living room!" he heard his best friend's voice announce his location and happily followed the voice.

"Hi there" he was met with a soft glance and a welcoming voice.

"Hi Micheal..." he answered, letting his tiredness get the better of him and collapsing on the couch next to his friend.

"Sooo..." Micheal started slowly, unsure how to get Spencer talk. "You wanna tea? Coffee?" he asked and when he received a small "tea, please" he smiled and went straight to the kitchen just to get back with the already made liquid.

"Thanks..."

"No prob, bro. So... do you want to talk about it? I mean... I know how much she meant to you..."

"You know... For a moment I thought that I was... important... That my dad was wrong when he said that nobody would ever love me because of... being me. And because of being with her? I let myself think that he was wrong. I was so stupid!" he sighed in frustration, punching his thigh.

"Hey, hey, hey!" Micheal quickly took Spencer's hand away from his body so that the boy wouldn't hurt himself. "It's not your fault. She was the cheating bitch, deep down you know it. You must know it. You're a goddamn genius. Right?" when he didn't receive an answer, he sighed softly and hugged the younger boy.

"I'm sorry Micheal... It's just..." Spencer spoke softly, letting the tears fall finally.

"Frustrating? Heartbreaking? Infuriating? Sad? Unpleasant? Annoying?" Micheal asked, smiling a sad smile.

"Funny." Spencer answered and when he felt his friend's heartbeat skip a beat he corrected himself. "I mean... I really thought that it would last forever and I am a genius so... yeah. I find it funny above it all." he laughed softly but he didn't really feel like it. He felt more like crying which, to be honest, he'd been doing since he entered the home of his friend.

"Don't talk like that. There was no way you could've known it wouldn't last. As far as I was concerned you two would die for each other." Micheal spoke softly, hugging his friend closer.

"Yeah, well, I thought so too. I would die for her. Oh, hell I would..." he smirked but Micheal couldn't possibly see it. "Buuut... If I'm already here... And since you have all those incredible games on your new computer..." he slowly started, making his friend's smile to appear and grow. "I AM SO GONNA MAKE YOU LOOSE!" he yelled with a childish laugh, throwing his friend off of him and making his way towards the computer, his tea still in his hand.

"You don't even stand a chance against me, kid! I've been living in this world six years longer than you have, bear with it!" Micheal roared playfully, grabbing a controller into his hands.

"We'll see about it!" Spencer laughed triumphantly.

He woke up slowly, not really wanting to remember. He looked at his phone

1 massage

Jennifer Jerrau

We've got a case. Be ASAP

He smiled. He needed it. He needed something to get his head on. The dreams that he'd been dreaming were constantly reappearing and as much as he tried to forget them, his eidetic memory didn't allow him to do so. So... so much for the distraction.

He got up and got himself ready for work. He cleaned himself as well as he could, scratching every inch of his body, as always. It was always the most important thing in Spencer's morning, always taking more than an hour to accomplish fully. Then, his coffee, a lot of sugar in it. Now, that he felt awaken, he could proceed with his work day.

When he got to the bureau, he saw that everyone was already in the meeting room, waiting for him.

"I'm sorry it took me so long." he mumbled and sat down as fast as possible. He didn't look anyone in the eye, he didn't want to deal with all the curious glances from his teammates.

"And why exactly did it take you so long to get here, Reid?" Hotch asked skeptically.

"My coffee express stopped working." he came out with a perfect excuse. They all knew that Dr. Spencer Reid, without his morning coffee was not Dr. Spencer Reid so they all smiled at that, Derek and Rossi both actually hiding a laugh. Without further ado, Penelope started briefing the team in.

"So... We've got a bad case of rape and murder on thin, tall boys with brown curly hair. They were all sixteen. There were six victims so far, the locals are worried there soon will be the seventh one." Penelope stated, not even daring to look at the pictures she was showing to her friends.

"They all look alike. Same age, same figure, same hair style. Something connects them, someone connects them. Maybe the UnSub's first lover?" Derek suggested. Rossi shook his head.

"No, not like a lover. He doesn't live in delusion. He doesn't treat them like he would his lover. He is rough, merciless. It's more like the victims are based on his first victim." Rossi stated, his face scrunched in disgust.

