On the outside, looking in.

~the invisible girl's live journal~


September 28
Feelings-

Well, I bet nobody is really interested in my life. But here I go anyways. My name is Isabella Swan but I despise that name so to my family and teachers I'm Bella Swan.
You probable noticed how I only said family and teacher, not friends, well that's because I don't have any. I'm a bit of a loner, nothing happens in my life. I stay in the house when I'm not at school, if ever actually see me you will see me with my nose in a book.

I have hazel brown hair and brown eyes, but you couldn't really see them because of my big thick glasses I have for reading, even though I never take them off.

My whole life I have been invisible. So invisible, that people sit on me!

~Bella~

September 29
Feelings -

I haven't been at school for a couple of days because I've been ill, but today I was going back. It felt real strange today like someone was watching me and I never had that feeling before. It was weird I mean who would be watching me?

The is how my day started out.

I ran down stairs because I was going to be late but instead of running down them I fell, tumbling down them. "Ouch!" It was also quicker that way.

"Fall, down the stairs again hun?" My father, Charlie asked. "Yeh, right got to go, dad!" I said picking up my bag from the hallway. "You not eat-" I heard just before I slammed the door, and went to my old red Chevy truck.

I was an hour earlier to school, like always. So, I went to my favourite place in the whole world…the music room.

I took the guitar off the stand, took my glasses off, put my song book down and started to play a song I had written about the book I had just finished. It was about a young girl, who had to say goodbye to her childhood sweat heart.

Walking past you through the hall
Stopping by to give you a call
We've been through it all
Talking to you saying our goodbyes
Can't believe that we are leaving
This is the end for us all

Yeah Yeah Ohh

And how do we say our goodbyes
Do we laugh or cry
And why does this have to be so hard
Yeah yeah ohh
And how do we say our goodbyes
Do we laugh or cry
And do i just say goodbye
Should i laugh or cry

Everything has just disappered into air
I bearly got to say goodbye
It's friends forever that's what we used to say
Now everything is flying away

And how do we say our goodbyes
Do we laugh or cry
And why does this have to be so hard
Yeahhhh (why does it have to be)
And how do we say our goodbyes
Do we laugh or cry
And do i just say goodbye
Oh ooh oh oooh ohhh

I just wish that everything was the same (the same)
Now all the memories floating away

Yeahhhh ohhh..

And how do we say our goodbyes
Do we laugh or cry
And why does this have to be so hard (so hard)
And how do we say our goodbyes
Do we laugh or cry
And do i just say goodbye
Should i laugh or cry

The song came to an end and that when someone started to clap. I spun around with wide eyes. "That was amazing! I'm Alice, and you are?"

I just stared at her. "Sorry, I didn't mean to intrude but I heard music while I was going to textiles, I'm very sorry!"

"Erm…I'm B-Isabella, its nice to meet y-you" She shook my hand. "Are you new, here?" She asked. NO IV'E BEEN TO THE SAME SCHOOL AS YOU SINCE WE WERE FIVE! I though. "No, we actually been going to the same school since we were five!" I said collecting my stuff.

"Well, I'm extremely sorry I haven't talked to you sooner!"

"Yeh, me too"

"Hey, Bella?" I nodded to allow her to know she was right about my name. "Would you like to sit next to me at dinner?"

"Erm, thank you but no…bye!" And with I dashed out of the room.

I mean come that IS strange the first time someone has talked to me since…well forever.

The worst thing is I lost my song book. Well when say lost, I mean I left it in the music room and Alice Cullen picked it up. She rang me today and this is how the conversation started.

"Hey Bella, its Alice!" She sounded excited. All I thought was How come she hasn't forgotten about me already? And How did she get my number?

"Hi, Alice how did you get my nu-" Before I had chance to finish, she cut me off.

"Well you left you lyric book. So Anyway I was thinking do you want to be my friend?" Alice Cullen, just asked me if I wanted to be her friend. She was Thee Edward Cullen's sister.
Edward Cullen was the most popular boy in the school, everyone loved him, even I.

"Erm, Yeh why not?"

"Exactly, so I will pick you up on Saturday ?"

"Alice, we don't go to school on Saturday…"

"Yeh I know! We are going shopping!" She squealed, so loud I had to take the phone ten centimetres away from my ear.

"Alice, I don't real-" She cut me off again knowing what I was going to say.

"I know you don't like shopping, but Bella you need new wardrobe" She said matter-fatly. Well that was mean, even though I knew she didn't mean to make it sound mean.

"Fine" I don't know why I just agreed to shopping with Alice, but she was now my friend and I didn't want to loose her. My life might start to get interesting.

"Cool, Oh and sit next to me at dinner tomorrow! Bye!" and with that she was gone.

Tomorrow is Friday and I will be sitting with the Cullen family, well not all of them Edward doesn't sit with them.