"So we should be looking for another body?" JJ asked thoughtfully.

"Not really." Emily perked up. "Maybe he rapes the boys like he did with his first victim and then remembers something and kills them. It might be that his first victim is still alive. I don't know how to say it so that you could understand but... Maybe the UnSub knew his first victim and didn't want him or her to be hurt. Maybe he raped them in the heat of the moment and then realized what he had done. But before he could apologize, the first victim was gone and now he rapes the boys that look like the first victim and then kills them so that they don't have to live with being violated in such a way." she suggested, getting slightly frustrated at the thought of not being able to explain something important. Spencer shot her a look full of understanding.

"If your thinking is right, we might find the first victim based on the victomology. Where are we heading this time?" Derek asked, looking over his file once again before closing it.

"Las Vegas. Wheels up in twenty." was all Hotch said before standing up and walking out of the meeting room.

"Wait. Las Vegas. Thin, tall boys, brown, curly hair. Reid!" Derek yelled loudly after the young genius. Spencer tensed up for a moment and then willed his body to relax.

"What is it?" he asked innocently, as clueless as he could.

"Do you have a long lost twin we didn't know about?" Morgan asked playfully. Spencer looked at him as if he was some kind of an alien.

"What are you even talking about? He would be in my files, first of all, and then, why would I hide him from you if I had one?" he asked. Perfectly played, he had to admit that to himself.

"Oh man, never mind..." Derek laughed, ignoring the smirks of his teammates as he patted the still "clueless" genius and walked to gather his belongings.

After twenty minutes, they were all sitting comfortably on the jet, getting over the case once again. Spencer tried to tell himself that it wasn't that... that it wasn't him. It couldn't be.

His hands tracing circles over Spencer's shuddering body. The touch he dreaded, the fingers he hated, the breath he loathed, the man he once considered a best friend, an anchor.

Spencer shrugged the feelings off. It wasn't the right time to feel...it. It was the time he saved all those boys from someone he probably knew all too well.

"Reid, what do you think?" Hotch asked his youngest teammate. Spencer's actions that morning were disturbing him, to say at least. He was staring absentmindedly off somewhere he only knew, he let himself be less concentrated than ever. Not to mention his cheap excuse of his express being broken. Sixth time a week? Really? Aaron was surprised that, among all those profilers in the room, he was the only one who noticed the obvious lie or the way Spencer looked. He was sleepy, his bangs under his eyes more like black eyes, his cheeks hollow. He looked like hell. And Hotch was the only one to notice. Laughable. He made a decision that he would talk to Spencer as soon as he had the occasion to do so.

"Um... I think that what Emily said back in the office could be right. They could be friends and while they might not be anymore, the UnSub still tries to regain the long lost friendship by repeating the process and then 'apologizing' to all those boys." he said quickly.

"Oh my... How exactly did you put something like that into less than thirty words while it took me eternity to explain it and only you understood!?" Prentiss moaned exasperated and everyone laughed at her.

"Well, he is a genius, isn't he? He has to deal with people not understanding him more than you would ever imagine. He's used to explaining everything by now, I guess." JJ smiled softly at the now blushing genius. Everyone just laughed more at that reaction. Hotch, however, only frowned. How exactly did Reid know that thing? While it was probably right, Prentiss didn't exactly mention victim and UnSub being friends. She spoke of them more like of relatives or just two people knowing each other. Not friends. And how did he know that they were not friends anymore. And the 'long lost friendship line'? How did he know if the first rape happened long ago? It could have had happened a year or even a month ago and yet Spencer was talking about long lost friendship. Yeah, he would definitely have to talk about it with the youngest.

"Hotch is everything okay? Why are you staring at me?" Do I have something on my face?" Spencer asked his coworker worriedly. Hotch just smiled halfheartedly and shook his head.

"Not really. Let's end it here. Get some sleep, we'll be landing in two hours."

A/N: Oh my, Hotch is picking up on some big stuff. Are you?

And big teddy-bear hugs to SpenceFWT, thanks for finding my stupid mistake! I mistook Virginia and Las Vegas accidentally :o

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